It’s so strange how days can have such emotional up and downs… so many different things come into play when deciding how people will react to certain things. Today was eye opening.
Sad & Angry
I got my paper back, the 19-page “Phone Sex vs. Erotic Hypnosis” research paper I spent soooo many days and hours working on. The teacher, who I admired so much, gave me a B minus. I was crushed. The paper was REALLY good and everyone in the class who had read it thought it was an “A” paper. The teacher added comments and requested revisions on the paper that contradicted the instructions, even the people in the English tutoring center said so. I really felt hurt, not because my paper needed corrections… but because the corrections that were asked of me had nothing to do with the paper. I spent the first hour of class today with this horrible pit in the bottom of my stomach, and for the first time, I almost considered quitting college altogether. Is it really worth it to stay in school? Do I really “need” a degree? I make more money than most people dream of, so it’s not like I’m in school to earn more money. I’d end up making LESS money as a sex therapist than I make now. But being in college helps me mature and grow and learn to take criticism better. It just hurt. Needless to say I spoke to the teacher quietly after class to ask why she made comments she did. She admitted it was three in the morning when she graded my paper and some of her corrections may have been unneccessary and wrong. She said that my paper was a higher level than she expected and is English 205 level, not English 101 level and is letting me count the paper as TWO papers (so I don’t have to write the end-of-the-semester long argument paper). I was relieved to hear that! She also said she was being overly hard on me because she can see this paper being published on a bigger level than just school and wanted it to be the best it could be. So, that of course, gave me some relief and I didn’t feel so bad anymore. Needless to say, I won’t be publishing the paper online or recording it for a little while so I can make the necessary revisions and additions to the paper. I guess if I’m going to put it out there, it’s going to be the best it can be.
Happy & Giggly
Just an hour after class ended, I had some friends over for a video and photoshoot for part of the English class project. It ended up being a hilarious shoot!!!! OMG… I’ll share some of the blooper reels on video for you all to watch. I swear, I practically peed in my pants I was laughing so hard watching roll over on top of skinny Melissa in my bed and knocking her to the floor. haha!!! I’ll definitely be sharing it! The purpose of the videos are to sell fictious products or services in a very creative, imaginative way. So in our “commercials” we are selling HYPNOSIS and MIND CONTROL in advertising. So our object is to create regular commercials while including hypnotic subliminal messages, overlaying, and mind control to make viewers want to watch the whole commercial, as well as buy the product. For instance, in our mattress-selling commercial, we had Scott and Melissa in bed and I’ll be adding overlaying tracks which say, “You are getting very sleepy… you must buy this bed.” LOL needless to say, we cracked up a lot and the I’ll share the bloopers either tonight or tomorrow and when the commercials are done, I might post them publically so people who like hypnosis can see what it would be like if it were subliminally done on television to the common viewer!
Curious & Hopeful
I paid Scott, a tarot card reader, to give me a reading since he was over already and the psychic-style setup was already done from one of our previous commercial shoots. He gave me a reading and it was actually very hopeful for my lovelife and relationships. He sees me meeting a long-haired, possibly Native-American guy within 3 weeks or so who will be very submissive to me and have an open-relationship to start. Then after about 8 months or so, we’ll begin to get serious and he’ll profess how much he wants to make it really work. He sees the relationship lasting 4 years where I am a full dominant and he is very submissive. What an insightful reading! I was a little startled by the reading, because I’ve been on the prowl for a relationship with a woman, not a man. I’ve never had a real relationship with another woman and have wanted it all my life, so that’s what my heart has been set on. However, in this reading, he said that this guy will be very open-minded and willing to let me dress him up like a girl and feminize him and still let me see girls. Well… that’s the best of both worlds!!! I’m keeping my eyes open, folks! I definitely want a true submissive, that’s for sure. And if turns into a 24-7 D/s relationship, that’s more icing on the cake!
Tired & Drunk
I started drinking some Apple Pie, which in case any of you are unfamiliar with the drink, is an underground homemade alcoholic drink which tastes like apple pie but knocks your ass out quickly. I drank and drank and drank… because I can’t really taste the alcohol in Apple Pie so I can drink a lot of it without feeling like I’ve had much. Within ONE HOUR of drinking just two drinks of that stuff. I was out. I just passed right out.
Groggy & Stupid
After passing out for a few hours, I woke up and realized I was naked. Weird. I never remembered removing my clothes. Perhaps I did it coming up the stairs. It *is* hot in this apartment, it wouldn’t surprise me if I was just burning hot and just stripped out of em. I put on some boxers and a ripped t-shirt and went downstairs and watched a few recorded tv shows on Tivo, ordered some pizza from Dominos, still groggy from the previous drinking. Answered the door in my at-home-get-up outfit and got a big smile from the pizza guy, that was nice. Then I ate some pizza and sat there watching tv like a zombie. I hardly EVER do that. I am NOT a couch potato, not even close. But I certainly turned into one in my post-drunken state.
Love
Isabella Valentine
xoxoxox
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