Current Wardrobe: dark red towel (just got out of shower)

Today is a beautiful day in San Diego, I have my screen door open and it just feels so good and breezy I just want to enjoy the day a little bit. I’ve been couped up inside for a long time, working on web stuff, watching movies, and just sitting on my butt working from the time I get up to the time I go to sleep and it’s just exhausting. So today I am going to enjoy the outdoors, go to the beaches… go to starbucks and sit OUTSIDE not inside… and no reading books - I am just going to people watch and just enjoy the perfect weather today. It’s perfect weather. I fucking love it. Gonna take some my sketchpad and graphite pencils to the beach and just draw what I see….

It’s almost July - which means I’ll be on my way to see Donna very soon! Five more days till I get to meet her - oh I am so excited… she is such a sweetie and this is so exciting for me. Plus I haven’t been to Portland and Seattle since I was 4 years old, so this is a real treat!

Yesterday was funny - my cleaning lady came over to my apartment while I was sleeping (she knows where my key is) - and she went beyond the call of duty - cleaned the cat litter box, gave john food, and get this… she color coordinated and CLEANED all my dildos and vibrators and even hung my handcuffs back up on the wall. She also rewired my speakers for the home entertainment center so that the wires are now hidden. Now that is going beyond the call of duty. I left her a nice tip! She wants to watch John Holmes while I am on both of my vacations - her and my next door neighbor both want to watch him since my sister was so negligent last time… free of charge. Don’t you love it when people are nice and sweet and do something good for other people? Other than try to make someone’s life a living hell? Some people really need to take example and do nice things for others. There are just too many rude people out there who always go out of their way to hurt people - and then there are people who really do things nice for complete strangers. Next time she comes over, I’ll give her a little something nice for all her trouble.

Really like this show Nip Tuck. Man the lead guy on there is HOT - man he is hot. I’d sure fuck him. Oh boy would I. But the character he plays is a womanizing guy who sleeps with a girl once and never sees her again. I think in fantasy I’d like that… but in reality might be hard for me to accept. I’ve only been renting the first season, so I know there are many episodes I’ve missed - but this is one really amazing show - it’s funny, articulate and intelligent - and really new in script and things you’ve never seen before.

One of my favorite scenes of Nip Tuck went like this (paraphrased):
*set in the bathroom of a porn party*
(The boy is the son of one of the plastic surgeons. The girl is a fluffer in pig tails and dressed like britney spears school girl outfit sucking lollipop.)

Boy: hi there you must be –
Girl: I’m one of the fluffers here
Boy: oh well what is that exactly?
Girl: well (sucks on lollipop really hot) I give guys blowjobs to stay hard during the sex scenes
Boy: (gulps) really? that must make you exhausted
Girl: not really I just wanna keep on sucking
Boy: (gulps again and looks around the room): Are you sure it doesn’t make you wanna get sick of it and not do it anymore? Doesn’t it wear you out and turn you off?
Girl: Nope (sucks on the lollipop some more). In fact it makes me really really horny. So tell me, what do you do for a living? Are you one of the actors?
Boy: Uh, no. I’m an agent (lying).
Girl: (perks up) oh really?
Boy: Yeah I am.
Girl: You know it’s been a really long time since…
Boy: (opens mouth and stares at this hot girl) since what?
Girl: (puts lollipop in her mouth and sucks REALLY hard) I’ve sucked someone…
Boy: (stares some more)
Girl: (eats the entire lollipop in one gulp.)
Boy: Oh my.
Girl: So um…
Boy: what should we do?
Girl: (smiles and grabs him and pulls him in a private room)
—end scene–

Shoutouts:
Had TWO HOT hypno calls with my sexy robot who is such a good obedient robot and is finally filling stiff in his body and wakes up aroused - walks and talks differently - and very soon I will have him so wrapped around my finger that he will obey my commands during all hours of the day no questions asked. Had a hot call with a BRAND NEW caller who loved it when I touched myself for him and came all over the place, had a fun roleplay with a man who let me be his yummy babysitter who seduced him while his daughter was asleep upstairs, had a great call with a very obedient slut who obeyed my every command and let me Domme him as I wished (and thanks also for being such a sweetie before the call)! Had the most exhiliarating call with my sexy latin lover who pleasured me until I couldn’t cum anymore - left me absolutely breathless and knows how to please! Any girl would be lucky to have him! Had a WHOLE HOUR with my Wisconsin hugger who chatted with me and got to know me some more and then he just held me and sang a song on his guitar… I love the way you strum - sounds beautiful!

This journal is directed at one person who is completely obsessed with me and my friends and I am sick of it, so I apologize to any sweet sexy callers for what I am about to say but it needs to be said.

Mr. Isabello Rod Rodillon (yes I am using your real name) you are a fucking stalker, you are a completely obsessive asshole with too much free fucking time on your hands. You have spent the last 3 months writing page after page after page of letters and journal entries analyzing my journal, my friends journals, and all you do is say cruel things about Charlie. Fuck you. And stop calling his cell phone. That’s harassment and it’s a criminal offense. I have ignored you and your obsessive journal for months and I will certainly not peak at it now, no matter how much of an emergency you say it is. But calling Charlie and being an absolute fucking shit and telling him that I must read your journal is an invasion of his privacy and it upsets me very much. I will not read your journal. Why? Because you’re a fucking stupid ass lunatic who thinks that my “psychic powers” are linked to Nicole Kidman of Mulan Rouge and you think that the spirit of some dead comic book guy is watching over the spirit of me. Now you blame the death of a CELEBRITY on Charlie. Listen you fucker. I am not going to stop working with Charlie just because we banned you from calling. I don’t care that you called me and spent a huge amount of money. Your money means shit to me when you invade our privacy. You’re the fucking reason I had to move out of my home a couple months ago. Stop following me. Stop writing me privately. Stop reading my fucking journal. And leave Charlie alone. And no I don’t have any reason to read your journal - even though I get letters all the time from YOUR OWN friends warning me that you are still obsessed with me. Get the fuck over it. I don’t like you. We are not meant to be together, I will never fall in love with you… and I don’t care for anything you say because you are just plain crazy and I think you seriously need some mental help.

I hate airing dirty laundry in public. I have avoided this since February. But calling Charlie and upsetting him at HOME after we have clearly ignored you and had no contact with you in months and months… purely pisses me off.

Get a fucking life. Stop analyzing my journal. Just because I say “I want to devour you for an hour” which is sweet and sensual… does not mean that deep down my psychic connection is telling you that I want to dig my teeth in your bones and rip the meat off your body. That’s the fucking stupidest thing I’ve ever heard. I was right in banning you and I have no regrets… no please, I am asking sweetly… stay the fuck away from me, stop sucking your thumb that’s been in your ass… and get a fucking life and concentrate on your own mentally fucked up life rather than analyzing mine.

**again I apologize to other people reading this, you know I never get like this… but this just pushes me over the edge.**

Current Wardrobe: red silk pants, red silky night shirt, black g-string, silver belly chain around my belly button ring

Wow… I never ever have a boring day, I’ll tell you that right now. On Thursday night, Phil my real life sissy slut/pussy eater, came over to my apartment and pleasured me during two of my sissy calls. One of those calls was with my one and only sissy hairdresser who is SUCH a fag… so it just seemed appropriate to keep my sissy licking my pussy during the whole call. And *get this* Phil was wearing curlers! I shit you not. Hey call me crazy, I’m into it. Huge turn on too…. and even more exciting that both sissies knew the other sissy was into it too… I don’t know what excited me more… doing the call…. or getting my pussy licked by a man in curlers. Both made me cum… Both were HOT as hell… and having them both do it at the same time was exhiliarating! I did take pictures of him from the neck down but I won’t post em right now cause it’s 5:39am and I have been up for almost 48 hours and I am exhausted… but I wanted to write a journal entry to tell all of you how thankful I am for the outpouring of calls today. My phone literally was ringing off the hook today, and it was the best feeling ever!

Went to the laundromat yesterday, while clothes were washing and drying - went to Starbucks (yikes my card balance at Starbucks is in the zero again) then went to Blockbuster and rented Scary Movie 3 and The Company and Club Dread. I saw Scary Movie 3 - it had some funny moments - I particularly liked the part where Simon (from American Idol) gets shot by a bunch of black guys with guns in a rapping club because he said the people sucked. I cracked up mmm The Company was a nice ballet/dance movie but it had no plot and no storyline but it had beautiful dance choreography. I was disappointed to see Neve Campbell playing the leading role of a ballet dancer considering there were body doubles during the entire movie and I could only see her face during a handful of camera shots…. and Club Dread, haven’t watched that one yet. I tried to rent Secret Window with Johnny Depp (it said Guaranteed in Stock or its Free - but all my movies are free since I have a movie pass) so I was very bummed when it was all rented out. I love watching movies around 3am in the morning when calls are slow and I am winding down for bed… it’s nice to relax to a cool movie. But no, you’ll never see me watching a horror movie before bed. Yikes. I’ll have nightmares for weeks.

Did lots of web design last night, I am so tired. And I am buying a new office chair soon cause this seat is killing me beautiful ass. LOL.

Shoutouts:
I hypnotized my sexy robot to obey every command and programmed him to always obey, listen, and respond… he even talks like a robot! I had a sexy call with my sissy hairdresser who (gulp) had the biggest impact on me with his curler fetish - cause well… I could feel em between my legs *winks* (and thanks for the sweet tip!), had a WHOLE HOUR hypnotizing a man who wanted me to turn him into a woman who craves cock - and I completely changed his sexuality. Had a delicious call with a married pantyboy who was so incredibly shy but he was a BRAND NEW caller so I just had to give him some Bella loving mmmm… then I had the most wonderful hypnosis call with a Canadian man who I could just fall in love with - in fact… he wanted me to make him fall in love with me during hypnosis and wow - he left me a 30 minute tip to say thank you (that means SO much thank you!) Mmmm a special congratulations to a man who finally met with a guy and ALMOST sucked him off, but instead got his cock sucked by another man instead - way hot - thanks for giving me the scoop - but next time you gotta suck him - k? *grins* and ooh had a BRAND new caller call from Ohio who wanted me to hypnotize him for the first time and he was so incredibly sexy - I was so impressed with him!

Current Wardrobe: white sports bra, short gray jogging shorts, rolled down below my hips, black g-string, white socks and shoes

Whew what a jog! Man oh man I’ve been a busy little girl this week *smiles* Let’s see if I can possibly remember things I’ve done this week…. hmmm

Well I spent all last week in the California hot desert with my friend Erin and we spent the whole week doing all sorts of wild and crazy stuff including having a threesome with her neighbor (I think I mentioned that in the last journal entry or two), we went to West Hollywood together and went to a store called PanPipes which is a magickal witch-type store and it was an eye-opening experience for me. Apparently Fairuza Balk (one of the actresses in The Craft, also in The Waterboy) used to be the owner of the store, but sold half of it to another person - ended up on heroine and living on the couch of some drug dealer… so Fairuza is only half-owner and hasn’t shown her face there in 3 years, or so goes the store rumor. So that being said, one of the main reasons I wanted to go, was to see Fairuza (but since she isn’t there anymore, there went that idea)… but wow… that place was amazing. All these candles, herbs, oils, incense, tarot cards, etc. all good prices too. I ended up buying a new Witches Tarot deck since I like that one better, bought Erin some dragon coasters to match her fantasy decor, had some of my candles “dressed up” with magickal potions - two for work and prosperity in the adult world, and one for a soulmate search. And I absolutely can see a difference this week just by focusing energy on these spell candles. Unbelievable. Erin and I also pulled out the Ouija board, turned off the lights, lit (regular) candles, and talked to the first spirit I had ever encountered…. it was truly a new experience.

Let’s see…. we also met with Christa in L.A. when we went to the LA Erotica Convention and met with other porn stars and passed out business cards and stuff. We saw strippers, toys for sale, weird stuff, videos, you name it. We even saw a program on penis extensions and there were men hovered over it. Can you imagine walking by THAT booth? I almost felt sorry for them all. Sorry, I am so bad. So anyway, Erin and I bought hundreds of dollars worth of toys and stuff… and she forgot to buy batteries! Well she blames it on me, but it was her fault, I tell you. *grins* but I was sad not to see any glass dildos. But man, I walked away with some cool ass shit. And I have about 30 sample packets of pink lubricant that smells like strawberries but tastes like vaseline. On Saturday night I went to Irvine at the Improv Comedy Club which was totally hot and I met quite a few nice people there, then went back to Erin’s place and had lots of hot calls together!

When I finally made it back home, I returned the rental car - yes I found my car finally, the neighbor returned it - with new speakers and amp now installed. Had a ton of mail waiting for me, but my poor cat, John Holmes… was so sad. He thought he had been abandoned. My sister said she only fed him TWICE in 7 days while I was gone and I was soooo pissed. Poor John. I came home, found the whole apartment torn to shreds. The bathroom had toilet paper ALL over it. The litter box not cleaned once. And he had no water, no food. Oh man. I fell to my knees and started giving him tons of food and water and petting him like crazy and apologizing. Then of course I really yelled at my sister on the phone and told her I would never trust her with my kitty again. Poor John, he was so mad at me… he scratched me like over and over and over and my legs are soooo sore and still healing… but I suppose I deserved it. Since then… I have been giving him ALL the attention in the world, pouring all my affection onto him… I just love him so much and I felt so awful. Even now, every time I have to run to the store, the gas station, the video store, the mailbox, whatever…. he comes running to the door as if I am leaving forever. I really felt so guilty. But he is doing better now. His meowing is getting quieter. (The first day I got back he was like a screaming hyena or something). So the porn cat is doing well.

Oooh ooh I finally redecorated my WHOLE apartment! Yes I did! This place looks really nice now and it took me almost a whole day to finish, but it really looks good and I just love it Kevin and I are going out again on Sunday night, I think he wants to go to Vegas with me… I really really like him, and I am not even sure what exactly it is that I like. Hmmm bought some more computer books, paid off a few bills, my mother called and is begging to live with me again and I gave her a firm no! I bought four pillows from a flea market that totally fit the look I am going for in my apartment (not bad for 2 dollars!) I’m working on a new drawing of a girl laying in a canopy bed draped in fine silk… it looks all right but nothing worth showing off… the cat chewed through one of the speakers ON THE WALL (there goes my middle speaker to my home entertainment center)… got a knock on the door from door-to-door guys wanting me to join their Bible study group in a HOTEL room. Um…. I am NOT going into an unknown hotel room with complete strangers. Tried out some of my new vibrators and toys, realized my sister “borrowed” my nipple clamps (which in her terms means I will never see them again). I also bought a few movies on DVD - let’s see… 50 First Dates, Shallow Hal, The Exorcist, Bad Santa, and Along Came Polly. All fantastic movies by the way… ESPECIALLY 50 First Dates… one of the best movies in a long time! I highly recommend it to any of you! For guys AND girls it is an excellent movie! Worked on tons of web stuff this week, bet you can’t even tell. LOL.

Went shopping at the store, bought ingredients to make beef stew even though I have NEVER made it before… I hope I don’t screw up, I don’t even have a recipe, I’ll just throw some things together… ooh I listened to the new speakers in my car and I looooove it! Sounds so much better now that the speakers aren’t all busted to hell and back. I want to go see Superman 2 this weekend, also want to see Kill Bill 2 (even though my friends say the first was way better)… so we’ll see what happens.

Shoutouts:
Had a long call with my sexy Chris Cross who I absolutely can’t get off my mind for some reason (I actually dreamed about him last night and dreamed he was a girl mannequin at the mall - go figure), had a NINETY MINUTE call with a new caller from San Diego who had a giant 11 inch cock who swears it really is that big and he can’t even penetrate his wife all the way! Had a GREAT call with my sissy fag hairdresser who is so cute under the dryer and even MORE cute on his knees sucking a man off with curlers in his hair! Had a THREESOME call with Erin for NINETY MINUTES with her hot traveling truckdriver who kept us cracking up during the whole call! Mmmm then I feminized a sexy New York man under hypnosis and made him into a beautiful woman, then I hypnotized a man to believe I was his brunette cousin Jamie, had hot seductive sex with a sexy man who used to be my medical patient, had THREE CALLS hypnotizing my sexy mechanical robot to be programmed the way I want him, had FOUR CALLS with a BRAND NEW CALLER who I like to call my la jolla hottie who loves strapon and real cock and is considering a trip to the notorious glory hole. Had a soft and sexy call with my favorite Canadian pantyboy photographer who is so pretty in his pink panties and knows how to get a girl all excited! Mmmm had a great call with a guy who wants to fuck and suck a real man and has a date set this weekend to do it - way to go! Had a delicious call with a BRAND NEW CALLER I would like to call my sissy beach boy who lives here in California too - likes lots of hot strapon and was so much fun! Had a great call with my Arizona pantyboy who liked it up the ass too and moaned so hard when I pounded him! Had a fantastic call with my favorite clit pump lover who absolutely knows how to give it to me - and give it to me hard - I had a vibrating butt plug in my butt the whole time and it was soooo hot! Had an amazing call with my Denver traveler who called from the twin cities with a handful of throbbing sex and totally fucked me till I couldn’t cum anymore! Had a fabulous call with my sissy fairy fag for an unforgettable quickie, also fucked three cute little pantyboys in little pink panties who were totally hot, had a THREESOME call with Rachel where a guy wanted me to hypnotize both of them but they both turned the tables on me and Rachel ended up dominating us!!! Way hot! Also had a hot THREESOME call with Sky with my sexy 3-click boy who was so quiet with his wife beside him that he pressed buttons on the phone to say hello … and again to say goodbye… but oh boy… his cock exploded hard when I sat on his face and Sky sucked him off!! Wow! had a THREESOME call with Donna who came in his panties in the bathroom at work, mailed them in an envelope… to (you guessed it) Charlie… and put a little note saying “compliments of Donna and Bella”… aaah yes… now THAT will surely be a sight to see when Charlie gets the mail!!!! LMAO!

I fucking love you guys! I hope I didn’t forget anyone… if I did let me know

Current Wardrobe: light blue bikini top and bottoms, short jean shorts, and tan suede flip flops

Wow so much going on! Good gracious… I never have a dull moment.

Tuesday morning I wake up, I pack my bags to visit Erin. I walk out to my car to listen to my new speakers that had been installed…. and…. no car. My car… gone. SO I get on the phone and for the next 6 or 7 hours I try to track down the man who installed my speakers - he was supposed to return my car the night before and he was nowhere to be found. I was so pissed. I ended up having to rent a car from Enterprise Car Rentals - rented a gold Nissan Altima - paid OUT THE ASS for it - and I am going to have to rent a car on the way back - fucking pissed me off. I trusted the guy with my car and he didn’t return it. Later that day I finally got in touch with the guy via cell and I went off on him and he said he’d make it up to me and my car would be there when he returned and would help with the rental costs. Yeah he BETTER. So I show up at Erin’s later that day, go through the whole fuss with the car - they ended up taking $100 for the day PLUS a 200 dollar sec. deposit just for FIVE HOURS. And that is JUST for the ride up. I gotta do the same thing on the way back. Talk about aggravating as hell.

We go shopping, buy a few movies, get a few drinks, stuff for barbecuing, all that good stuff…. had a great time - even went to Starbucks - God knows how much I love that place we even went to a porn shop, bought some new “spanktravision” as Erin calls it. Hehe… called my sister and asked she watch my cat and I am soooo hoping that John Holmes is ok cause I miss him SO much!

Last night, me and Erin and Tony were all having a hot barbecue, eating delicious grilled barbecue chicken, a delicious raspberry vinegarette spinach salad, and getting toasted on handmade margaritas. We all watched the Exorcist and one thing led to another and the THREE OF US started having sex! I couldn’t believe it. Something about watching that movie made us all crazy and we started fucking right there in the living room. It had been many months since Tony and I slept together… and me and Erin sleep together ALL the time… so it seemed only natural for all three of us to get down and dirty since we all knew each other so well. Man oh man….. the movie was playing the WHOLE time we were fucking — and we would break up and start laughing our asses off watching the head turn around on Regan’s body and the throw-up scene grossed us out….. but it just made the night that much more wild. Tonight I hope we get to use Erin’s new ouija board she bought off eBay - should come in the mail today. I wanna play with it! Woohoo!

I have a business meeting near L.A. today, Erin’s coming with me for support - hopefully I should only be a few hours and then we’ll be right back here. So if you guys want to do a threesome with me and Erin, now’s the time! We’re together and should be here until Sunday night or Monday morning.

Oooh oooh - I bought tickets to a New York City Broadway show to see Phantom of the Opera when I visit in July!!!! I have never seena Broadway show and I already reserved tickets!!! I also bought tickets to see the Mets vs. the Phillies - wow another new one for me… would LOVE to see a professional baseball game when in NYC! And that’s not all… I bought a 3-hour cruise that goes around the Island - gives a whole tour of the NYC area from the outside - got those tickets too! I am so excited!! I also got tickets to see a comedy show in the New York Comedy Club on Friday night when I go down there - going to be SO much fun!!!! And all this stuff wasn’t nearly as expensive as I had planned. I even pre-purchased a three-course meal for after the broadway show…. July’s coming baby!!! New York City here I cum!!!!

Oooh ooh in two and a half weeks I get to see Donna and Eve and get to see Sarah McLachlan in concert in Portland and Seattle - man…. life is sweet.

Shoutouts:
Hypnotized an easily aroused sexy man who couldnt help himself hehe, had sex with my Charming Prince on my sexy magic carpet and then fucked him the the mountain chalet in a hot jacuzzi, hypnotized a man with the most exciting up-close pussy fetish. Had a hot quickie with lots of cum and sex! Had sex with a man who adores orgasm denial and clothespins on his nipples, had a surprise call with the delectable Vegas Boy who I had missed so much and had the best time talking to him, had a hot call with a man who wanted me to suck my own nipples and cum all over the place really hard, had a call with a man who I forced to suck cock all night - suck it baby! Had a WHOLE HOUR hypnotizing my sexy Alaska boy and he left me a 30 minute tip that meant so much (thank you), had a hypnosis-domination call with a sexy man whose phone broke out on him and I felt so bad… had TWO sexy calls with my amazing ER pantyboy who called once in his Pretty Woman thigh high boots… and called back hours later to do a hot THREESOME with me and ERIN! That was FUCKING WILD! And last but not least…. I had the most sexy, most amazing, most completely awesome call with a man who turned 42 yesterday and I got to sing him happy birthday in my marilyn monroe voice - and I tucked him under the covers and made him have sexy wonderful dreams — and it wasn’t until after the phone call I remembered that HE was the sexy man who bought me the Sleepless in Seattle dvd and I felt like such a ditz for not thanking him on the phone - but sweetie if you read this, please know how thankful I am, from the bottom of my heart - and I hope you had a great sleep last night
I love you all! Take care!

Current Wardrobe: short black dress and black thong at 5 in the morning - dont ask.

Hi everyone sorry it has taken so long for me to write - and also sorry for being so incredibly busy (not with calls, just with everything in general)… I’ve had a LOT going on this week - both work and personal, and it’s just been a whole lot of things but it will be worth it in the end when I get my new project completed.

This week has been a milestone for quite a few things with me. So I am gonna throw in a bunch of stuff hehe but they all have huge impacts.

Milestone #1 - I got the results from the San Diego County Fair in the art contest. Remember the drawing I spent almost 5 or 6 months working on? And I posted pics of it constantly while drawing it? Well me and my sister both entered the same contest in the same category and we tied with each other. Both of us got 4th place - Honorable Mention. We both won fucking ribbons. A part of me wants to feel really happy, after all - this is the first time I have ever shown my art to the public, much less put it on display for judges. And the other part of me feels really sad - I really wanted to place 1st, 2nd or 3rd… or at least see my sister do well. But instead I feel like I’ve been passed a ten cent ribbon and told that I suck. I guess it’s all a matter of perspective. I am going to Del Mar probably tomorrow with my sister to see the guy who won first place. He also won 2nd place in another division, so he must have been tough. But damn… it just kinda breaks my heart. And I really SHOULD be happy about this. Really.

Milestone #2 - Also this week I saw one of my favorite callers on television (I’m discreet, so don’t ask) and I was so so so proud of him. It really melted my heart to see him in the flesh on the tv screen and to know what a sexy kinky guy he is on the phone. Man it just sent smiles all over me! You looked FANTASTIC up there sweetie! *blows him kisses*

Milestone #3 - This week I also had my first phone call with a woman. Yes a WOMAN. I picked up the phone, introduced myself.. and I hear this high pitched voice and at first I thought it was a pantyboy and it occured to me this was a real woman and I was completely caught off guard. She didn’t even want phone sex… we just talked about the movie I had been watching earlier and how I enjoyed my job. Absolutely incredible. Call me anytime, sweetie!

Milestone #4 - Me, Kevin, and Phil had a threesome. The three of us fucked all night!!! It was incredible!!! Call me for details!

Other things going on… I am working on a new project for BCB. It will take me several days to complete it because I am building it from scratch. But I think callers will enjoy it a lot! Also I bought some more computer books from Borders to help me learn some more things… went to the beach three times this week and took photos - and once went with 4 of my girlfriends and Kevin went too which was nice for him to meet my friends… a guy at Blockbuster has a crush on me and asked me out - he even spent a whole hour walking me around the whole video store describing all the best movies I should see… a guy at the Italian restaurant gave me his business card and said he is in love with me (LMAO where are all these guys coming from?)… and my sister got a new chiuahaha - hell I can’t spell that word… and brought her over - her name is Doozle… she introduced her little puppy, Doozle, to my porn cat - John Holmes and they were so sweet to each other… until John turned mean with his claws. He is such a bad bad bad cat. I locked him in the bathroom and let him cry and meow for hours until he learned his lesson. I bought a cat taxi thing so I can carry him to the grooming place to get his nails trimmed. He has hurt me for the last time!!! Let’s see… went to Starbucks every day this week and yesterday the boy gave me a FREE cup of coffee! Can you believe it??? Totally unexpected. My sister came over today and massaged me for an hour (I had to pay her a hundred bucks cash though, the little mercenary). Rented more movies from Blockbuster… apparently word has gotten around the movie store what I do for a living - even the girls are smiling at me a lot more and saying - so how are calls? Completely shocking, I had only told one person there. Apparently everyone knows now. Employees have to spread the word. Now there are TWO guys at the video store who like me. And on top of it all, money couldn’t be better.

You’d think with all these great things going on, I would be really happy… really really happy. But I don’t know. Something’s missing. And I can’t put my finger on it.

Shoutouts:
Had a BRAND NEW caller call me from NYC from his sky loft for hypnosis since his best friend recommended him to me (way to go boys!), had a daddy/daughter call where my daddy put lipstick on my nipples, had a great call with a BRAND NEW caller pantyboy cocksucker who licked cock sooo well, had a BRAND NEW caller who was dead quiet - like no breathing, nothing - for hypnosis and I wondered if he was ALIVE - and then all of a sudden he said thank you at the end and I was blown away that he was still there - hehe… talked to my hypnosis friend who wanted a threesome with me and Nikki but didn’t call back - where’d you go? Had a hypnosis session with an easily aroused boy who said thank you this time instead of hanging up on me - that meant SOOO much to me thank you - those little thank you’s mean the world to me. I fucked a boy up the ass and had hot ass play with a sexy feminine boy, had a BRAND NEW caller call me from chicago - a total pantyboy who has sucked REAL cock and was totally mindblowing. Had TWO CALLS with my Boston pantyboy who finally braved himself to go to Victoria’s Secret and he finally opened up to the sales girl about his fetish. You go girl *winks*. Had the BEST call with my sissy fag hairdresser who let me be his older neighbor and he was a young and confused teenage boy who wanted to go to the hair parlor - that was TOTALLY fun!! Had TWO LONG CALLS with my ER Pantyboy who put on his Pretty Woman thigh high boots and blonde wig and was the total hot slut for me and was so obedient - and no one sucks a cock better than HE does - he came five times too!!! Had a call with my first woman - a writer who was curious about what it’s like to be a phone sex operator and needed some inspiration, had a nice quickie call with my 3-click boy who makes me cum sooo incredibly hard and said thank you so sweet, had a BRAND NEW caller call me and sounded extremely sexy on the phone but his phone disconnected early on… hope to hear from you soon sweetie!

I love you all - talk to you later

Current Wardrobe: blue and black t-shirt, black skirt with chain on side, purple striped thong, black bra

I’m gonna keep this entry short and sweet since I am just super busy right now…
tomorrow (hopefully if all goes well) - my art teacher fuck buddy, Phil is coming over… and is going to pleasure me during my phone sex calls for a few hours in the evening.

So if any of you wanna hear me cumming harder than ever before with a real man licking my pussy the whole time, tomorrow’s your chance. No I won’t be giving him the phone - so no worries boys I promise, you will just talk to me and if you want privacy during our call without him pleasuring me, just let me know when the call starts, and I will make him go outside in his underwear and wait for me. *grins*

Want a free call with me??? All you gotta do is go to http://baycityblues.com/specials.htm

You could get a free 15 minute call and it’s super easy!!! Charlie and Lucy are having a sexual debate. Voice your opinion!

My little fag sissy hairdresser sent me this and I loved it….. you all should read this!!

Part 1
I was in a large room surrounded by unbelievably beautiful, HOT women. They were all paying alot of attention to me…all dressed in short skirts, mini-pants or short shorts. All were impeccably made up and their hairdos were all fresh out of the beauty shop! High heels and shiny boots were clicketing all around the room. Thing is… I was all dolled up in a plastic sissy outfit and my hair was up in pink curlers and I had a wet diaper under crackely pink plastic panties! I had
a clear plastic garter belt holding up black fishnet stockings, a black plastic mini-skirt over my plastic pants and diaper, a pink clear plastic rain jacket over a black baby doll t-shirt and a big clear plastic rain bonnet tied on over my
pink curlers in a cute bow under my chin! More womwn seemed to be entering
the room and one came up and started rubbing my crotch. Another was whispering into my ear about what a cute plastic sissy baby girl I was and wondered if I had ever given a man a blow job. She described how cute my lips would be wrapped around
a big cock.

“Oh, men would love to have someone so sweet and little and all in plastic play with their cocks, sucking on them until they filled sissy’s mouth with sweet cream.”

I wanted to say that I wasn’t gay, but the hard nipple she crammed into my mouth kept me silent! “You’ll love the heat of his meat filling your mouth. I can’t go a day without semen on my tongue,” she whispered to me! This should have been a
sign of things to come for me, but at the time I was helplessly dressed in girlie plastic sissy things, looking like a complete plastic bimbo, surrounded by hot women!

It had been bad enough back in the beauty parlor room when several of these women dolled me up and set my high as I was strapped to the beauty chair. They continually chatted in my ear about curlers and having my hair set and going out
with the rollers in and covering them up with pretty chiffon scarves and plastic rain bonnets. And i might even be punished with my hair done up in rollers! “You want to see your hair set in curlers, you hope you will look so adorable and you’re sure you will.” “You need to feel the curlers very tight and you will ask Madam to keep them in as long as possible.” You wonder if madam and the other ladies will punish you while you’re in curlers, you certainly hope so.”

“Madam will let you wear pretty kerchieves and rain bonnets over your sweet curlers and you wonder how cute you will look like that!”
On and on the ladies bantered until I was “set” and done up to their wishes.

Then, Back in the large room, what I feared most happened. A lone Man appeared and the ladies immediately had him remove his pants. His boxers tented outward from his huge boner. Someone came over and refreshened my bright red lipstick. I was led to a corner of the room that held a special chair. Before I was forced to sit down in this chair, however, I was told to act like the plastic sissy homosexual that I was and to repeat over and over “Oh, girls, I feel like a plastic homosexual
fairy, a complete plastic sissy all dressed up like a girl!”

Current Wardrobe: A white “I Love New York” t-shirt and white skimpy panties

I love this song… this was in the soundtrack to Sleepless Seattle and I just happen to have the cd playing and I love this song. I was thinking about the movie and how long it has been since I’ve seen it and it got me to thinking about the scene at the end where Meg Ryan meets Tom Hanks in the Empire State Building. And well…. I am going on vacation to NYC in July!!! I will get to go all the way to the top of the Empire State Building and look over ALL of the city! And YES I am taking lots of photos!

Man I have New York on the brain…. I’ve had quite a few New York callers calling me… and I just booked a hotel in New York City at a really great deal too! I had spent a few days looking for just the right hotel (I want a tall one that overlooks the city) in a nice area (in downtown Manhattan close to the main attractions within walking distance) with good ratings (I wanted at least a 3 star hotel) and at a decent price - and I found a great hotel that only ended up costing me an average of $94 a night cause it was part of a package deal. I am so fucking happy! There is so much I want to do in New York, places to see, people to meet, shops to devour, and wow - that is all I seem to be thinking about these days.

I spent most of last night researching the best places in New York to visit - the tourist places, etc. It just occurred to me that I have never even seen the Brooklyn Bridge, Central Park, Statue of Liberty, the Metropolitan Museum… everything!! There is so much, I even want to go to the MTV and NBC Studios since they are pretty close to my hotel. I live a sheltered life. This is such a rush for me, I can’t wait!!!!! I love New York, have been there a few times - but this time I am going to stay and enjoy it and experience it for a whole week and get to see it all!

I applied to get tickets to the Dave Letterman show, but um… er… there’s a 6-9 month waiting list so I doubt they’ll send em to me, but I still applied.

Mmmmm art……. gotta love art and collages and colorful creativity
Oh to those who have been asking, I got a call back from the people at the San Diego Fair and they said my drawing WAS approved for the contest. It’s official. I’m entered. We should find out who wins and places within the next month and a half.

The past few weeks I’ve been doing really great, I love the people I work with and the job I do and the sweet callers who are I consider friends rather than just callers. I could never ask for a better place to work…. the girls here are like family… and charlie is by far one of the best people I have ever known and I am just floored that I will get to meet him when I go to New York. This is a huge moment for me…. never before have I worked at a place where there is so much hospitality and genuine good positive spirit. There are good vibes here. I really should start expressing it more - it really makes coming to “work” really fun. The chatroom feels like a chatroom rather than just a room where girls beg for calls. I love all of you thanks for being the greatest coworkers in the world
Shoutouts:
I had a WHOLE HOUR cuckolding my husband while I fucked my sexy Arizona nephew - and man he is such a sweet talker with an amazing voice (and thanks for all those wonderful New York links so I can have helpful advice on cool places to check out when I visit there!), had a WHOLE HOUR with my Kentucky fairy fag who decided to be brave and try the hypnosis and he exploded all over the place cause it was too intense for him woah he left me a 35 minute tip (guess I wore him out huh? hehe man I like him and THANKS for the tip!!!). Had a super sexy call with my New York concert boy who I just adore cause we both have the same taste in great live bands and the lucky bastard gets to see No Doubt AND Blink 182 and I still can’t get over that. Had a surprise call with my New York Girly boy who I hadnt heard from in ages and ages and he finally found me again - what a wonderful guy - and his girlfriend is a shemale (you know he’s getting good sex hehe), had a sexy quickie with my handsome brother-in-law who is always so careful to make sure my sister doesn’t find out he is fucking me, had a nice quickie call with a delicious sissy who was such a good cocksucker, had an awesome hypnosis call with a brand new caller who wore diapers and wanted me to force him to shit and piss in his diapers and never use the bathroom again - hope he has some baby powder or he’s gonna be hurtin’, had a nice morning quickie with a man who makes me cum louder Louder LOUDER and I love it! I also raped the ass of one unsuspecting new caller who really needed to be pounded and rammed!! And last but certainly not least….I had a call with a very kinky guy who I turned into a shemale so that he coule be my new “girl” roommate - speaking of which, I THINK he is from New York as well…. talk about coincidence!

Current Wardrobe: a white oversized long-sleeve, button-up man’s shirt…. nothing underneath

It’s 3:43 am… it’s dark… lights out… I have 4 small candles burning, my lava lamp dancing, my blacklights beaming, and my motion lamp swaying, listening to Sarah McLachlan on my home entertainment center… and it’s so soothing… I can just sit here… and type… with my eyes closed…. listening to her voice… and it’s perfect. This moment…. I feel so good. Nothing could be better. Well damn the cat just scratched me. Fuck that hurt. Ok, breathe. Other than that…. this is perfect. This mood, this moment, the smell of rosemary incense burning hanging from the ceiling, the sound of an acoustic guitar and piano playing so softly… man I love this.

The cleaning lady comes over this afternoon to clean up thank goodness. It was weird, I was cleaning for 2 hours tonight just to make it presentable for her to clean. How sad is that. I was hiding the dildos and vibrators that were on the bed and floor, the nipple clamps in the living room, putting the condoms in a cabinet instead of out in the open, put away the porno dvds so they arent laying around where she can see them. It’s unbelievable how risque I live compared to er…. anti-sex people.

Ok get this. I am typing this while sitting in a chair and my cat… is snuggled between my back and this chair. Now why is that? Doesn’t the cat worry I might lean back and hurt him? He is so funny. Throughout the day, he does cute things, adorable things, mean, bad naughty things. He is a healthy average kitten. But man… I didn’t think he’d chew the cords OFF my stereo speakers of my computer. My speakers are ruined, had to throw them out. And yet, he just looked at me SO cute with his ears back and his eyes wide open. He looked so cute. I was so mad but all I did was pick him up and put him in the bathroom (which he hates because he HATES being alone). And in return he meowed and meowed and meowed at the top of his lungs cause he hates being by himself. He follows me everywhere I go. If I get up to go pee, he comes too. If I go to the fridge, he comes too. If I go on the bed for a phone call, here he cums, er… comes. He has scratched me to hell and back…. but oh I love him so much. I will get him groomed soon and get his nailed trimmed so he won’t leave me bleeding all over cause his nails are razor sharp.

Ok he moved. Now the cat… is perched on top of my head. I can’t even see anything. Er… now he’s on the keyboard….

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Current Wardrobe: Tie-dyed t-shirt, pajama bottoms, light blue skimpy panties

First of all I want to give a big warm hug to a special friend who I forgot to mention in my last shoutouts, my sweet sissy fag hairdresser… I felt just awful knowing I forgot to mention him and I talked to him tonight and I promised a special kiss just for him… **this is for you my curler-dicksucking-sissy-fag**

Since you like curled hair so much, thought you might appreciate this!

*MUAH*

You all will start noticing lots of changes on my site, I am learning lots of new web design and coding and all sorts of nifty things, so be sure to check from time to time to see new things I love learning new computer stuff and you all know that when I get in my nerdy computer mood, then cool things happen! I love you guys!

Shoutouts:
Had a WHOLE HOUR with a brand new caller I like to call my Tennessee intelligent boy who is so smart (yes southern boys DO have brains) and extremely sexy and wow… quite obedient and submissive too and I must say that feeling a hard cock against my feet like that really made ME cum hard too! Had a WHOLE HOUR with my Washington pantyboy with an English accent who let me hypnotize him while making him feel the silkiest panties in the world mmmm HOT! Had a hot sexy call with my sissy hairdresser fag who was SOOOO flamboyant in the salon doing my hair I just couldn’t believe a boy like him would be in a salon in the first place, shouldn’t he be doing construction *giggles*…. and last but not least I had a NINETY minute call with a brand new caller I will start to call Mr. Kinky Judge because I think mentioning which state he is from might just get him in trouble… but wow, he sure knows how to use his gavel! Mmmm and gotta say thanks to a few of my pantyboys and sissies, you know who you are, who know just how to excite me
I love you guys! I’ll be back later - still renovating some things on the site