This is a friends only post cause I really hate having to show my pissed off anger like this in front of all my customers, but if I don’t let this out, it’s gonna make it even worse.
Yesterday an anonymous person really pissed me off and they said some things that were so fucked up. You know, I really don’t like to let things get to me, but for some reason I just can’t shake this. He or she called me a “fraud” simply because I photoshop my photos. You know what? I’ve said since day one I’m not a fucking model. I’m a photographer first and foremost. Hell, I photoshop every fucking picture I take. Not just of me, of everyone! How the fuck does that make me a fraud? If anything, it makes me artistic and creative. It shows I know how to make myself flawless, which I enjoy doing. So what if I remove bags under my eyes? So what if I remove a pimple here and there? Who cares if I smooth out my skin? What fucking difference does it make? I swear, their post got me so fucking mad I went downstairs last night and hit the punching bag until I couldn’t lift my arms anymore. He or she said I was “insecure” and had a low self esteem cause I photoshop my pictures. You know what, that’s just ludicrious. Why the hell does that comment bother me so much? Aren’t people familiar with creative photo manipulations? If I want to take a picture and put a fucking skyscraper behind my head, so what? I’m a graphic artist. Why the hell am I even explaining myself now. It just aggravates me that people can be so cruel and then hide behind an anonymous account. This person said other cruel things too, especially about me having a crush on deidre. That she was out of my league. *shakes head* Who the fuck does that person think they are saying that shit to me? I’m rich, beautiful, smart, and talented and adored by thousands… so fuck anything negative they have to say to me. Hell, I bet he or she probably looks like hell and doesn’t have any fucking life so all they do is read my journal so they can have a stone to throw. Yeah that’s ride buddy, hide behind your invisibility. At least I am SECURE enough to SHOW photos of myself instead of using stock photography like a lot of people in this business do. At least I have a high-enough self-esteem to tell people I am 140 pounds overweight. At least I am REAL. All I can say is that I wish that person had been here in front of my face while I had my boxing gloves on. I doubt they would be saying all the fucking things they did.
Anyway here’s some pictures of me all sweaty after working out - no makeup, no wig. Nothing but pure raw beautiful realness. With a big “Fuck You” in the first picture to how I was feeling at the time. And by the way, no photoshop necessary. Bring it on.
*punch*
I’m out.
People like that piss me the fuck off. I’m definately no beauty and I’m not a photographer (especially when it’s my camera on my cell), but I’ve never gotten such a rude comment on a picture I’ve posted before.
You’re beautiful (you are not 140# overweight impossible!) and talented, smart, funny, kind and amazing. People who think otherwise obviously haven’t spent time getting to know anything about you.
screw them. You are a wonderful person who i am honored to know (as much as someone can be known over LJ
), and if someone doesn’t like You or what You do, they can go play in a minefield.
please keep gracing us with Your presence and pictures and files
samantha
i relate to your sensitivity and strength both.
i also photoshoppe out my flaws- pimples and dark circles i have under my eyes etc…and sometimes my freckles i smooth out. i get cruel comments/feedback on my work sometimes too. i understand how it take rattle you.
i sometimes am good at ignoring the naysayers and sometimes it really upsets me.
thanks for sharing this. it’s brave to share both sides…strong of you.
peaCe and keep on doin your thing you love!
-shannon
well, you got a good result from a bad experience - thank that person for a great workout!!! don’t let anyone’s negative energy get you down, its a waste of a good day!! you are so beautiful and creative and skilled, it shouldn’t ever matter one single day out of your life what anyone else thinks if it will draw negative energy from you. do what I do - swap them out of your air and continue to do you - your fabulous at it!!!
xooxo
MB
God grief..most women I know photoshop their photos at least a little. It’s obviously jealousy on this persons part…ignore them, it’s not worth your time getting upset over it. *respectfully hugs*
BTW, sweaty or not, you look great in the above photos.
very sexy..sweat turns me on. Hope you feel better
These photos are great…then again being punched by a female top in a wifebeater with short hair is just….hawt
There’s a raw physicality to these that I really like.
Sometimes the realistic photo (like these) works better than the “touched-up” ones but that’s just how I think.
I liked what samkitten said best.
Your “raw beautiful realness” works for me.
It really is a special honor to get to know You…
I’m lost as to how you can be a fraud.
I mean, you are a photographer and you make lovely recordings, but why does anything other than that have to be “real?”
You are more honest than most people I can think of.
Perhaps this person is projecting.
Dear Isabella, the anonymous emailer is an envious, negative, spiteful chump, and wrong in everything he says.
One of the first things that struck me about you was how accurately and truthfully you describe your recordings. Even Disney tells a pack of lies about it’s movies to get people into theaters (eg Bridge to Terabithia, which is actually a tale of two sensitive kids coping with bullying, not the big fantasy epic Disney pretends it is). You don’t do that. Truth in advertising. It’s a rare quality. The OPPOSITE of fraud! It’s a quality that permeates every pore of your journal and your website.
We know your age. We know your weight. We know your joys. We know your trials. There is more truth in one paragraph of your journal than in all the media accounts of the PR-fabricated lives of most entertainers we read about every day in magazines. (The life stories of certain people Brooke Shields has dated, for example, make particularly amusing reading).
Photoshopping is par for the course, but you don’t just use it, you tell us all about it. You demystify an artistic technique that everybody uses, but few mention. And you have used it to create astounding images, like your recent Snow Queen pictures, or your gothic candle pictures! Is Star Wars a fraud because George Lucas filmed it here in London rather than in a galaxy far far away?
But that said, you simply ARE GORGEOUS! Your emerald eyes reduce me to jelly (I think you call it jello across the Atlantic).
When it comes to deidre, the anonymous emailer wholly misses the point. Deidre is in a relationship with a master for whom she lives and breathes. She defines herself by this relationship. And yet your interactions with her, over a very brief period of time, have struck delight, debauchery and heartbreak in her, especially over the fear of losing her treasured acquaintance with you. Read her emails, and anyone can see she adores you. She reads every word you write and she dotes on words you say. Far from being out of her league, it seems that apart from her master, you are just about the only person she includes in his league. She even admitted that you had the hypnotic power to take his place in her mind for a few brief but significant moments. That’s an admission that threatens her very identity. It’s incredible that you had such an impact on her, a testimony to how unique and special you are!
As someone on the periphery of your world, living far away, not far from George Lucas’ far off galaxy of Pinewood studios, I can testify myself that your waves makes wonderful ripples far and wide.
xxx eb
You couldn’t be more beautiful to me my Goddess….
Bring those who defy you to me. I assure you, they will understand when I’m done….
Love and adoration..
Yeah, whoever wrote that stuff apparently has a horde full of his/her own problems. There’s one guy who views/listens to my minute-long samples and writes reviews about how I suck. I’m like “ummmm, get a life?”
People are jealous and get off on fucking with our glory.
You are who you are. No one else can force you or make you change and as long as you are happy with yourself then screw the rest. As for the photos and such, hell I wish I was decent enough with photoshop to do some of the things that you do. It is not you being a fraud but you showing off your talent and skill for all to see.
thank you for that, you are very sweet
and yeah I’m definitely that overweight… thankfully I’m an ok enough photographer to take the right angles and use the right lighting to hide it. I apreciate what you wrote, thank you
thank you kitten *pets your head* and yeah I like the idea of them in a minefield… or jumping off a bridge.
see? that makes me feel good
It’s nice to know there’s no shame in photoshop. It’s a tool to bring out our beauty even more.
So fuck them. And don’t let anyone bring you down.
true, I did work out and that’s good. Thanks for your comment. Usually I have no problem ignoring negativity. Hell I get tons of hate mail. But when it’s so fucking personal directed straight at me and then they brought deidre into this, that just made my blood boil. If they’re going to attack me, fine. But leave deidre out of this. They don’t know shit.
I’ll take your advice - trying not to let negative people breathe my air LOL. But man it gets so fucking aggravating sometimes.
thank you sweetie
that means a lot to me. And photoshop is my best friend! I love her.
oh my. Sweat turns you on. Well in that case, I better go run a couple miles on the treadmill real quick and show up at your doorstep
hehe
LOL, since you said that, I totally had this picture in my head of getting into a fight with a wifebeater on. LMAO!!!
*kisses* by the way I recently took some new pics and one of them is up close of my lips juuuust for you…
yeah they have to be projecting - cause I don’t see any need for anything they said. They must be going through a shitload of problems on their own. But alas, I’m beautiful and they are ugly. So there. haha. By the way - you’re a hottie too
wow. I swear steve, I just want to bottle you up and spray you on me like perfume sometimes. You always manage to say just the right thing when I really need to hear it. I appreciate it more than you know.
*kisses* and yes, I shall bring all the fuckers to your feet so you can squash them like a bug for me.
*flashes titties*
wow that’s terrible that someone would do that… they listen to your samples to tell you that you suck? jesus.
I mean, I get people that sometimes buy my recordings and then say, “That was the worst piece of crap I ever heard.” or “I can’t believe I just spent money on this bullshit.”
But I didn’t realize they would say it to something FREE… I just don’t get it. What idiots. Sorry you have to put up with it.
thank you, wolf
you’re always a sweetheart. Thanks for that.
*purrs and blushes* You are quite welcome Goddess..
Need to borrow my sap gloves?
i am pretty sure 99.9999999999999999999% of people who read your LJ were very much enjoying your picture blitz these past few weeks.
my guess is that he is secretly had a HUGE CRUSH with you and probably got mad you didn’t email him back when he tried to make correspondence.
making digs in an anonymous fashion…LAAAMMMMMMMMMMME
to hell with the punk, but good for you letting it out and killing the power of it
Thank you my Goddess.. I only desire to serve.
yes i agree! it’s an art using photoshoppe! you create dreamy textures and light in your work. i like it. i love what you did with tassy and also what i have seen of yourself. keep on doin your passion. you are good at it.
anytime, Isabella, anytime
LOL!
Holy Goddess,
floral sometimes cannot believe how hateful and spiteful some people can be to such a perfect being such as You. There is just no way that You can be a fraud. Then to cowardly hide their identity. No honour, they cannot even have enough conviction to sign a name to their insults. Some sort of slow torturous death is what guy or gal needs.
You are such a wonderful Goddess. You are gorgeous, insightful, talented, creative, loving, You have a beautiful voice. You are adored and worshipped by thousands at least.
People give You their minds, hearts, souls to do with as You please. Not because they have to, not just because of some command or blackmail, but because they want to. They choose You to surrender to, take the first few steps into Your world and they do not run away scared or disgusted. You strengthen the worship and desire to surrender and submissiveness to You but it was their choice first.
floral was meant to find You Goddess and does not regret it or surrendering to You. It was floral’s choice though and was one of the few that he made right. Thank You for all You have done for floral, all You gave to him.
Yours always,
floral
You are more powerful than to succumb to the sad manipulations of an unhappy person. Raise your energy and blow that fucker into outer space. It might do them some good.
yeah that’s one reason I posted more photos of me yesterday - partly just to piss that person off. So fuck them. I’m the Goddess and they just suck. So if they come in my journal they are forced to stare at My beauty
and that’s an interesting theory about who it was. I think I have an idea who it could be. And if I’m right, it’s just a stupid pantyboy.
That means a lot to me, thanks floral
I always find it soooo ironic that you write so sweetly and caringly and yet you listen to all my loser stuff. It STILL boggles my mind. Most losers I talk to actually SOUND like real losers. But you are far from it.
*kisses to the pathetic one*
Thank you, Anonymistress
*here’s to blowing muthafuckas into a parallel universe*
CHEERS!
You are most welcome Goddess. floral is happy that he can please You with his words. This one meant every word he wrote.
floral needs to listen to the loser stuff sometimes and he also needs the loving caress of Your voice in the other recordings at other times. Also the touch of Your writing, images, and other stuff. It is hard to explain mostly because floral does not entirely understand, at least part loser but maybe part not because he is far from what a loser should be or maybe this one is just a unique loser.
Regardless this one, no matter what he is, is Yours to do what You will with.
Yours always,
floral
does that make sense?
fuck people. Seriously, anyone who reads your journal knows how confident and beautiful you are inside and out. And you know, photoshop only covers so much, there has to be at least some beauty there already. Even in those unedited pictures you look great!!
~Jenn
I just wanted to add my voice to the choir of those saying that you are beautiful…and you are real and brave and stunning in so many ways. It’s easy for some idiot to spread negativity from behind a computer keyboard, but the truth that those who can hear your voice, see your eyes, and even say those things and feel like swooning for you…wait, where was I? Oh yes, you are beautiful and powerful and this little speck of idiocy should be discarded and forgotten. A punch, a smile, and then on to more important things.