In the three years I’ve lived here in San Diego, I have met some unbelievable people and will leave behind some very close friends. Living here opened up my thoughts, my lifestyle, broadened my horizons, and gave me a new perspective on life and these have been the best three years of my life (so far). Today I sat in bed looking out the window just reflecting on experiences I’ve had here and how much I will miss everything. Seeing the same waitors at my favorite restaurants. Having the same bartenders flirt with me at various bars. Living so close to friends within walking distance. People I’ve dated. People I almost dated. People I want to date. People I flirt with but never want to date. Restaurants where I get to sit in the same seat every time. Places where people know my name as soon as I walk inside. Coffeeshops. Claire de Lune. Starbucks. The Living Room. Rebeccas. I will miss them all. Poetry readings. Volunteer work with the elderly. Kids that used to watch me paint outside on my easel back in Spring Valley. Rocky shows. Rocky parties. Drunkenness. Fetish parties. More drunkenness. Sex. Drugs. Rock n roll. Concerts. Lots and lots of concerts. Traveling. Road trips. Plane trips. John Holmes the Porn Cat. Models. Photography. I will miss all the models I’ve had the pleasure of photographing. Tassy, Aria, Adriana, Sunny, Bianca, Scar, Chole, Jules, Melissa, Rebecca, Soyla, Bonnie, Carla, Rose, Marisa, Matthew, Dominus, Brooke, Debby, Jaclynn, Leah, Michelle, Sky, Wendy, and all the others. Can’t even name them all. Porn stars. Fake smiles. Adult conventions in L.A. — Glamourcon and Erotica L.A. Porn parties. Sex toy parties. I will miss ComicCon and Wizard Con and Dom Con. I will also miss the tattoo conventions. BDSM parties. Finally getting an education. School projects. Sex videos. Group projects. Hypnosis videos with friends. Plays and skits. Research papers, knowledge, friends. Friends, friends, friends. Teachers I flirted with. Teachers I masturbate thinking about.
I will miss the beach at night. I used to walk out on the beach at 3am in the morning on nights and just lie back looking at the stars. I will miss the feel of the cold sand beneath my toes. I will not miss the gas prices though. Got a new car here. Got a cat here. Got tattoos of latest memories here. Oh the tattoos. I have so many more now. My back has two murals now and one day I hope to finish the whole thing. I will miss Junior, my tattoo artist. His patience with me every time I faint and pass out. I will miss my therapist for helping me come out of the closet and be ok with admitting I like women (a lot). I will miss talking to her and opening up. I will miss her very much! I will miss Kevin, a boyfriend who gave me nine amazing months of which I will never regret and he was always there for me. Morning, noon, or night. Whether I was drunk, high, or sober… he was there for me. I will miss my sister who annoys the hell out of me but I still love her. I will miss her using me for my money and having me pay for her meals. I will miss shopping with my friends at BDSM stores with Katie and Matt looking for whips and corsets. I will miss getting naked on the massage table while Missy massages me with the lights off and candles burning.
I will miss my landlord and his partner (Randy and Albert) who are the two coolest gay people I’ve ever met in my life and they inspire me in every way. I will miss all my neighbors, the barbecues, the bumming of cigarettes, the sitting outside at 2am smoking a cigarette cause none of us can sleep. I will miss Carlos and David’s parties and the girls they brought over. Hot! Will miss Scott and his amazing pussy snorkel, his fun psychic readings, and his delicious apple pie drink. Will miss Kat and watching her get spanked until her ass was purple and welted. Will miss watching Amy get spanked by Matt’s jackhammer-spank while not flinching at all. Will miss topless girls at parties, drunken kissing and over-the-top compliments. I will miss the cheese, meat, and cracker party trays that show up at every party I go to. Maybe everyone likes the same thing? I will miss grabbing girls’ butts and letting boys see my boobies every time I get drunk off my ass. I will miss shopping at Mac for the world’s best makeup since there isn’t one in my new town. I will miss Nordstrom and Macy’s. I will miss Rodeo Drive in Beverly Hills especially Gucci, Tiffany & Co., Christian Dior, Versace, and Coach. Such nice stores out here! I will certainly miss Panpipes in West Hollywood where indie Wiccan users can buy spells, potions, oils, candle magick, blessed tarot cards, etc. I will miss that place to death. And will miss the crazy girl behind the counter too.
I will not miss my old roommates, especially the girl who once left pubic hair all in the toilet after she shaved her pussy. I will not miss having to try to be quiet while spanking a submissive even though my roommates could hear everything. I can’t wait to do what I want and make as much noise as I want in this new place. Parties and loudness is fine cause I live far enough away from my neighbors. I will not miss my landlord telling me to keep it down. I will not miss the sound of car alarms going off every time I would try to start a new recording.
I will certainly miss Justin, a virgin, who has a giant crush on me and once he saw my boobies, he got so hard that he ran out of the room to relieve himself at a party. Will miss Durwood seeing one boobie at a time but never both simultaneously. Will also miss his outfits, his poeticness, and his demeanor… Will miss Liz who tells me to shut up when she’s high cause when I’m drunk I pester her to death. LOL. I’ll miss her nakedness at parties. Wow. And I’ll miss Tony, who I think fingered me on a couch once in front of some fucked up people but I was too drunk to remember what the hell I was doing. It was hot turning him into a girl. I will miss him very much. I will miss sissy Nancy who would do anything to be my 24-hr submissive and treats me like a royal Goddess even when I snap at her. I get annoyed very easily and Nancy is one of the very few people who knows me and I don’t have to be fake around her. I will miss lots of girls butts and breasts (I’ll leave them nameless so I don’t piss them off again). Speaking of which, I will miss pissing people off by using vulgarity when complimenting their gorgeous “fucking hot breasts that I could milk for hours” or telling someone their ass looks like “two puppies fighting back and forth” or that their hair is so hot that I want to rip off their scalp and masturbate with it — a compliment is a compliment. LOL. I like pushing people’s buttons.
I will miss all the gay pride parades, Hillcrest, The Flame, Numbers, The Brass Rail, Bacchus House, and Six Degrees. I will miss all the girls at Six Degrees who used to throw money at me when I performed on stage and will also miss smelling the cologne of the bouncer. I will not miss the parking tickets I always received while parking out there though. Will miss Frye’s and shopping for electronics endlessly, always on the prowl for the newest hot item. Will miss Jamie and his paintings, his ambition for fame, and his “by the way I got married” speech at 8 in the morning. Will miss Angela, my maid, who is so much more than just a maid. She shops for me, does my laundry, cleans my dildos, assembles things, and is also helping me move and is driving with me to help me get set up. Who else would do that? Will miss Master D, who before becoming overwhelmed in the drug scene, was my equal in every way. I will miss him fawning over me and our BDSM talks. Will miss going to concerts with Melissa, singing Boyz II Men while walking to our cars. Will miss Jasmine Drew and her boyfriend who are absolutely wonderful people and I feel like I’ve known them for years. I will miss staring at her gorgeous ass and talking about our future. Will miss hearing him dub things on his dj booth and watching them drink herbal stuff I can’t pronounce. I will miss my colon therapist (Forgot her name? What’s wrong with me!) who talks about sex and fetishes with me while she’s draining me. What a sight! I will miss everything about her.
Will miss Hamburger Mary’s and talking about math and numbers with the hot bartender - he is so smart, it’s such a turn on! Will miss going to stores where people recognize me and instead of shaking my hand, they nod and smile — or if I am shopping, they don’t give me strange looks for wearing latex gloves. Will miss the guys at Subway who always give me an extra scoop of tuna on my tuna wrap for free without me even asking (leaving nameless so they don’t get in trouble). Will miss the girls at the UPS Store who mail my stuff for free or for a discount (leaving nameless so they don’t get fired).
I could go on and on and on and on…. so many people so many things…. there are hundreds of people I haven’t even mentioned. I just had to write this….
Love
Isabella
xoxoxox
P.S. I’m getting with Durwood to try to arrange a triple party. He and a friend are throwing birthday parties on the same day and lots of my friends want to have a going away party for me, so more than likely we’ll all do it at the same place. Will keep you all posted. Look for a friends-only LJ post in the near future for more info. Will be on Sep 23rd.
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