Archive for April, 2007

I figured out what it was

*friends only post*

The rut. Yes. I’m in and out of my rut but doing better. I’m craving hard drugs. I’m missing my party days. I’m missing those days of good ole fashioned cocaine and alcohol and green. All of which I stopped. (starts reciting: “I’m strong. I’m resilient. I can resist evil pleasures.” like my psychiatrist taught me.) Sometimes just thinking of how good it made me feel, regardless of how artificial, somehow made me feel so much better. I miss my cigarettes. I miss staying up for 3 or 4 nights straight being so fucked up that I all I wanted to do was enjoy myself. And now… it seems like everything around me has to be perfect. I notice everything. I notice every speck of paper on the carpet. I notice every claw that is slightly longer or shorter on John Holmes’s paw. I’m even back to counting seconds to myself during commercial breaks. Goddamn. Even as I re-read this LJ entry and edit it for spelling errors, I’m counting the seconds and the letters. Grr. The list is endless of my ridiculous OCD habits coming back. I certainly hope these meds kick in soon.

I have a recording I started but I am having an impossible time staying focused to even finish it and it’s been 2 days. I mean… I FEEL good. I FEEL positive. I don’t feel sad or depressed or lethargic or anything. I just can’t stay focused on anything. My head feels so concentrated on unimportant things.

This is terrible. I should have never stopped taking those other pills in the first place. *kicks myself*

Love
Isabella
xoxooxooxo

More pics

While I was in the master bath and closet shooting photos, I figured I’d snap these too…

Love
Isabella
xoxooxox

Isabella’s personal liberation

Alright I gotta be frank. The last 2 weeks I had been in a personal rut. I couldn’t put my finger on it, but it felt like everything around me was collapsing and it was out of my control. And due to my “always feeling so good and healthy” I decided foolishly to stop taking my OCD medication cold turkey which led to irrational behaviors on my part. At first I didn’t notice a difference in my lashing out until probably this past Thursday. And finally on Friday I called my psychiatrist and he decided to change my medication. In fact, he decided to take me off the high-dose old medication and put me on THREE (good God, yes three) lower-dose medications. He says that in 6 months I’ll be down to one medicine and in one year I’ll be weened off to zero medicines, which will be great! Anyway, my head hasn’t been straight for a while, and it’s just now getting back to normal.

During the last two weeks, several things got really out of focus for me. I wasn’t as productive as usual cause I couldn’t think clearly. I would get angry constantly at my friends and family for no reason or for something I misinterpreted. I would have difficulty multitasking again. The germphobia started creeping back again. My house all of a sudden had to be cleaned and I had to hire a maid immediately. I couldn’t touch a handful of public things (the germphobia not nearly as intense as it was a year ago, though). I had to stop going out just like before. I could feel it coming back on very slowly. For the first time since I started my successful wonderful diet, I GAINED my first 2.6 pounds (and it wasn’t muscle and it wasn’t water weight.) This was before I created the weight loss hypnosis recording by the way. This was also during the time I stopped taking my meds. Since that time, I have since lost another 5 pounds, so I have lost that weight I gained (thank goodness). But that little setback was a little discouraging. But it will NOT get me down. I will still reach my goal no matter what!

Anyway as part of deciding to liberate myself and get out of my rut, I decided to do some new things. I went through my bedroom and spent three or four days sorting through all my “fat” clothes which were almost 6-8 sizes too big and put them in giant contractor bags and donated them to Goodwill. I don’t think you all realize just how many clothes there were! Practically ALL my clothes!!! When all was said and done, I only had TWO pairs of jeans and FOUR shirts that could fit me. That was it!

Now I know what you’re all thinking. You’re probably thinking, “That’s great! Now you get to go clothes shopping!” But it’s not. Because that’s ALL I DO! Ever since I started this damn diet, that’s all I freaking do is go clothes shopping and I hate shopping for clothes. And I’ve spent thousands and thousand of dollars on new clothes and all that money is just going down the drain. And I still have so much more weight to lose. It seems like every time I go clothes shopping for a new size, I have to buy enough full-length outfits for about 2 weeks that I can wash and rewash plus some workout clothes, lingerie, and everything else and think about how much that adds up! *sigh* But anyway. My dressers are practically empty. My closet has one or two skirts in it. Period. The ONLY things that still fit me are my bras. (Can you believe it? The bra band size is still the same!) Even my underwear has gone down in size. It’s insane. I’m constantly having to keep shopping for more clothes. Everything keeps falling off or my jeans make my ass look so baggy that I look like a homeless person. And if the clothes aren’t baggy, they’re too tight. The problem is, I’m in between sizes. If I wear one pair of jeans, they’re way too baggy and saggy. If I wear another pair of jeans, they zip up fine but my stomach dunlaps over the top of it and distorts my figure. I hate that. So which pair do I wear? The tight ones that show off my ass but messes up my stomach… or the baggy ones that give me a nice figure but hide my legs and ass? Grrr….

A part of me was sort of hanging on to those “fat” clothes just in case I ever relapsed into fathood again. My past behaviors put me on a diet roller coaster. And although the folks at Jenny Craig kept telling me to throw them away or give them away, I kept avoiding it. I always kept thinking to myself, “But what if I can’t keep the weight off?” And the thing is. I CAN keep it off. And I will. And nothing will stop me. And I got rid of my clothes to prove it to myself once and for all that I meant what I said. I’m not a fucking hypocrite. So that was EXTREMELY liberating. FREEING. I felt a huge weight being lifted, literally. Those bags weighed tons. (In fact, if you weighed each bag on a laundry scale, I bet each bag weighed 68 pounds which is what I’ve lost. I could barely lift it!) So anyway it was liberating getting rid of the clothes once and for all. There’s no going back now. They’re finally gone. Out of the house. Yay for me!

After getting rid of the clothes and feeling way better than I had felt in *two* weeks and I had missed Charity the week before due to my being in a rut and not going anywhere, I decided to see her at the salon. And guess what? Charity and I are going out on Wednesday night!!!!!!!! OMG! We’re going out to dinner and then we’re coming back to my place!

And since it’s either a date or a non-date (I didn’t technically ask the “label” of the dinner, however I clearly expressed my desire to make out with her and she continued arranging a time to meet me for dinner), that was a GREAT excuse for me to go shopping for some new clothes (which I previously dreaded before) and now I have some sexy new things to wear in my dresser!

YAY for liberation :-)
Here’s a photo of a 3rd of my closet (the other 2/3rds are empty except for one conservative outfit):

Love
Isabella
xoxoxoxo

Isabella with pink hair

Special thanks to George for the white gold pearl earrings (in the first hole in my ears) which look so classic, I love them! Thank you!

In these pictures, I’m wearing a pink wig which just arrived and I love it! It’s been many years since I’ve had pink hair. In fact, I used to dye my LONG hair bright pink for nearly 3 years until 2003 and then stopped when I decided to bleach it blonde one day. I was looking through my computer and found some old photos of me (when I was a lot bigger) and when I had that long pink hair (no wig, real hair). It was a long time ago and was back in 2003 and this was before I had lost weight but you can see the difference between then and now. Here are the before pictures.

These were taken this afternoon:

Love
Isabella
xooxoxoxo

Possessed

Haven’t you ALWAYS wanted to be possessed by the Devil?

Demonic Possession MP3

Love
Isabella
xoxoxxoxo

Coming soon…

*muahahaha!!!*

Love
Isabella
xoxoxoox

Trim & Sexy (for Men)

Woohoo… it’s finally done! Enjoy!

Listen to free sample and read more info here

Love
Isabella
xoxoxox

P.S. After a second opinion, my friend doesn’t have cancer after all, which is very good news. Also I applied for a passport today at the post office and got my picture taken and stuff and paid for expedited service which means in 2 weeks I’ll finally have a passport to travel abroad! And in 20 days, Enchantress Alexandra will be recording with Me again!…. also… I put an ad on Alt.com looking for a 24/7 hypnoslave. I’m not looking for a submissive, I’m looking for slave.

Unethical

People think I’m unethical? I’ll show you fucking unethical. After I get done recording the second weight loss hypnosis recording, I’m gonna bring Lucifer back from the dead and will do a DEMON POSSESSION while I hypnotize people. It’s going to have the meanest, cruelest, hardest shit in it - talking backwards, twisting heads, foaming mouth, fits of rage, total exorcist type stuff.

Yeah you continue healing people and I’ll go fuck em up. I’ll make em so fucked up nothing will make them whole. And I hope it pisses all the high falutin, conservative, I’m-better-than-you-cause-I-heal people off.

Love
Isabella
xoxoxox

Rude email - and my response.

I debated writing this entry or not, but it needs to be said. And since I’ve had a day to cool off, I’m ready to approach this in a somewhat civilized manner.

For every 200 amazing emails, there’s always one bad one. Yesterday I let one get to me. I really don’t know how A-list celebrities like Pamela Anderson, Dave Navarro, and people like Robert Downey Jr. put up with things. It takes a lot of work to grow “thick skin” and people always give me advice to “not let people’s comments” get to me. And theoretically, it should. But controlling it is something else. I mean, if someone just writes one or two sentences of negativity, I delete it and it never bothers me. But when someone CLOAKS their negativity behind something they are trying to “show” is positive, that’s even worse. They pretend to care and throw these sensational blows right to my heart in an effort to make me feel like shit and try to “correct” me. How is it that people feel they can say anything to me, regardless of how terrible it is, without any regard at all for how it might affect me or the people I love?

Yesterday someone really hit below the belt and it’s stuff like that makes me just want to delete my email address for good. But by doing so, it would hurt a lot of my fans who really ARE saying wonderful things and I enjoy their comments very much. However I’m not going to let assholes like that define my overall decisions. I refuse to let people like that win.

This person I am referring to said a few things that I am going to comment on… here… and the reason I’m writing it here instead of to the person in question is because I want to answer publically for anyone who might be having the same thoughts.

1) This person said they had “ethical reservations” to listening to my recordings.

Response: So basically this person is implying I am unethical. *sigh* This really aggravates me when people say crap like this. Obviously he/she has never listened to my stuff and realized just how positive and enlightening 95% of my recordings are. Any of my recordings that have negativity or cross the border into unethical territory are CLEARLY MARKED and labeled. If I truly wanted to be unethical, I wouldn’t write descriptions at all and I wouldn’t provide free samples and would pretend it’s a sweet recording and then do a “switcheroo” and demand all their money (which I would never dream of). I am one of the most ethical people out there and I truly care about everyone’s well being. All the mp3s I create are fantasy based and reach people on a fetish level. If someone wants to hear me “be mean” then I’ll do it cause it turns them on. I’m not doing it cause I hate them or am some evil person. Everything I do - ALL the things I do - are to see people orgasmically happy. For anyone, for one second, to say, think, or imply that I am unethical is an absolute idiot. I love turning people on. I love reaching people at their core. I love bringing a positive impact to people’s lives. And I have over a hundred mp3s that are wonderful and uplifting.

2) This person said that MY karma was responsible for my friend possibly having cancer

Reponse: How fucking dare that person say that to me. What really disturbs me is that people love to play the “blame game” and act as though someone is at fault. This person must be implying that I am having bad karma due to my “ethics” - which again, brings me back to my above statement. This person doesn’t know a thing about me and certainly loves to throw stones. Let’s assume for a moment that this jerk is right. How is it that I can donate thousands of dollars to charity and people in need for many people around the globe (good karma) and my friend still gets sick (bad karma). How is it that I go out of my way to help people and donate my TIME and ENERGY to help people get better like volunteering at Hospice (good karma) and my friend still gets sick (bad karma). How is it that I shell out thousands of dollars to help my mother get conservatorship over my brother (good karma) and my friend still gets sick (bad karma). How is it that I create “Trim & Sexy (for women)” which is positive and uplifting and I lowered the price $15 than I planned so more people could afford it (good karma) and my friend still gets sick. How is it that I am treating my body GOOD and quit all the bad foods, drinks, drugs, and bad things (good karma) and my friend still gets sick (bad karma). I could go on and on forever. Obviously this person doesn’t take into consideration all the GOOD I do for myself and to other people. How dare they imply I am a bad person and this is happening as a punishment for me. Cancer is not a joke. Are they saying that every person who has cancer DESERVED it? That’s ridiculous. My brother had a drowning accident at age 2 and he’s 28 now and is severely handicapped and brain damaged. I was an infant at the time. Am I responsible for that too? Did I wiggle my rattle too loud and that happened to him? Did I wet my diaper and therefore he has to spend the rest of his life in a wheelchair?

3) This person suggested that in order for me to make things right I should create free recordings

Response: ha. Yeah right. You do realize this is my JOB. Do YOU work for free? Should garbage men pick up people’s trash for free? Should a janitor clean a hospital for free? Should Christina Aguilera spend millions of dollars on recording a new cd and then give it away for free - just because YOU suggested it? *rolls eyes* I don’t think this person realizes that I have invested thousands and thousands of dollars into my work. My recording studio isn’t cheap. My TIME isn’t cheap. Why the fuck should I create a free recording for everyone to enjoy and it’s coming out of MY time and MY money. If I did, I would be broke and stressed. I don’t work for free. To even suggest it is insulting. YES I have skills and talents that help people. So do lots of hypnotists. But if I start working for free, I won’t be able to pay my bills and my mortgage. I owe federal taxes over $50,000 from last year alone… why the hell should I start giving my stuff away free? How else am I going to work and get money. Hypnosis is my JOB. I enjoy what I do very much, but I do expect compensation. I put my life into every recording. My energy. My time. I already have tons of free recordings on my website and 2-3 weeks in March I released an mp3 for free that was extremely uplifing. If you didn’t listen to it, that’s your fault. But to IMPLY that I get bad karma because I charge for my recordings, is like implying that your plumber gets bad karma because he charges to unclog your toilet. I work 60 hours a week full-time on my recordings and my blood goes into it. Many things I do go unpaid that I don’t even tell people about. How dare this person say this crap to me. So this person is basically saying that if I create something for free, my friend may not get cancer. What a crock. I just released FIVE free music mp3s on my website and ONE free video just last week. And my friend still is sick. I am not about to devote my time and energy to making “healing hypnosis” mp3s and putting them out for free just because YOU suggested it. And another thing too: insulting me is not going to make me want to do anything free for anyone.

4) This person wants to be on my LJ friends list to read my private entries.
Response: You’re kidding right? So you can blast me every time something negative happens in my life? Fuck you.

By the way, I printed your letter and taped it to my punching bag. I hope you felt it.

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Love
Isabella
xoxooxox

Knowledge Database and Support

Who is Isabella Valentine?
I have a detailed website at IsabellaValentine.com which gives you some idea of who I am and what I’m about! I am in my mid-twenties and specialize in erotic hypnosis, NLP, glamour photography, drawing pin-up art in pencil, and so much more! I am currently taking some time off from college (majoring in psychology) for a year. My goal is to become a sex therapist with a PhD - that’s my goal in life *smiles*

You can view some of my credentials, reviews, articles, and publicity here.

In my spare time, I am a glamour photographer and a pin-up artist and you can see my work on that site as well. You may have seen some of my adult photography of Sunny Leone, Tassy Pink, Aria Giovanni, Adriana Sage, Bianca Malise, Scar, and Miss Conduct.

What are your certifications?
Two Certifications for Clinical Hypnotherapist - American Pacific University
Certified NLP Practitioner - American Pacific University
Time Line Therapy Life Coach - Empowerment Partnership

All my certifications are approved and acknowledged by the Association of Integrative Psychology.

Also, I am currently undergoing training to become a Certified Master Practitioner of NLP (a higher Master level). Certification will be complete in November, 2008 in Kona, Hawaii.

More credentials available here.

What does your recording studio look like?
Here are recent photos of My recording studio. I didn’t take close up shots of My equipment I use or of the LOADS of software I own because a lot of My competitors like to copy Me. I had to distort the pictures slightly so I can at least keep *some* secrets to Myself… otherwise everyone’s gonna do the exact same thing as Me. You’d be surprised how many people get inspired by Me and then try to imitate Me in sake of making more money.

Why do you create recordings when people can do live calls?
Sure live phone sex calls are wonderful and fabulous, however there are lots of reasons why recordings are equally (if not more) popular! Sometimes men are married, shy, nervous, scared or even ashamed of having specific sexual feelings that they’d rather keep to themselves. When recordings become available, it becomes an anonymous fantasy where they don’t have to admit their sexual fantasies to other people. Sometimes people just don’t have time for phone sex or our schedules don’t meet. Sometimes people just want to listen to something over and over again without having to pay for it over and over. Phone sex calls get very expensive when paying by the minute. At least with recordings, you know how much money you will spend and your money will go a long way! People can listen to the recordings as often as they want for just one price. Also recordings are also a great way for “curious minds” to see what other fetishes are out there, without having to ask for it. It can be embarrassing to ask a phone sex operator to carry out a fantasy only to realize a few minutes into it, that you don’t like it. At least on a recording, you can figure out your likes and dislikes without having to put yourself (or someone else) on the spot.

Do I just pay one price?
Yes. You pay one time and it is yours forever. Unlike some websites, where you pay for a recording or video and only have access to it for 30 days, I don’t do that. When you purchase a recording, it is yours and there is no expiration date. In the event I decide to alter, remaster, or upgrade a recording you have previously purchased, I will be more than happy to let you download the upgrade for free as long as you provide me with your Niteflirt username so I can verify the original purchase.

How do I purchase a recording?
Simply click “Buy MP3 Recording” and it takes you to a sign-in page on Niteflirt.com. Don’t worry, it’s free to sign up and it’s not some ploy to get you to do some weird porn membership. It’s just the way I accept payment. Once you create a screenname and a password, you will be taken to a page that allows you to purchase the recording. Plus it helps me categorize what you’ve purchased so I can help you in the event you lost the link to a recording or something.

I don’t see where to buy a recording. Where is it?
If you don’t see a jpg button that says “Buy MP3 Recording” then perhaps you should shut down your ad-blocking software or pop-up blocker and temporarily disable your firewall. This should fix your problem and allow you to see the button to purchase the recording. Or try pressing the Ctrl key when clicking the button so you see the Niteflirt.com pop-up screen. Keep in mind there are no advertisements on my website, so if you disable the pop-up blocker, you will NOT be bombarded with advertisements. At least not from my site.

Where do I download the recording?
After you purchase the recording, check your Niteflirt email inbox. Within the email are easy instructions. It includes a link to the zip file which contains the mp3 file along with a private username and password for you to download it immediately.

I am having difficulty downloading an mp3 recording. What do I do?
If you purchased an mp3 and are having difficulty downloading your zip file, there are number of things you can do so that you can enjoy your product(s).

1. Make sure your firewall is turned off. You can always turn it back on when your download is finished. For most people, this solves the problem instantly.
2. Make sure you have IsabellaValentine.com listed as a trusted website. To do this, open up Internet Explorer, then Tools, then Internet Options, then Security, then Trusted sites. Then click on Sites and in the space where it says Add this website to the zone type in my website which should be http://isabellavalentine.com
3. Make sure your pop-up blocker is turned off. You can always turn it back on when your download is finished. This will ensure my login username/password screen pops up for you to enter your info.
4. Broken downloads. If you have a slow modem, have tried multiple attempts to download something, or have purchased numerous mp3s from me and want to download them with more ease, then don’t worry! There is a free download program that will speed things up (and doesn’t have spam or evil stuff on it and I even use it!) that will allow you to resume broken downloads so that if your computer crashes, you can still get your mp3s! It is called iGetter and is compatible with Windows OS and Mac OS systems. You can download it here:
http://www.igetter.net/downloads.html

Once I pay, do I get it immediately?

Yes. Just check your Niteflirt inbox.

Do you accept any other methods of payment?

Not at this time.

How is this billed?
Discreetly billed as NF Services. For more info, read more on Niteflirt’s help menu.

What type of recording equipment do you use?
Depends on which recording you’re talking about. At the bottom of each description, look at the category labeled “Quality” and then click “Details” which will tell you which equipment was used to make that recording. Or you can compare all the types - Sound Quality.

Where do you record these recordings?
Everything that says “Professional First Rate” on the Sound Quality means it was recorded within My own personal recording studio. That’s right! I finished soundproofing My own recording studio in one of my upstairs bedrooms! I’ve invested tens of thousands of dollars of My own personal money in equalizers, digital recorders, encoders, software, mixers, and all sorts of things to give you the most amazing experience when listening to these recordings! These were created with a special condensor microphone with voice effects, wall reverb, and excellent sound control. If it doesn’t say “Professional First Rate” then it was created before I had my own studio and was done with regular computer microphones and more specific information about those are listed in the Sound Quality category.

Do you do custom erotic hypnosis recordings?
Yes, but I have guidelines that you must respect and follow. Rule #1 - You must pay up front. Niteflirt only allows payments up to $999.99 at a time so you will have to split it into multiple payments. But it must be paid all at once. There are no layaway plans. Rule #2 - I must approve your idea(s) before agreeing to do the recording. Rule #3 - There will be no refunds given afterwards and there will be no alterations to the recordings once it is complete. Rule #4 - If you have specific requests, be verbal about them BEFORE I begin recording - not during or after production. Be sure to be verbal about how personal and custom you want your custom recording (do you want Me to whisper your name subliminally?) and if you have specific things you want Me to say, tell Me. Also, if there are things about you that you want Me to know about you then tell Me. Such as: are you a breast man, an ass man, introverted, extroverted, shy, easy to manipulate, easy to humiliate, like to be tormented, or…. tell Me what you don’t want to hear. Be specific. This is YOUR recording and it’s worth your time to be specific!

Pricing for custom recording:
25 minute basic erotic hypnosis session - $1,000 includes background music and whispers in background with your custom fetish.
+ add $25 for each additional minute
+ add $200 for binaural sound arrangement - two voices
+ add $100 for each additional “voice speaking layer” (subliminal voices)
+ add $150 for creative freedom with sound mixing, spinning, spiraling
+ add $100 for sound effects (discuss specifics for availability)
+ optional background music (free - your choice)

(For instance: A recommended 30 minute hypnosis session with 2-voiced binaural sound arrangement plus an extra layered voice - which is 3 total voices deepening your trance - and ultimate creative freedom with no added sound effects which you really don’t need unless you have a specific idea in mind would be $1575)

Why is your rate higher than others?
You get what you pay for. If you want someone who accepts pocket change, by all means, go to them. But if you want someone who uses the highest technology, sound quality, and has invested tens of thousands of dollars into recording equipment (equalizers, condensor mics, digital recorders, soundproofing, software, encoders, etc), then you’ve come to the right place.

I deserve what I charge. When I set a time to record your custom recording, I take an entire day off work to record YOUR recording which takes 8-10 hours. That’s right. It takes 8-10 hours to record a 30ish minute recording. That’s worth well over $1000+ dollars of My time. My per-minute rate for live phone calls is $6.99 per minute (that’s $419.40 per hour), so think of all the money you would save if you had your own custom mp3 that you could listen to infinitely! My work speaks for itself.

Do you do custom non-hypnosis recordings?
Not anymore. Although I don’t mind constructive criticism, many people feel they are allowed to act like jerks simply because they’ve shelled out money and it entitles them to speak their mind about anything. I am very sensitive about My work, considering all the time and effort invested into it.

If I’ve spent hours creating a custom made recording and the client says to Me later, “I like it, but I wish you didn’t say this in it…” Well, that’s only going to piss Me off (that’s the Dominatrix side of Me). So I just don’t do em. It’s rude and insulting. People should speak their mind before I make the recording, not afterwards. I don’t like people correcting My work, demanding clients, or hearing people say, “You didn’t orgasm the way I wanted you to,” or “It would have sounded better if you would have spanked my ass at the end instead of fucking me.” So I just don’t even bother. Plus I’ve noticed that hypnosis customers tend to be nicer to Me than non-hypnosis customers. Not sure why that is. Perhaps they’re more submissive and willing to please.

Can you recommend a phone sex operator who does custom recordings?
Yes, I can! If you are seeking a custom mp3 recording for phone sex, I recommend Mistress Suzette who generally charges approx. $1 per minute per custom phone sex mp3 recording. Her prices may fluctuate, so be sure to run your idea(s) by Her and She should be able to help. She is pretty open minded and does a lot of things except submission - She is a Dominant, not a submissive. Keep in mind that She does NOT do erotic hypnosis recordings.

Can you recommend a hypnotist who does affordable custom recordings?
Yes, definitely! If you are seeking a custom mp3 recording for erotic hypnosis, I recommend Mistress Lycia because her rates are much less than mine AND she is a certified hypnotist. See her rate sheet here.

But, I don’t want someone else, I want you!
Then pay up. I don’t do charity. My work is expertly polished and if you want superior, impeccable quality, you know where to find it.

Do you take suggestions?
Absolutely! I have created a “Brainstorm Vault” which is a community where clients come together and give ideas and inspiration for future recordings. I may or may not take your idea, but if the idea is popular enough, I may decide to record it. So by all means, share your idea! And if your idea is not popular, I may record it anyway just because I thought it hit a nerve. So feel free to share your ideas in there. Sometimes I like to “mix and match” ideas and use inspiration in all sorts of ways!

Are there recordings you won’t create?
Here is a list of restrictions I cannot discuss. This is out of My control. Personally, I have no moral problems with your fantasies, however do to Niteflirt constraints… there are certain topics I simply cannot talk about on the phone or on recordings. Sorry.

Do you do live hypnosis sessions?
Not at this time. Perhaps one day in the future I might, however there will be no bodily contact whatsoever.

Can you recommend someone who does live hypnosis sessions?
Yes, absolutely! I recommend fellow hypnotist Mona Blu who is located in the Los Angeles area and provides real time hypnosis. She recommends doing a 15 minute phone interview prior to session (details here).

What kind of vocal sound effects can you make?
I can create almost an unlimited amount of vocal sound effects. Some of them are really nice and creative and others sound really bizarre. Listen to a small sampling of vocal effects here! Also I can create effects on top of effects which helps give that “studio sound” feel. These are just the “silly sounds” — there are many more hypnotic sounds, panning effects, and synthesizers I use in the recording studio to give recordings a more hypnotic feel.

How do I download your product?
Purchase the mp3 recording by clicking the button that says “Buy MP3″ on any of the pages that have it available. When you click on it, it will take you to a Niteflirt sign in page. You must be a member of Niteflirt.com to order a copy. Don’t worry, it’s free to sign up and it’s some ploy to make more money from you.

Once you sign in, you are taken to a pay-to-view email which contains the mp3 you want to purchase. Simply click “Send Payment” and add money into your account to do so. After your order is submitted, the email will immediately open within Niteflirt that contains your download instructions. You will see a link along with a username and password to save your product.

Simply right-click the link and download it by clicking “Save Link as” and move it somewhere on your computer where you know you will find it. A good place is your desktop. Once it is downloaded to your desktop, double click the zip file and it will self-extract so you can view the contents. Keep in mind, you will need a free copy of WinZip (WinZip 10 is the best version) to open it. Within it, you will see a mp3 file - this is the recording you want to listen to. Simply drag the mp3 file to your desktop and listen to it as often as you want! You can listen to it with several free music programs (your computer should have one already) such as RealPlayer, MusicJukebox, or Windows Media Player.

What is an mp3 recording?
All the recordings on this site are recorded in mp3 format, so you are not talking to a live person, but rather pre-recorded sound and voice.

Can I burn it to cd?
Absolutely, as long as it is for personal use only.

How do I burn it on cd?
Here is an easy tutorial for you.

May I redistribute it?
Absolutely not. My sole source of income comes from selling My voice, so if you’re handing it out for free or reselling it - that’s money out of My pocket. If you wish to redistribute a free recording for advertising, please contact Me personally at isabella (at) isabellasrecordings.com and let Me know its uses and I’ll give you an answer.

What is your policy regarding piracy?
Unfortunately in this day and age, people want something for nothing. People tend to disregard all the hard work, sweat, and diligence I put into every single recording, not to mention all the thousands of dollars I’ve invested into my equipment. I do not condone piracy. It is illegal and, frankly, it shows a side to people I’d rather not see. In My line of work, I sell domination and hypnosis. So when people downright steal my content off Torrent sites, it’s like saying, “I want your domination hypnosis, but I won’t pay for it.” If you want to be dominated, then be obedient. Being submissive means following My instructions and I am giving a direct order to show respect to My work by showing Me how much you appreciate it. You show your appreciation by paying for My mp3s so I can receive compensation for all My hard work. You would hate to see Me all of a sudden quit making recordings, wouldn’t you? Then show Me how submissive and obedient you can be by saying NO to piracy and YES to servitude.

May I use your free online sample(s) in my product(s)?
Sure as long as you give credit to Isabella Valentine. Name required. Should you decide to link to Me, please use URL:
http://isabellavalentine.com

May I sell it for you?
If you are a new webmaster looking for erotic vocal content to sell, you are welcome to sell my recordings for me - you are welcome to as long as people are clicking on my Niteflirt buy-now buttons so the money comes directly to Me. Contact Me if questions.

Can I use parts of your recordings on tracks, or other electronic uses?
Several deejays and musicians have asked this question and for the most part, I am ok with it. If you are a musician and have purchased one of My recordings and are interested in mixing a few of My “orgasms” or “sexy phrases” into your club mixes or whatever, I am ok with that AS LONG AS you give Me credit either on your website, your cd, your radio show, or whatever method of distribution you are using. Nothing upsets Me more than someone telling Me, “Someone is using your voice over there,” and I knew nothing about it. As long as you tell Me and I feel like I’ve gotten some sort of credit, then I am absolutely ok with it.

What is erotic hypnosis?
You can read Hypnosis At-A-Glance which will help explain what it is. It explains what hypnosis is all about so you can get a real feel for it and answer all your questions regarding it.

Why do people like hypnosis?
Reasons why people enjoy hypnosis: hypnotic interest.

I’m having trouble going “under” what do I do?
Check out tips to Experience a Deeper Trance.

What kinds of hypnosis are there?
Read all the types of hypnosis that can be performed!

Can I be hypnotized?
Almost everyone can be hypnotized. You can be hypnotized just driving home and feeling relaxed. You can also be unknowingly hypnotized watching television or doing everyday things. If you are unsure if you can be hypnotized, take the free hypnosis test which gives you a score and a description of how deep you can “go under.” Remember that tests aren’t fail proof and nothing can truly tell you if you can or can’t be hypnotized because people are capable of so much! Keep in mind that your score can change over your time with practice and suggestibility. Yes, practice! Hypnosis actually takes PRACTICE and it takes a subject a lot of practice to become an excellent suggestible, obedient subject. To increase your abilities of going into a deep trance, closely read this section on experiencing a deeper trance.

Is there difference between stage hypnosis and erotic hypnosis?
Yes, there is a huge difference. The recordings on this site are not like stage hypnosis at all. It feels like nothing you’ve seen on tv. Read more information on stage hypnosis.

What does the trance feel like?
It feels absolutely wonderful! Read more details about the trance.

Does hypnosis really “work”?
Hypnosis is not a magic trick. So it’s not like it “works” or “doesn’t work” - it’s all in your mind. If you want it to work, it will. If you don’t want it to work, it won’t.

How long has hypnosis been performed?
As far back as 3000 BC there written documents that talked about words having the power to cure people. That was the first sign of hypnosis that we know about today. Read more research on how hypnosis really works!

What is post-hypnotic suggestion?
If you are unsure what the definition is, check out this hypnosis glossary which has lots of easy definitions to lots of hypnotic words!

Do you have any free hypnosis visuals I can view?
Absolutely. Check out the hypnosis visuals here!

Are there any books on hypnosis I can read?
Here are some hypnosis books I recommend.

Do you do live hypnosis calls over the phone?
Sometimes! I record mp3s full time, so I rarely log in for phone calls. However, sometimes you’ll get lucky and I’ll log in!

How do I call you?
Simply call 1-800-TO-FLIRT ext. 0577762 for $6.99 per minute for a live hypnosis phone session custom to your needs. 30 minutes recommended for hypnosis sessions (40 minutes for first time hypnosis so I can get acquainted with your desires and goals).

or simply call Me by clicking here:

What does the call indicator mean?
Call Now: I am definitely available and ready to take your call now!

Call Now / Alerts On: I might answer the phone. If you see this then it could be either really late at night or I could be preoccupied with something. So there is a 50/50 chance I pick up the phone. Always good to try!

Busy / Arrange Call: I am on the phone at the moment, so arrange a call with Me. When you arrange a call, you are standing in line to be the next caller so that your phone will ring when I am done with My current session.

Away / Arrange a Call: I am not available at the moment but you can arrange a call and be the next in line so your phone rings when I log back in! Highly suggested you arrange calls when I am not here so you don’t have to wait in line.

Away / Send Mail: I am unavailable for a long time. Perhaps I am on vacation or gone for several days.

How do I email you?
You can contact Me directly at isabella@isabellasrecordings.com - however I get a LOT of mail (4000+ emails a week), so if you want faster response - clients can contact Me on my Niteflirt mail if they are current clients.

New site look

Check out my site… it’s got a new look:

IsabellaValentine.com

Love
Isabella
xooxox

tax time

jesus friggin christ. I owe a shitload of money for federal for 2006. yikes. Grrr guess my luxury spending will be on hold for a while.

Guess I better start spitting out more recordings.

Fingers crossed

Today I have been crushing news about someone very close to me. Traces of cancer cells have been found in his body and I was the first person he told. The doctors are still testing to see exactly what it is but I have a gut feeling it’s probably pancreatic cancer, which is the #1 fatal cancer.

There are no words to describe what I’m feeling right now. I have already had 2 great friends die of cancer: Linda to ovarian cancer and Aaron to brain cancer. Aaron only died last year and his death had a tremendous impact on me (I shaved my head bald as a tribute to him last May). Not to mention the countless acquaintances who died of cancer, including my step-grandfather who died of lung cancer.

And now him. This is someone who I have been considering starting a long-term relationship and possibly even living together. Even now, we still talk about it. He’s the only guy who I currently hypnotize and dominate (for free) and who I really truly wanted to take things further and make him my 24/7 hypnoslave in my home. And now this news.

My fingers are crossed TIGHTLY. I’ve donated some money to PanCan hoping maybe they’ll be able to do more research on pancreatic cancer to find a cure. But this ANGERS me. SOOO many people either survive cancer or die from it, isn’t it time we found a fucking cure? How is it that we can find the cure for polio but we can’t find the cure for cancer. Hasn’t our technology improved? Ugh. It’s just not fair. I always seem to get close to people with cancer and it’s really starting to affect me. Even one of my massage therapists, Beverly, had breast cancer and had to have both of her breasts removed. She’s lucky and survived and she’s one of the most courageous women I’ve ever known.

I want so badly to be hopeful. I’m usually one of the biggest optimists out there. While some people picture the glass half empty and others picture the glass half full, I picture it as twice as much glass. However in this type of circumstance and with my history of losing friends to cancer… I feel as though I’ve been hit with a baseball bat right in the stomach and being beaten by one angry God. If there is a God, fuck him. And if there is a Goddess, fuck her too.

Trim & Sexy (for Women)

Two weeks in the making… it’s finally done! Eventually I plan on making a sensually therapeutic website that’s separated from what I do currently, however, I have too few recordings in that genre to do that right now. But eventually I’ll have a lot more in my stash.

Read more info and hear a free sample here

Love
Isabella
xoxooxo

P.S. My next recording will be designed for men. Keep an eye out :)

Plastic surgery

My mother has 5 sisters and each of them have the same genes in their eyes and all of that was passed down to me. All of them have fatty upper eye lids and it all started with them (as it is beginning with me) around mid to upper 20s. When I went to my cousin’s wedding in Hawaii, I saw many of my aunts in person and looked at their eyes and there is NO way I want my eyes to look like that. My mother’s eyes are bad too on the upper lid.

And I was going through a lot of my photos that I’ve taken of myself (the ones I haven’t shared publically) and wow I am starting to get it too. I mean, you all see the GOOD photos of me, but there are tons of bad ones I don’t share. My eyes are puffy and starting to sag and I’m in my mid-twenties - it’s just not fair. I have bad genes. People always assume that I don’t get much sleep or I’m tired or whatever… but it’s not true. It’s just the way my eyes are shaped. And I’m constantly having to photoshop areas underneath my eyes to decrease puffiness and I’ve tried every cream, lotion, anti-aging thing you can imagine and it’s simply something only surgery can fix.

So tomorrow (Monday when they open), I’m going to set an appointment for Blepharophasty and talk to a surgeon about getting an eye lift procedure. I looked into the risks and healing process and yeah it will take approx. 26 weeks to finally heal… but I really would like this done. There are so many photos I take of myself from the wrong angle that make my eyes look so freaking fat. It has nothing to do with weight loss… my aunts are all super thin and their eyeslids look like they’re sagging right over their eyeballs. In this photo, you can kinda sorta see what I’m talking about. I’m all puffy on the buttom and fat on the top. And I had plenty of sleep and had used eye creams, concealers, tons of undereye makeup to hide the black under my eyes, worn a cold face mask, used cucumbers over my eyes for 15 minutes — and it STILL looked like that.

I’ve been researching online all about blepharophasty (wow what a word) and all the “before” photos of the other women have what I currently have. I am a perfect candidate for this. It will suck at first having stitches on my eyes and for that I won’t be able to take new photos of myself for a while, but in the end it will make a world of difference and I can start taking all kinds of new camera angles that will give me a new flattering light. Not just that, by doing it now, it’ll save me years of frustration in the future. My mother is constantly complaining about her eyes and how it makes her feel old. I don’t want to grow up hating my face. I want to take care of it now and make it appealing. And since May 2008 is my goal for the final weight loss, what better way to come out to the world but with a pair of eyes that really match my personality?

Anyway, I’ve already made up my mind and once I make it up there’s pretty much no going back. But I have found a great cosmetic surgery place with great, credible board-certified surgeons who have amazing results in Indianapolis. (It’s not some sleezy Mexican place, trust me). I like this place here at Perkins | Van Natta and on that page you can see the difference it will make to my eyes. Wow, I am so excited!!!

Love
Isabella
xoxooxox

Multi

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Isabella
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Gold Star Hypnotist

Speaking of gold… I love my new 4.5 ct. diamond gold bracelet (seen in pic) :-)
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Isabella
xooxoxox

Isabella in Blue…

This was fun:

And also, the other day I made some photos of me putting on wigs here: Isabella’s Wigs

Love
Isabella
xoxooxox

2 free videos

Video #1 (Created by Alexis Rhea):
Special thanks to for making this video of me which shows several of my pics and stuff in a slide show. And wow I am so honored. Thank you!

Tribute to Isabella Valentine Video (FREE)

Video #2 (Created by Isabella Valentine):
And also, I made a new free 5-minute video called “Red Goddess Video” which is artistic and experimental featuring the actual mp3 from the original “Red Goddess.”

Watch the “Red Goddess Video” here (FREE)

Love
Isabella
xoxoxox

Voice Post:

Transcript:
Hi there, this is Isabella Valentine and uh I feel really good (laughter). I um… I just got back from getting a massage and um my other massage therapist who normally massages me is about 8 months pregnant so she um she stopped working there and I had a new massage therapist today and she’s really really really awesome, oh my god. um… she’s really awesome (laughter). I just met her today and feel like my heart’s pounding out of my chest. It’s a shame that she’s married but um we exchanged phone numbers today which was really cool. Her name’s Charity, and uh, even after the massage was over, we like really… oh I feel good (laughter) I’ve got the giggles (more laughter). Anyway it’s so frickin cool. Oh my god. This could be the start of a really beautiful friendship.

But it started making me think you know, how come all the really awesome girls that I hit if off with are always taken? Why?! (laughter) Why is she - why does she have to be married? goddmamnit. It’s like everyone’s taken. But she really likes girls and she is so awesome. oh my god we like really hit it off I was really kinda shocked. So… anyway I’m happy and I’m beaming from ear to ear right now. If you saw me you’d probably be laughing your ass off, probably making fun of me. So I feel really good and I was flirting with her and my toungue didn’t get tied which was really awesome. (laughter) So um we’ll probably hang out later on this week and go do something. Which it’s really cool cause like she’s the only real like female friend that I’ve met here in Bloomington. Cause the only friends I have here are guys. They’re gay guys. I don’t really have any female friends. And… meeting her and then my h-hair stylist too. Both of them really like girls. So I’m jesus christ this is awesome. So, um, anyway that’s really cool.

Oh! And this week and like this whole month actually um lots of people have been using the words “past lives” and “reincarnation” like I’ve been hearing a lot of that lately and I’ve never really been a believer of it, like I still… am like not… but I don’t really know if I believe it or don’t believe it but anyway I’ve been hearing it so much over the last month (at least like 15 people or so have mentioned this) and I’m kinda overwhelmed with the thought. But anyway she and I we were talking about past lives and shit… and she… she was trying to - to get me to uh at least open my mind to it, which I am open to, but we were just talking about it. And I’m like, “You know what, if I were someone in a past life, I would probably come back as Alfred Kinsey! Like I would probably be Alfred Kinsey and come back who I am today.”

And… as soon as I said that, like now I feel really strange. Because like Alfred Kinsey was here in Bloomington and this is where I’m at. And he’s all sexual and I’m all sexual. And if you go through a past life you’re a man and then you come back as a woman. Or if you’re a woman, you come back as a man or something. I don’t really know. I don’t really know anything about past lives so I don’t know what I’m talking about. But… wouldn’t it be cool if I was the reincarnation of Alfred Kinsey?!!

So anyway (laughter) I’m thinking about that right now and it’s crazy I know, but (laughter). I don’t know. It just feels so cool. Like I could introduce myself like, “Hi, I’m the reincarnation of Alfred Kinsey, how are you? What-ch-you doing?” (laughter) I don’t know, it’s stupid but um anyway. At least I have a calling here in Bloomington… but I don’t know, now it has me curious about past lives and everything. I don’t even really know if I even believe in it, but it’s just - it’s interesting. I don’t know. It’s an interesting conversation. And she got me thinking about it. So now I’m just… Oh she’s so cool! She even… she has a buzz cut and I love that. She has like hardly any hair. And that’s cool cause like my hair used to be like that until it started to grow out. So um that’s really cool. And she’s already seen me naked! (laughter) Goddamnit I got the giggles. (laughter) Ok I’m gonna stop talking now cause I’m gonna make a fool out of myself… he - bye!

little Johnny

As I write this entry, John Holmes the Porn Cat is cuddled in the corner of my recording studio. And he’s sleeping soundly. In fact, he’s got this low little snore when he gets all comfortable. So I can hear him snoring in the background right now and he’s sooooo cute. OMG. He hates it when I wake him up though and the first thing he does, if I do, is bite my hand as if to say, “Leave me alone, Mommy!” But there’s a part of me that really likes riling him up and making him fight me. hehe… I actually like it when he bites my hand really hard and I wrestle with him to the floor and twist and turn him in circles while he hangs on to my hand for dear life. But alas… he’s sleeping and I think I’ll actually let him sleep and not bother him. Oh I love him so much. He’s my best friend in the world and he follows me from room to room. He’s always within eye distance of me, no matter which room I go into. He follows me absolutely everwhere. And it’s almost funny cause when it comes time to doing a recording, he’s usually very quiet and he seems to have a “sense” that it’s quiet time and he won’t meow anymore. However, when he’s sleeping it sucks cause then he has a little snore. And wouldn’t you hate to hear a cat snoring on an erotic hypnosis recording? LOL …. well… it is kinda hypnotic to hear him do it. But I don’t think Niteflirt would like that too much if I had an animal on a recording haha. But anyway it’s just something I was thinking about.

Love
Isabella
xooxoxox

5 new free mp3s

Tiny Slave

Oh Oh Obey

Faster

Mind Brand

CataSonic

Mmmm hmmm….

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Isabella
xoxooxox

April Fools jokes

So yesterday was April Fools Day and my sister, Tammy, and I played pranks on both of our parents. We actually ganged up together to make the joke more believable and both of our parents fell for it! It was hilarious!

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Joke #1 - Pranking our Mom
First I had to call my mom and say “Mom, have you talked to Tammy today? She’s so … wow. I’ve never heard her like this. She’s all freaked out. She spent the last 2 nights in jail for getting a DUI and she tried to call me to bail her out but my phone was unplugged for 2 days and I didn’t know she tried to call me! You have to talk to her cause she’s crying like crazy and she thinks her life is over. She’s afraid she’ll never be able to go to be a District Attorney now.” — and of course my mom was VERY concerned and called Tammy right away.

Tammy answered the phone and my mom’s first words were, “Honey are you ok? Talk to me!” And my sister proceeded in pretending to cry and sob and act scared… and for nearly 15 minutes, my mom was listening to my sister’s sob story about her nights in jail and my mom said things like, “Why on earth were you driving drunk? What’s wrong with you!” and my sister would retaliate with, “I wasn’t drunk! I only had 2 beers!” And anyway she got VERY worked up and then right at the last second, my sister said, “April Fools, Mom!”

And my mom said, “Aaah you girls. You do this to me every year. How could I not have known?” LOL

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Joke #2 - Pranking our Dad
My sister started off by calling Dad and saying, “Dad! You’re not going to believe what my sister is doing right now. Ever since she moved to Indiana, she’s been acting different and I’m really concerned for her. She said she met some people and they were her family. But when I talked to her, it looks like she’s joined a cult!!! She’s joining their Scientology group and she just put her house up for sale. I tried talking her out of this but she won’t listen to me - she’ll only listen to you! You have to stop her. She’s packing her stuff to move to Tel Aviv in Israel. Israel, Dad! Please call her and tell her to stay away from those crazy people.”

My dad called me right away within minutes and the first 10 minutes, he chit chatted about other things (didn’t bring up the fact I was moving cause he didn’t want to “upset” me and start an argument) - so he was trying to see if I would bring it up first. So I did. I said, “Dad I’ve decided that Indiana isn’t for me after all. I’m actually packing my stuff to move to Tel Aviv with some friends I’ve met.” And he said, “What kind of friends?” And I proceeded to tell him the same stuff Tammy told him, along with nearly 15 minutes of detailed descriptions of why this was a good move for me. And the whole time he was saying things like, “Look you’re an adult, you can do what you want… but a cult? Didn’t your mother and I teach you anything?” And I kept saying things like, “It’s not a cult dad. Scientology is a family. We’re all family.” And he said, “Don’t sign your money to them. Whatever you do. Don’t give them your money.” And I said, “I’ve already done it, Dad, It’s too late. I’ve already signed life contracts with them. I can’t back out now. They have all my bank account information.” Anyway this had him ALL worked up and he said, “And you JUST moved to Indiana and now you’re moving again? And to Israel? Are you out of your mind?” And I said, “April Fools, Dad!” And at first he didn’t hear me so I had to repeat it a few times cause the story was so believable that even after I explained it was a joke, he said, “So is your house really for sale?” — uh no, dad.

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Love
Isabella
xoxooxox

New pics

New pics taken outside…

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Isabella
xoxoxoox

Too fat?!

*friends only post*

UGH!!! Fucking insurance companies. Goddamn pieces of shit. I applied at several Indiana insurance companies, including Blue Cross Blue Shield to try to just get REGULAR health insurance. Hell there’s nothing wrong with me, I just want something for peace of mind in case I break my leg down the stairs or something.

And you know what those people told me?

“Unfortunately due to your current Ht/Wt ratio 5′6″ 270 lbs, we are not aware of any Individual Insurance Carriers that would offer you medical insurance coverage.”

Fucking bastards. I’ve already lost a lot of weight but it seems I still haven’t lost enough. Obviously I gotta lose more just so these stupid places will even recognize me. I remember a long, long time ago when I had a job in corporate America (and I weighed much much much more than I do now), the insurance company turned me down to my face and it fucking hurt. I acted like it didn’t and told them, “Your loss.” But as soon as I walked away I had to go cry in the office bathroom so no one would see me.

But times have changed. Hell no I’m not sad. I’m angry. And all this channeled aggression is going right into the gym, right into my boxing gloves. I’m telling you, my heavy bag is feeling those dents.

I mean. I’ve GOT money. I’m willing to pay whatever extra costs I have to until I lose all the weight I need to. But jesus fucking christ. How dare these guys judge me by what’s on a piece of paper? Have they even looked or ASKED about my weight loss history? Nooooo…. Have they even ASKED if I am on a weight loss regimen? Noooooo. It’s like they purposely think, “Another fatty. No insurance.” I mean… I KNOW that being overweight is a risk that the insurance companies have to make. And I know the statistics with health problems with fat people. But are there no exceptions? Perhaps just a moment to find out, “Hmmm this one’s actually gonna be skinny soon.”

Kinda hard to hypnotize someone on an insurance form. But if I saw any of these insurance people in person, I can guarantee I would get health coverage. What’s so disappointing is that I plan on doing a lot more traveling coming up. Hell… I gotta have health insurance. What if I get in a car accident or something? It’s not like I have problems with my heart. I don’t have problems with high blood pressure. Hell, my body is fucking HEALTHY and perfect and the only thing wrong is I got some extra cushion that shouldn’t be there.

*UGH*

So…. what weight DO I need to be at for these guys? Surely I don’t have to wait a whole year. I KNOW there have to be fat people with health insurance who don’t have “regular” jobs.

Love
Isabella
xoxooxxo