…. please please please if you DON’T have any money, but you still want to GIVE for thanksgiving, PLEASE click the link below.
click here —————–>>>> http://www.thehungersite.com/
(there is a button on the front page to click on and every time you click on it, you are giving free food to hungry people and it DOESN’T cost anything.)
Your one little click can make someone’s little tummy feel better. Please please click!
Current Wardrobe: a form-fitting tie-dyed dress that is dark purple and green, ankle length, long sleeve, dark purple panties, dark purple bra from victorias secret
Ok, the UPS guy knocked on my door and I was dead asleep and could not roll myself to get out of bed because when I am asleep, I am dead to the world. (I can’t even hear a phone ring or an alarm clock go off)… so you can imagine my surprise to see two packages sitting on my terrace when I woke up and was going to go jogging.
OMG. My generous and thoughtful maryland attorney/writer/son sent me two christmas presents in the mail from my amazon wish list! OMG what a SHOCK!!!! *grins proudly* - he got me a brand new XBox game system AND he got me a flat screen computer monitor that is sooooo thin!!!! I am so so so so happy! It was completely unexpected, unearned, undeserved, and I am completely unworthy and utterly humbled. Thank you thank you thank you! *smooches and hugs and kisses*
I am completely the luckiest girl in the world. Speechless. Absolutely speechless. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. I remember opening the boxes and running around the house with them in my hand, calling my sister and going - “omg omg omg guess what????” and of course it made her jealous, but I didn’t mean it to be. So I invited her to come over sometime and play with me! This is absolutely wonderful, thank you so much!!!!
Tonight I am going to Sacramento, which is a 10 hour drive. I am going to spend Thanksgiving with my family, visit my cousins, aunts, and even my mom. And on Friday, I am going to Santa Cruz and will visit my dad (who I haven’t seen in like 2 years now and I miss him SOOOO bad) and will ALSO see my aunts, uncles and grandparents on my dad’s side who I haven’t seen since I was like 15 years old. So I am very excited. I should be back home on Saturday.
I will be forwarding my phone while I am in Sacramento, so you CAN catch me on Thursday when I am in my aunt’s guest house by myself, I will still be taking calls. But I will not be here Friday cause I will be with my father, and then driving a long way back.
My friend Sarah bought a plane ticket for me to spend a day and a half in Florida and I only got to spend a short time there, but it gave me a chance to see some of my friends Val and Jacob from when I lived in Florida.
Shoutouts:
Mmmmm sweet loving with my New York concert boy who loves to be the boy next door, had a lovely call with my roleplay lover who likes to discuss a future roleplay before actually fucking - can’t wait to fuck you!!! Had a great time teasing my favorite San Diego ER doctor in his cute lil panties, had a delicious HOUR long call with a small-peckered sexy dj-sounding man in Texas who also likes to do volunteer work (how sweet of you), and then I got to hypnotize a sexy man with a major foot fetish and loves to be dressed up and teased - awww thanks for the feet loving!
Current Wardrobe: Red satin bedsheet covering my body
Things have been wonderful these last few days, I have spent more time volunteering at the V.A. hospital and I am also wanting to start volunteering at the childrens hospital as well to spend time with the kids. If I can find the time, I would like to do both and help out as often as possible! I know many of you may not find this sexy or appealing at all, but hey - this is my journal where I write about my every-day life and this is who I am. I even went to the store got all the ingredients to make chocolate chip cookies and I baked some homemade chocolate chip cookies and brought them to the hospital. I had planned to give them to the patients, but they were on strict diets and I could not, so I gave them to all the nurses instead and got to know them better. Such sweet caring people! I brought my camera to work on Saturday since it was Open House and had some of the nurses take pictures of me and some of the people I hang around. Open House is a day where a lot of the visitors come and visit their families and other patients and we give them tours of the place. All of us volunteers were asked to come in to help give some of the family members a tour of the place and show them the improvements made on the floors.
My cable guy is coming over in 6-12 hours to install cable in my bedroom, I am so so so excited about this, sometimes something very small can just make someone’s day!
Today is Monday which is my father’s birthday and even though I will miss seeing, I will be seeing him on Friday so I am very excited! I haven’t seen my father in about three years now, so this will be a wonderful experience for me! For his birthday I bought him a $100 gift card at Wal-Mart since he worked there for like 12 years and even though there isn’t a Wal-Mart store in his city (I didn’t realize that till after I bought it) there is one very close to him and I know he will get great use out of it. Buying gifts for men is very difficult for me, I never know what to get them. Last year I burned my father some custom cd’s with his favorite music and some obscure songs he hadn’t heard in decades, and the year before that I bought him some an blanket with American-Indian photographs dyed into the fabric which he totally loved and also I had handmade him a slingshot out of leather - it was so hard putting a needle through leather so that little slingshot took me weeks and weeks!
Also in a couple hours, my friend Sarah is flying down from Florida to see me (I shared a photo of her many months ago in my journal if any of you remember) and we are going to hang out with me and my friend Ann and maybe Becky. So I will spend a day with the girls and have some fun around San Diego with them!
Shoutouts:
Had an ass-stretching call with my ass-fisting bowling pin boy, had a delicious call with my sexy pantyboy I like to call dana who let me fuck his ass up, had a WHOLE HOUR with my wonderful Mr. I-Love-You-Pretty-Please-May-I-Cum-Daddy who tied me up with his tie and spanked me for having a bad report card and then spanked my pretty little feet as a punishment - oooh I was a bad bad bad naughty little schoolgirl, then I had a WHOLE HOUR with a sexy man who treated me like a total whore over and over treating me like a slut and CALLED TWICE, total sweetie 
and then I had a memorable roleplay with a patient and I got to be his sexy nurse - wow that was hot! I had a fabulous call with a new caller who I thought was unbelievable respectful - let me interview him for a job and in return he had to pleasure my feet and toes in my thigh highs - totally polite foot fetish applicant! And then he CALLED TWICE just to tell me how wonderful the experience was for him, trust me the feeling was mutual! Speaking of feet, I had another fabulous caller who had a foot fetish under the table and I tickle-tickle-tickled his cock under the table at home. Also, I had my favorite fag boy fairy call me and humiliate his homo ass in his pretty pink panties and he CALLED THREE TIMES! Wow! My wonderful Chicago sweetie called and had a THREESOME with me and Beth which was totally hot (and he said this was part one of a three-part belated birthday present - awwwww)! I came so hard with my sweet Beth! Then I had a WHOLE HOUR with my sexy New Hampshire lover who hypnotized me and made me cum, then called me for ANOTHER HOUR after he hung up cause he couldn’t get enough! Then an amazing call with my charming prince who let me seduce and hypnotize him as daddy’s little girl and made him cum using just his thumbs, then wow - back to back calls with my favorite San Diego E.R. Doctor who looks so sexy in his pink filly panties and lace who CALLED 5-6 TIMES in one and a half nights. He just couldn’t resist! Then my darling-sweet loving pantyboy sub crossdresser called me and left me a tip with the dispatcher and just made my night! What a hard hard cum! OVER and OVER! And last but not least, I had a fantastic call with one sexy man who wanted to be my pantyboy but turned the tables on me in the middle of the call to make me his personal slut and he made me fuck my ass with a dildo, use my clit pump on my poor little clit, and then put ouchy nipple clamps on my swollen nipples as he spanked the hell outta me woowowwow that was fun!
Current Wardrobe: Black tanga from Victoria’s Secret, black bra, red silky robe
Well I just got paid, and you all know that I am a big spender, and I can’t manage money at all…. but I DO know how to shop! So I went to Wal-Mart and bought some stuff. Yes, I know, shopping at Wal-Mart isn’t a very good thing considering so many sweat shops are involved in manufacturing, employees aren’t paid well, and it is so freaking corporate………. but with that ASIDE, they DO have good prices, so I gave in. Although I do feel kind of guilty because my heart goes out to the families of those who are poorly paid. I swear, if there was another tv store around here, I would have gone to another one.
I bought a 2nd tv, a 2nd dvd player, a computer stand, and more hippie decorations for my apartment. I don’t know if I mentioned this before, but I live in a one-bedroom apartment, and I have one television which is in the living room. However, I spend SOOOO much time in my bedroom (cumming, being on computer, sleeping, eating, etc.) that it only seemed practical to buy a tv for my bedroom. I NEVER get a chance to watch tv in the living room, cause I basically live online. So I bought a 20 inch silver television and also a matching very very very ULTRA thin state-of-the-art silver dvd player as well so I can have dvd players in both rooms. I only get cable in the living room, but the cable guy is coming on Monday between 9 am - 1 pm to install cable in the bedroom as well. I also got a computer stand which I can use as a tv stand, but the BAD NEWS is that I have to assemble it myself. I hate hate hate assembling furniture. So I have it sitting in boxes in the living room just staring at me cause I am stalling the idea of assembling it.
You boys would have laughed at me tonight.
Imagine me. Imagine me with a huge ass box with a tv in it. Imagine me pushing it, pulling it, dragging it in the parking lot….. TRYING to push it over the curb, over the grass, over the sidewalk….. making LOUD noise with the box pushing it, my body bent over it like a rag doll trying to get it up 5 steps … then dropping it….. then going back up the steps again to get to my apartment (which thankfully is on the first level).
Now on my second trip to the car, a man saw me pushing, dragging the computer/tv stand and offered to help and that was so sweet *grins* — I was so thankful!
I have great leg strength from all my jogging and running. But I have pitiful arms. I felt so incredibly weak. I am still wondering how I am gonna lift the tv to put it on the stand. Guess I have to play damsel in distress to some helpless male victim. hee hee - men are very valuable - they have muscles, they have strength, they have the bulk and mass. I love men. I wish I could press a button on the wall that says “Bring Man Over” that automatically brings a man to my service to open jars, hang up bulky pictures, dangle things from ceiling that I can’t reach, take trash out, assemble furniture, etc. You know, that MANLY stuff. *does tim allen’s impression -argh argh argh*
And……..
It has been 5 weeks and several days since I have had *real* sex. Not that I haven’t had the opportunity, God knows how many men I turned away… but I was trying to spend some time on ME, working out, working on art, doing things for me… but the horniness caught up to me. My friend Junior, the virgin that I have been friends with for about 2 months since I moved here… was the man I decided to have fun with.
So I fucked a virgin today. We had kissed and made out 2 months ago, but we never went further than that other than some petting, I had to teach him how to kiss (I was his first kiss ever), now he is incredible. And well today… when I took my clothes off, I let him see a pussy for the first time and he started shaking. No fucking joke. He was literally shaking. He was blown away that I was about to sleep with him and I taught him step by step what I wanted cause he didn’t know what to do, or what was allowed, or what feels good for me. So I introduced him to my clit, my sweet pussy, showed him how to get on his knees to get on top of me cause he didn’t know how to do it. He tried so hard. He was good at the foreplay, cause I taught him step by step. But damn, he only lasted like 4 minutes in the sack before blowing his load all over the place. I guess it’s hard to make it last when you are a virgin. Maybe next time he will be better.
He is trainable though and I think he has potential. Definitely not relationship material, but definitely a casual sex partner I wouldn’t mind having for those super horny occasions.
Current Wardrobe: Red bra, red panties
Wow it is boiling hot in my bedroom right now, I had to open my window up to let some of the midnight breeze in here cause I am just drenched in sweat. Sometimes I wish the air conditioner was in THIS room rather than in the living room. Anyway, no big deal - I’m not a complainer - so I just opened the window and I feel so much better. *me wipes sweaty neck and lets it dribble down to her breasts*
aaah soo sexy! hee hee
By the way, I changed the look of the front entrance of my website as well as the inside entrance page. Something a little different. I don’t like to keep things the same, I like to spice things up sometimes!
You know, sometimes I wish I was a computer technician. My cd-rewriter hasn’t worked for many months and I don’t have a dvd rom… so I went to wal-mart and bought a cd-rw plus dvd-rom built in one. Well, I figured this would be an external thing that I could just plug into the computer through the USB port. But NOOO…. it requires I open the computer physically and completely install it in there. After panicking, since well… I live alone… and I have no one to do it for me… I took the initiative of trying it. I opened the computer. I took a deep breath. I dusted away some of the lint at the bottom, and attempted to take apart what I needed to, but I couldn’t get it out. I spent about 2 hours just trying to get it back to the way it was. So now, I have a brand new cdrw/dvd rom STILL in the box… and I have no way of installing it. I guess I will have to call a computer technician. I just don’t get it. One of these days I hope to REALLY do something RIGHT for once and not have to pay for hired help. I might even take computer tech courses in college in the spring or something, we’ll see.
I haven’t been online in a long time I know… I rarely even turn on my messengers and I haven’t been seen in a chatroom in weeks now. I would apologize, but you know… it is absolutely wonderful to HAVE a LIFE away from the computer. I have been able to do things I haven’t been able to do before, like spend time with my family and volunteer.
Speaking of volunteering…. today was my FIRST official day as a volunteer at the veteran’s hospital. I had to go through a lot of training, a couple blood tests, go through orientation, and have my picture taken, all part of the process to become an official volunteer. So I did it! Today I spent about three hours at the veteran’s hospital helping the nurses out and afterwards I was able to introduce myself to as many people as possible. I probably got to meet maybe 15 different men who were older veterans who — although not bedridden, could not take care of themselves. Many of them were very well-spoken, I heard many stories, got to see photos of their families, and was also one of the girls who helped visitors find their way to the patient they were trying to see.
People are always giving to ME. Even my neighbor gave me a coffee table cause she knew I was without. I try so hard to give back five-times what people give me. If I borrow 5 dollars, I pay back 25. I figured with volunteering, I can feel better about my time and feel less insignificant than staying home and throwing my time away. It was such a wonderful feeling to be able to cheer these patients up, to see their faces light up, to see their eyes turn into absolute heaven.
One man had not had a visitor in over 2 years and the only people who seem to visit him are nurses and aides. I was warned that he has a bad temper and not many people get along with him. Well - I felt like I wanted to make a good first impression and since I didn’t have any money, I went outside and picked a few flowers from the garden and got a plastic clear cup from the hospital cafeteria, filled it with water… and walked into his room and introduced myself for the first time and gave him some single-stemmed flowers and I rested it on an end table and greeted him with a smile. He didn’t even look up from the tv.
So I decided to be bad. Well good.
I went over to the tv…. stood DIRECTLY in front of it (yes I know, never interrupt someone’s television)…. and I flashed my breasts! I took my shirt and showed him my tits and then put my shirt back down. I am sure that if I got caught I would have been told to leave…. but no one else saw. The man completely had a different change of heart. He turned the tv off, smiled, told me I was “the best damn looking girl I’ve seen since since marilyn.” Well……. thank you ……….. I think………. lol…… turns out marilyn was his wife’s sister and he was in love with HER, not his wife. But um, ok. It was still a nice compliment from a man that people said NEVER compliments.
I am sorry if I have bored any of you with my first experience as a hospital volunteer. I am just really excited to be doing something valuable and helpful with my time. I wish I could give more. I want to help these people and spend more time with them. Some of them are SO lonely, making them smile is the best highlight of my day, I just can’t describe. The joy of giving is so much better than receiving. And damn, I mean that.
Shoutouts:
Had a WHOLE HOUR with my pennsylvania pantyboy who let me tease him while he got spanked by Wonder Woman and then I got to blackmail his panty ass hee hee, I also got to fuck a man with a carrot and pounded him incredibly hard yeeeooww, then I got to dress up a pantyboy who I gave the female name Dana and fucked him hard with a strapon and treated him like a cute lil bitch! Love you boys *kisses* xoxoxoxo
Current Wardrobe: Light blue drawstring pants, tan halter top with a white butterfly on it… barefoot
I went jogging this morning with my friend Ann, it was so nice having a buddy to run with… and believe it or not, it had been like 2 or 3 days since I had been jogging because of a Sunday incident and I feared going outside. I had forced myself indoors for like 2 days and on the third day I decided to go jogging with a friend (to feel safe) and I must say… I had so much built up emotion, that I ran and ran and ran, and my friend was able to keep up with me. Usually I just run about 1 mile - 1/2 up and 1/2 back. But this time we must have ran like 5 miles, I just couldn’t stop running. *does Forrest Gump voice - “I just felt like run-ning.”
Current Wardrobe: Long, red satin nightgown
Hmmm what have I been up to these last few days? Well with a few ups and downs, I seem to have found middle ground. Sunday was particularly difficult with me due to a potential relationship-turned-violent after a meanlingless question turned into rage and the next few days spending with my sister to support me and make me feel better. No need for details, cause I tend to keep it kinda bottled… but you all have been there for me!
I have spent the last few days drawing my heart out, taking photos of cool things around the apartment, having fun in photoshop, playing some video games, talking with friends, had some of my family come over for a lovely dinner and we all sat around and watched some dvds (we watched Fast and the Furious 1 AND 2) and then we played Settlers of Catan and my sister won. I came second… I was like 2 points away - the stupid robber ruined my cards that I had and she destroyed my city. Anyway…
I ordered a pizza today from a place called Round Table Pizza and I had never ordered from them before, but I knew they delivered. So I order the pizza and the guy comes to my door and tells me he is shocked that I order so many pizzas from them. I was like what? I never even ORDERED from them before. I always go to Godfathers. He looked at my check and he said the names matched the person who previously lived in my apartment or something, cause apparently he knew who I was…. how fucked up is that? I get mail that is sent to the previous resident, and her name is far from mine, she has like a funky bizarre name. I was so confused. Anyway…. I don’t know why I am writing that in here, it is really silly.
Spent most of yesterday in a nightgown and slippers just walking around the apartment, cooked some macaroni and cheese, munched on some seedless grapes, drunk a few bottled waters, drew a little bit, watched some Jerry Springer, vaccumed the floor, cleaned the whole apartment, made the bed, washed the windows, turned on some music… called my sister - we sat around and did some artwork together and had art contests where we both look at the same thing and have to draw it at the same time and we time ourselves under 2 minutes to see who did better. She is so much better. But I beat her on one. That was my accomplishment for the week! My sister is my best friend, I would die without her!
Shoutouts:
A very very very special shoutout to Mr. I-Love-You-Pretty-Please-May-I-Cum-Daddy who called me just to cheer me up when I desperately needed it and we had a wonderful WHOLE HOUR long conversation just talking and I am truly thankful… and then because he is such a delightful bastard (even though he said he would cry over me) had to call for another WHOLE HOUR because you know, he IS a man and when I mentioned cumming, he just *had* to be the one to let me cum over and o-v-e-r. Thank you for letting me cum, daddy. *winks* I also had a nice call with a straight caller who turned out to have a sissy fetish but was in hiding this whole time woohoo - he came out of the closet! I also had a menstrual fetish call with a boy who liked to take tampons out with his teeth — and well, I would give details, but I just ate. Sorry. Mmmm had a great call with a man who went around the world with me pussy, doggy, oral, and anal in less than 80 days…. *growls flirtatiously* … had a wonderful call with my anal bat boy - stretch that ass boy! More! I got raped by a burglar in my own home who even punched me in my stomach cause I was so bad - but wow it was so exciting! I got to laugh at a sissy fag who washed my hair at the hair parlor and he looked totally gay with those pink scissors *giggles with friends*…. had an WHOLE HOUR long call with my Washington lover who has an English accent who loves it both romantic as well as being sissified - so I got to dress him up! I had a delicious call with my Sacramento latin lover who rammed my ass hard till it hurt! Sooo much cum! I had a sexy WHOLE HOUR long call with a man who has a fur and smoke fetish and I got to wear a sexy fur coat and hypnotize him and make him my personal bitch! Yeehaw! I had a wonderful WHOLE HOUR long call with an Atlanta air traffic controller who had never called for phone sex before and he made me cum without even realizing it! That was hot! My sexy Chicago traveler called me from the Bellagio hotel in Las Vegas to tell me he had an extra $1400 from a great day in the casino and came h-a-r-d with me! A brand new caller who walked a trail from San Diego to Vancouver let me hypnotize him and then ram him with a strapon over and over - I had a blast and it was a great conversation! My New Hampshire lover called and hypnotized me for a WHOLE HOUR and made me erupt erupt erupt erupt…. then I got to hypnotize my Georgia stripper boy until he came all over himself and left a huge wet puddle on his lap hee hee sooo sexy, and I had a WHOLE HOUR with a very sexy man who called me from a Seattle hotel room to tell me about his latest escapades with a man he met outside of a New York adult store and how they jerked each other off and sooo much more! You guys are incredible!!!
I had missed Saturday AND Sunday this week, so I was worried that my whole week would be slow, but DAMN you all seemed to call me on my birthday! I love you all! You just made my week!!!!
By the way, I have been thinking about volunteering at the Veteran’s hospital to kind of help those in need. I have been thinking long and hard, I mean - I was born on Veteran’s day and I am very appreciative of everything they do for our country. I think it is time I give back to those who give to me. I am going to try to spend 1-2 hours a day at the Veteran’s hospital where the older men are, and try to cheer them up and also offer my services. I figured that walking around for hours wheeling people around is just as much workout as jogging so it will fit into my schedule very well.
Also…… I have been thinking (suggested by my girly boy)… I am going to make an attributes list to compete against my flaws list so that I can show my positive marks as well as my negative ones. Besides, that kind of shows who I really am a lot more than just a bunch of negative stuff.
Here is a picture I drew recently, I took the inspiration from a photo of a girl’s legs in the anatomy book I got for my birthday - I KNEW I would get great use of this book!!!! And here is a picture like I promised!
Birthday Shoutouts:
Had an amazing HOUR with my New Hampshire hypnosis man… and then later during my birthday called me for another HOUR and decided to hypnotize me just the way I always do him - wow that was a treat! I also had a delicious HOUR with Mr. I-Love-You-Pretty-Please-MAY-I-Cum-Daddy (see I got the grammar right, daddy) where he raped me and treated me like the bad little slut I am… and then… so sweetly… called back for a second HOUR to give me one amazing romantic day (yes daddy, admit it… you are romantic) where he fed me Godiva chocolate and dipped it in my sweet jussy pussy and shared the taste with me - mmmm yummmmmmmy! Had fun playing with my sacramento bartender strapon slut and had fun handcuffing him and making him my personal bitch, then I humiliated a pantyboy hee hee that was sooooo fun, then I spent a sweet delicious HOUR making love to my wonderful Alaskan slave who actually made love to me on the beach since it was my birthday instead of having me dominate him - wow! Then I got to play dressup as a nurse and I castrated a live victim who I then turned into a pre-op woman for cheating on his wife, I hypnotized my charming prince who celebrated with me with two girls in a birthday cake, fucked a 3-inch sissy slut and made him finger his pathetic ass, fucked a pantyboy and made him dress up and cum twice, had a wonderful long call with my sexy rapist who broke into my home and tied me to the bed face down and had his way with me in every hole, had fun with my sexy New York concert boy who gave me some morning loving, and I had some awesome sensual fun with my Indiana lover who shares the exact same birthday as me!! And I wanted to edit this entry to mention my special 3-click boy (I forgot to mention him before) - sorry sweetie…. he made me cum OVER and OVER!!!! - How could I forget?? He is sooo sexy *kisses* and I love you all!
Current Wardrobe: Birthday suit.
Aaah the time has come, I turn 22 today! Aaahahahahah…. I am spending the WHOLE day wearing my birthday suit, no clothes AT ALL. Just completely naked ALL day! And I have decided to stay home all day and do calls since I went out during the weekend.
So please call me tonight and make me cum, which is the ultimate present!!!
Oh I just love you all, such amazing people! Today I opened the gifts that came in the mail, and I gotta tell you…… I am the luckiest girl alive. Sometimes I wonder what makes me worthy to receive gifts like these. I am simply speechless and utterly honored, unworthy, and humbled by what I received.
The first package I opened was from Mr. I-Love-You-Pretty-Please-Can-I-Cum-Daddy who loves to make his little girl smile. He sent me two books and a dvd. One book is called “Anatomy for the Artist” and a book called “The Artists Complete Guide to Facial Expression” which I truly wanted, and these are hardback books that are VERY thick with great drawings, great photographs, and even great sketching techniques! Oooh and the movie Gia on dvd so that I could get the inspiration to draw! Angelina Jolie is so beautiful, I found myself touching myself watching her during the girl-on-girl scenes and left a wet spot on the living room floor. And I have been drawing all day! I will share pictures of what I drew! It absolutely touched me, to know that art is what I love and my smile couldn’t be wider… what a sweet man, thank you so much sweetie *grins*
The second package I opened was from my sexy Maryland attorney/writer/son who absolutely shocked the hell out of me. He got me a PS2 memory card, a cd, and a digital camera. The memory card was very much wanted, cause I would play a video game and then not be able to save it, and this just makes it so much more enjoyable! And he got me a Carly Simon cd called “My Romance” and told me to listen to that one song and it is absolutely beautiful and I have been listening to the whole cd all day long and love every song. She sings so beautifully! And then…. the digital camera. Wow. OMG. I mean, I put this on my wishlist thinking no one would ever buy it, cause it is almost a thousand dollars. He told me this was my birthday and christmas present - so I have to thank him twice :) - I absolutely started balling like a baby when I opened it. I spent hours taking pictures of my apartment, of the small things, even pictures zoomed in on my lava lamp. I have been having so much fun with it, and I will share some pictures for you all! I absolutely do not deserve it, I am humbled. Truly humbled. Wow. Even as I write this, there are no words. So thank you. From the bottom of my heart.
I will write shoutouts to callers in another entry…. I wanted to spend this entry thanking two very wonderful guys who truly made my birthday extra special.
Current Wardrobe: short black nightie, black g-string, black thigh high highs, purple fuzzy mismatched slippers
I took Saturday and most of Sunday off this weekend, which is a big no-no since so many of my sweet callers call me on those days - but I was desperately needing some female companionship and wanted to spend time with some of my girlfriends and have a night out. For those of you who only read my journal to hear about my sex life, this may be a very boring read - but for those of you who get subtle pleasures in my otherwise average social life, you may take a nice delight.
I have this friend named Becky whom I have gotten to know over the past few weeks since the whole evacuation thing. Sometimes we do art together, and sometimes we just chill out and have fun. She is not nearly as uptight as I had expected her to be in the beginning. We have become very good close friends. Now keep in mind that Becky is a bigger than average girl, but a very beautiful and confident girl who - to me - is beautiful on the outside as well as inside. However, on Saturday night she came over to my house crying her eyes out because she felt alone and felt like no one liked her. I felt so bad for her, I wanted to help, but I was afraid everything I said was making it worse. I asked her if she wanted to go to the clubs with me and she said no thank you, she hated going out to places where people would ignore her, and that guys only hit on people like me. I felt so bad and wanted to cheer her up.
Anyway, I decided to take Saturday night off and decided to make it HER night. I spent an hour giving her an gorgeous make-over, I did her hair, her fingernails, her toenails, I took her clothes shopping at the mall, sprayed her with cK Be and just helped bring out her natural beauty. I knew a place where we could go where all the guys would hit on her, compliment her, ask her out, and where she could dance freely. It was a place called the Butterfly Lounge in Costa Mesa which is a whole club designed for full-figured girls like her. I was a little out of place there, I was thin and frail compared to all these curvy voluptuous beauties, but you know what - it was HER night, not mine. I danced with her for hours, showed her how to flirt with people without even having to talk, showed her how to blush and smile and the art of waiting to be approached. Well to make a long story short, she had like 3 or 4 guys ask her out that night and received more compliments that night than she had received in the last two weeks. Afterwards we went to a place called Norm’s - which is kind of like Denny’s except has better food. I had the Chinese Chicken Salad. Yummy!
Watching her face light up like that was worth missing a Saturday night’s pay. Sometimes making a sacrifice gives you the largest reward. And I received the largest reward, I got to see my sad friend turn into the most confident appreciated woman. It was the best feeling in the whole world. Absolutely no orgasmic phone call could give me the feeling I had to watch her face light up from across the room as a man would smile at her. Hey, I’m being honest. She came back to my place, we spent the night watching some girlie movies, drew a few pictures, made some fresh popcorn, and just stayed up till like 8 in the morning.
She fell asleep but I was wide awake and I stayed wired for the longest time working on stuff around the apartment, cleaning, organizing some cd’s, watering my dying plants, changing the lightbulbs in one of my lamps, you know the usual… and before you know it - it was like 2:00 pm in the afternoon and just as I was starting to feel tired to fall asleep, my cousin calls me and tells me she is on her way over to my apartment. I hadn’t seen her since I was 9 years old, so I got to meet her after ALL this time. And of course, since she was here, my sister and her husband came over as well. We caught up on old times, learned so much about our pasts, our upbringings, our homes, our lifestyles, our occupations, our families… I really felt a bond with my cousin and I hope to see her a lot!
So Sunday night I spent completely with my family and friends, catching up on life. And also, my father phoned me and looks like I will be able to see him, my grandparents, aunts, uncles, cousins, etc. for Christmas! I am so excited! I haven’t seen my father in about 2 or 3 years, and haven’t seen my grandparents since I was 15. This will be a whole reuniting that I cannot wait for! So I have something very important to look forward too. And of course, heading back to Sacramento to see my mother, aunts, cousins, etc. on Thanksgiving.
So I was up all Friday, up all Saturday, up all Sunday… and now it is Monday morning. I still have not even had a nap. So I am going to get some sleep so I can give you guys 100% tonight when I log in. I refuse to log in right now and give my second best. (By the way, I now have two unopened Amazon boxes sitting on my couch. I eagerly anticipate Tuesday - not necessarily to see the items, but to see what was sent from the heart…*smiles*)
Shoutouts:
I was only logged in for about half an hour, so I only have one shoutout, but a very memorable one which deserves appreciation. I had a wonderful threesome with Erin as we spanked a little slut - she is so much fun to play with, I just love orgies! You guys should call Erin sometimes, she is a very fun girl!
Current Wardrobe: long red slinky nightgown to my calves and red g-string
Well my birthday is in 4 days, and I will be the ripe old age of 22. I can already feel the oldness setting in. Before you know it I will be REALLY old. Like 25. Ok, I know, it sounds funny, but hey - I want to be young forever! Can you blame me?
I received a package in the mail from Amazon, and it is sitting unopened on my sofa, because I KNOW it is a birthday present. I just know it. And I can’t open it. Oh but I want to, I want to, I want to. I feel like it’s the night before Christmas or something and I wanna just tear it open to see what it is. Gah. I suppose all I’d really have to do is go on my wish list and click on the “purchased items” to see what it is. But I swore I wouldn’t do that. I’m kicking myself now. This is utter torture. Oh come on, a hint?
Why can’t I be 21 forever? All the good ages are taken. I mean, 16 was a good age cause it’s sweet sixteen and I got my drivers license and got a bank account. And turning 18 was great cause I felt like an adult and could vote and could get a credit card. And turning 19 was good cause I could purchase cigarettes in southern states. And turning 21 was great cause I could go to casinos and buy alcohol.
But now what? What’s the next best age?
Shoutouts:
A sweet wonderful call with my three-click boy who made me cum so hard, fucked my gorgeous brother in the house yummy, I had fun with my gorgeous Massachussetts lover who fucked my tight little ass, had fun with my anal boy with his baseball bat and bowling pin and stretched it wide, had a great call with my favorite trucker who happened to be near texas this time sooo hot, hypnotized my handsome charming prince into being my daddy who just got back from his tennessee rendezvous, had a wonderful HOUR long call with my sexy Nevada pantyboy who let me pound his ass really hard cause he was such a good little princess, and I turned a hypno-stage show boy into my personal pet slave to do what I say, had some sexy fun with my san francisco journalist pantyboy who was so gosh-darn pretty in his panties, had some girlie with with my philadelphia pantyboy who is so sweet in satin, and also had some fun with some sexy pantyboys and made love to one distinguished gentleman who made me explode all over the place!
Current Wardrobe: short, loosefitting red skirt and an oversized white man’s dress-shirt unbuttoned, red g-string
Hmmm…. me grabs a penny and starts scratching away number thirty-eight on my flaws list. Thank you, Mr. I-Love-You-Pretty-Please-Can-I-Cum-Daddy. Thank you for buying me a much-needed vacuum…. and also for the sweet inscription on the gift which said - “Keep your floors clean and your mind dirty” hee hee that was so cute. I totally needed one and it is much appreciated. I have lived in this apartment for going on 2 months now, so it only seems appropriate I should have one already…. but now I feel so so so much more clean, organized, and overall very grateful to have received such a gift which was truly needed. It was also wanted, not just needed - it is lightweight enough where I can maneuver it around easily, and I have already vacummed my whole apartment completely naked and had a blast!
He also called me tonight for a delicious hour and made my twinkle-toes shine after making me cum so hard that 1) I fell off the bed 2) I bumped my head on the bedpost 3) I accidentally hung up on him and was able to retrieve the call before disconnecting… he convinced me to share some of my work. He suggested I share some of my art in my journal, and although a lot of it I tend to just keep to myself since a lot of it is so personal to me, I will share one colored drawing I did when I was at the evacuation center - this is a picture of “charlotte” who is on Sex and the City. Her real name is Kristin Davis. I put my link over the picture to prevent others from stealing my work.
This is “Charlotte”
It looks pretty good with the coloring and all, but I am still trying to work on my skill of facial expression, which is so difficult. I found a book on it that shows how to bring it out better, and I am thinking about getting it instead of leaving it on my wish list cause this is one area I really would like to master.
Remember Dino? The guy who stood me up who I had liked so much? I hadn’t heard from him in weeks and had already forgotten about him, when I get this unexpected phone call from him. I finally realized the level of his immaturity. I will have absolutely no dealings with him. He leaves me a voice mail telling me that he is hungry and wants to know if I will go out to eat with him. I call him back 2 minutes later and leave a message for him on his voicemail that sure I would love to go but I needed a shower from my long drive from sacramento. He calls back and tells me “I found someone else to go with, but maybe another time.” No sorry, no apology, no nothing. I mean, HE CALLED ME. Why the fuck ask me to go somewhere if he is going to go with someone else? Anyway, no big deal. I hung up the phone, went on with my life. Later that night, he left two more voice mails on my machine, one of them telling me how good the meal was, and the second message telling me how cool his video game was. Not once did he say - sorry for asking you to go out with me and then two minutes later I find another date. I didn’t bother calling him back. He no longer exists for me. Even a friend would have a little more respect. Anyway, I respect myself too much to put up with that inconsiderate display of kindergarten behavior.
Shoutouts:
A sweet hour with Mr. I-Love-You-Pretty-Please-Can-I-Cum-Daddy my gawd that was delicious I didn’t stop cumming, had a most amazing call with my sacramento latin lover who watched me on video the whole time telling me how beautiful I am mmmm yeah, dressed my sacramento bartender in the ass with my black rubber cock and even dressed him up for the first time. And just as I hit send on this, I came back to edit this to add one more person who I just got off the phone with, my Pennsylvania postman who let me hypnotize him with one giant orgy wow soooo hot! Totally sexy guy! And then I just got my pussy and ass fucked sooo hard by a very sexy pussy-eater who came twice and cummed in my mouth! I wanted to thank you guys for being so sweet and so nice about the videos I put in the members area, wow… so many absolutely sweet comments, I am so lucky to know you all!
Current Wardrobe: Um, still naked *giggles*
There was one more thing I did over the weekend when I was in Sacramento that I purposely left out of my journal. I kind of wanted to wait with the news because I was both nervous and scared of what all my favorite callers would think. But after many many many many many requests, I finally gave in. I did it.
I have a little surprise for all my special loyal callers. For the first time ever, you can watch me cum…. on video. I put 8 video clips in my members area just for you guys. I still am scared of putting it online for the world to see, but I am doing it. It is my first video attempt ever, and I had it professional done and edited by a friend of mine who hooked me up when I was in Sacramento this weekend. I hope the quality is ok for all of you, but most of all, you can tell I was a little nervous.
Also, back by popular demand, all my previous voice clips from back in March have been added to the members area.
See? I know how to show my gratitude…. thank you to all of you who have been so good to me!
Shoutouts:
Had sex with my brother who raped me in my bedroom - yeowww but he made me cum, mmm talked with my Connecticut pantyboy who just got back from a Russian vacation and let me fuck his ass hard mmmm yeah, fucked a brand new sissy boy with a strapon and had him pound his own ass - love those new callers woohoo! Had an hour long call with my New Hampshire sexy man who made me cum more than once and makes me think about short bald men in a whole new sexual admiration, and last but certainly not least… OVER an hour with my sexy sexy sexy chicago traveler who called me from his Atlanta hotel room to make me cum over and over and over and over and over………. and was the one responsible in convincing me to put the videos in my members area. You boys can thank him later 
Current Wardrobe: absolutely nothing.
***IMPORTANT NOTE FOR EVERYONE***
I can read emails, but I still cannot reply to them. The fires have fucked with my internet connection really bad and I will have to probably use another address to reply to everyone with - so please bare with me. I have NOT forgotten to reply to any of you, I have all the emails sitting right there staring at me and I will reply as soon as I humanly can — thanks
My family invited me to Sacramento on Friday night which was Halloween and I decided to take off to see them, and for all of you who have been reading my journal since day one, you know how long I have waited to see my family. So this was a BIG weekend for me! I drove 10 hours from San Diego to Sacramento and the weather dramatically changed from warm and smoky to cold and frigid. At least I could breathe outside and was also able to catch up on some much-needed jogging as well in the mornings. I stayed with my mom, my aunt Glenda, my 16-yr-old cousin Rachel, and for a brief time I got to meet another cousin 26-yr old Cammie, her husband Ben, some of the neighbors there (who were sooo funny in their halloween outfits), as well as an Asian guy I had been talking to online for SEVEN YEARS named Charles and his friend Huu who was with him. I also had phone conversations with my other cousin Leanna, two other aunts, an uncle, and got to get a whole address book full of phone numbers so I could keep contact with the rest of the family. Me and Charles have agreed to start dating, and he is a wonderful guy! And I have known him for ages and just now have finally met him. Unfortunately, he lives so far from me, I know nothing serious can come of this, but at least we will date every now and then.
There was so much that happened, and I would just bore the hell out of all of you with how happy I was to see them all, because from my point-of-view I was absolute heaven (I even spent time with my mother who I don’t get along with very well, and we were cordial to each other)…. but to all of you, it’s just a little family get-together. But anyway, I was happy.
The kids next door wanted to go trick-or-treating, and I had a playboy bunny outfit with thigh high stockings and looked SOOO sexy, but the minute I stepped outside, I said - “Hell no” and ran back in. It was too cold to be a bunny. So I decided to stay in and help give kids candy. But the 15-year-old boy next door Erik BEGGED me to go trick-or-treating with him cause he wanted to impress one of his friends by being with me, and I was feeling kinda flattered by that, so he lent me his costume. It was the outfit worn in the movie “Scream” that the villan wore. It wasn’t flattering for my figure at all, but I was doing him a favor, and instead, he dressed like a crushed-moshed-metallica fan and made his face look like he had been beaten up in the mosh pit at a metallica concert. Too funny. So me, Erik, Rach, Charles, and Huu all went trick-or-treating.
We knocked at all the houses and I felt so ugly with the mask on, cause you couldn’t even see my face. You couldn’t even see my legs or body. Just the mask and the black robe thingy. I kept asking Erik if he wanted me to impress his friends, why didn’t he have me wear something sexy? LOL he said he wanted me to wear this cause that would be “cool.” Anyway, he took pictures of me wearing it and it was so ridiculous, but I had a good time. I will post the pictures as soon as I scan them in.
His friends just dropped their jaws when I came over. Poor Erik didn’t have a girlfriend and had never even kissed a girl before, so when I showed up at the door with him, I grabbed him, gave him his first long…. sexy….wet…warm kiss. And he had an instant boner (and maybe more) cause I could feel it getting wet on my leg from where he was pressed up against me. All his friends almost peed on themselves. They kept saying “Aww damn. How can YOU get the pretty girls?” Cause Erik was this cute chubby kid who is so shy. I felt kind of bad that girls always ignored him, so when I walked with him, his friends kind of looked at him different. I hope it helped his confidence!
My aunt set up the guest house for me to take calls at night, and we had my phone forwarded to her second line. Many people called me in those three days, and I am so grateful so many of you were there to make my nights more comfy. Sometimes it would get incredibly cold inside and I would take the cordless phone outside and step out naked in the jacuzzi and turn on the jets real high and take calls. So some guys got to hear me with chattering teeth, but yet felt very very very warm under my neck. Hard to explain. But it was fabulous! At one point my mom came outside and saw me naked sitting in the hot tub with the cordless phone in my hand. She just rolled her eyes and walked back inside the house. Go figure.
You know, after ALL this time, she still refuses to think I do phone sex for a living. I think deep down she just thinks I am trying to shock her. I truly believe she thinks I am NOT a phone sex operator. LOL. *laughs* I just don’t get her. But anyway, I stayed in the jacuzzi/hot tub for like 4 hours until I got all wrinkly.
I am finally back home, safe, alive, the fires finally out of reach from my apartment, I can breathe in the air again. I am going to get some much desired sleep, I just drove 10 hours straight from sacramento and I am exhausted. After I wake up, shower, eat, etc… I will log in tonight and try to catch up on those emails!
Sexy shoutouts:
Had a fabulous call with a north carolina crossdressing subbie who even left me a tip on the phone - my first monetary tip ever!!! Thank you! I had a wonderful hour long call with an older Ohio man who has a fetish for leather, latex, boots and loves to deepsea dive - thanks for the great time! Oooh had a great time with my hollywood pantyboy who let me moan moan moan mmmmmoan for him mmmm he is so damn sexy, was a bad slutty wife for one quiet caller who hung up in my face just as I was about to cum - gotta love people who hang up on you, had a sexy call with my obedient rock hard boy who has so much fun with ice in his sexy ass, had an hour long totally hot call with my sexy Alaskan lover (happy birthday sweetie) who called me when I was sitting in the Jacuzzi (IN REAL LIFE) outside in the freezing cold - I could definitely relate to him being in Alaska, and last but certainly not least had a beautiful sexy sexy sexxxxy call with my sweet little marilyn monroe who was all dressed in pink and let me make him my cute little bitch - every time he laughs, I can see his dimples - even without a cam. So cute. So incredibly sexy.
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