Current Wardrobe: black lady teddy and nothing else *winks*

It’s that time of year again, it’s the middle of January which means I have exactly five months to prepare my next art masterpiece for the San Diego County Fair again. Last time I worked on an architectural piece on San Diego/San Francisco mixed together and got an honorable mention. This time I want to do something different but I am out of ideas. I need YOUR HELP! I need some kind of idea of a piece to do that is intensive and hard to do and requires lots of detail (that’s why I want to start now) keep in mind that the whole thing will be done in black and white and will be created using black ink. Please help! I need some thoughts and ideas. No idea is a stupid one and even if I don’t use it, I might still throw it in there in a small place.

Mmmm a completely different note, I have been one lucky lady who got hypnotized by a very handsome and dominating man who gently put me under his spell and let me be his sweet submissive. It had been such a very long time since someone had hypnotized me for a change, and I truly loved it! Now I can officially say that every single one of my Christmas wishes came true now. All of them have been fulfilled *big kisses*

I’ve finished two erotic drawings so far this month and as much as people just oogle over my work, I can’t help but feel like I can do so much better. It doesn’t matter how many compliments I here or how many times I hear other people tell me “Do you know how much you could make?” because when I look at my art, I am my own worst enemy. Have you ever created something that took you weeks and when you get done you are so tired of looking at it that you have no interest in even sharing it? That’s how I feel.

My therapist has given me a daily balance routine where I state 8 different types of feelings I have at that current moment, some positive some negative. At first I thought it was kinda stupid but it really works. After spending 5 minutes a day doing it, I get into my center core and feel so much better and alive and feel like I can do anything. Curious anyone? Try it: Angry, Sad, Afraid, Regret, Grateful, Proud, Secure, Happy… and you simply state in short sentences what is on your mind. Like: “I am angry that it’s cold in here. I am sad that I sleep alone. I am afraid of anything happening to my cat. I regret going to sleep so late last night. I am grateful for my reliable car. I am proud to be alive and well. I am secure knowing I have a roof over my head. I am happy that I have true friends…. and of course, you keep going on and on and on until you run out of things to say. And when you get done, you end on a positive note and it makes you happy. Works for me anyway, thought I would share.

So anyway - back to the art piece - if any of you have tips on the next fair entry - PLEASE HELP?! I am desperate and out of ideas.

Love,
Isabella
xoxooxox