Please welcome…
the one…
the only…
John Holmes the Porn Cat!
He’s so proud to make his fighting debut. He sleeps. He boxes. He bites. He pounces. He meows. And he makes me laugh hysterically. hahaa…. Watch and see! Oh yeah, and I used “the finger” too… it cracks me up watching it.
Anyone who thinks cats are boring hasn’t met my porn cat. Watch and see a dog trapped in a cat’s body!
Screenshots from video:
Watch the free 8 minute video titled “Catfight”
Enjoy 
Love
Isabella
xoxoxo
I miss wearing blonde this is my natural color so it feels so “me” — but I still like red better.
Love
Isabella
xoxoxox
Thought it would be neat to take pictures after I went out for a bike ride. Afterwards I went shopping for a couple things but I don’t think I’ve ever taken pics in my garage before, so here’s a little something new.
On my new 7-speed:
Wearing the jawbone about to call my sister:
Let’s get ready to roll:
Outside in the sun:
Talking on phone telling her about my weight update. She was thrilled. She said, “You’ve already lost Nicole Richie, that’s incredible!”
Looking at you thinking, “I know you’re looking at me, so I’ll just give you this look.”
Hope you all don’t mind the casual pics, they’re kind of fun. A little peek into my world.
Love
Isabella
xoxoxox
I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again. John Holmes the Porn Cat has a foot fetish. Need proof?
Love
Isabella
xoxoxoox
A few things in a nutshell:
* slave m asked to be my live-in slave again, but I gave him a firm no.
* still searching for a girl slave, however getting some interesting emails from girls across the country who love hypnosis which is really hot. There’s 3 in particular of whom I’ve replied back, unfortunately I know too little about them right now to know if we’ll hit it off.
* am currently talking to slave d from michigan whom I think might have potential. He’s a sincere sissy house boy who craves serving 24/7. I really think we’re hitting it off. He’s cute for a guy and I like the idea of having a slave who serves me without worrying about sex or stuff like that. I can just tell him what to do all the time.
* saving up money to see slave deidre so I can fly down and see her. I miss her so much. Still gotta pay off my credit card from my overspending in London. I want so badly to tie her up and spank her little ass.
* bought a bicycle a couple weeks ago (so much for saving money) and have been riding it around the neighborhood. It’s the first time in many years I’ve ridden a bicycle. It feels so good! I guess you never really forget how to do it…
* talked to MzDominica on the phone and it looks like she and I will be doing a business venture together very soon. So look out boys.
* just bought a St. Andrews cross and am waiting for it in the mail. Can’t wait to beat a slave on it. I absolutely can’t wait to turn my dining room into a dungeon. Still working on it. I can’t seem to reach the ceiling to paint it, but I’d like to have stone walls in there.
* am currently working on a new hypnosis Voodoo Priestess script and am struggling with wording and am stuck. I rarely get stuck when being creative in my writing process, but I’m just stuck. I feel like I’m getting writers block even though I know what I’m trying to say. Nothing is coming out right. I swear, I’m optimistic. Really I am. I just need my creative juices flowing.
* stomach hurts. cramp time. grr.
* stopped sitting on the couch for the last 8 days and have been sitting on balance ball whenever I watch tv so that I work my muscles even when watching movies.
* John Holmes the Porn Cat got a little sick earlier this week and started throwing up, so I changed his food and gave him some prescription diet food (from December) that his vet had given him. He seems to be a lot better now. I’d hate to see him get sick again like he did in December. I can’t even describe the pain of spending last year’s Christmas holidays in the vet hospital. I am crossing my fingers he’ll stay ok.
* I can’t wait to find a slave who will help me with my audio production. I have nice digital recorders which I haven’t even figured out how to use. It’s frustrating cause they’re just sitting there. I want a bitch. I want one now.
* I want a massage and I want one now.
* did I mention my stomach hurts? would kill for chocolate.
Is the composition of this picture ok?
I gotta get a new pair of pantyhose. It seems every time I wear boots, I get a run in them and they get ripped to shreds:
Love
Isabella
xoxoxoxo
I thought this dress had been given away to Goodwill but this afternoon saw it hanging in the closet and after some debate, decided to try it on. Remind me never to wear it again LOL. I know people always say “Get rid of oversized clothes” and I DO and HAVE and continue to. I had no idea I even had this. So when I saw the before photo I posted, I thought it might be interesting to compare side to side how my body has changed.
Remind me to throw this dress away. Notice I have my hands behind my back cause I’m trying to tighten the dress to show my figure. It’s practically 8-10 sizes too big and it literally fit me like a tent.
One thing I’ve noticed is my breasts. Do they look smaller to you? Here’s the thing. My bra band size is still practically the same (just not as tight). Maybe I was wearing the wrong size before. The most bizarre thing is that my actual cup size has gone down from a Double D to a D (and one person said “in between a C and a D”). My jaw dropped. I thought losing weight meant you lose the fat around your back and chest, not your breasts? I even had them measured by three different people at department stores. I’m still trying to get used to my new body. I haven’t been at this weight since late 1998. And once I lose 35 more pounds, I’ll be at my curvy high school weight (1997-98).
Lately I’ve noticed that when I tighten my neck, I actually get neck muscles. Like, those little vein thingies. I have a neck. Who knew?
And I’m still trying to get used to all the new attention. I mean, don’t get me wrong, people have always flirted with me and I’ve gotten compliments (even as a big girl)… but nowadays, it seems the “attracted audience” has expanded. The people that flirt with me tend to look better. It almost makes me realize how superficial people can be. Thankfully I have my head on straight and aren’t doing it for them. I never thought my weight was that big of a deal - which is how I got so big to begin with. I never thought of myself as “big” — just more of me to love. I didn’t even realize I arrived at my heaviest weight until I saw an unexpected self-portrait and didn’t recognize myself. That was a wakeup call. I knew if I lost weight, it would prevent diabetes and heart disease and some cancer, but that wasn’t what made me do it. I guess I just wanted to have a prettier figure, but my choice was made for me - not for anyone else - or to PLEASE anyone else. I’m doing this so I can masturbate looking at myself in the mirror and get off haha. Well ok, I do that already. But you get what I’m saying.
Another thing. And I know I’ve said this a million times (both in my written journal and audio blog) that it aggravates me when people say, “You must feel so much more confident now.” I mean, I hear this ALL the time from SO many people. It’s almost like people assume that if you’re a big person, you’re somehow less deserving of having confidence or that big people have low self-esteem. It’s rather insulting. Lots of large people love themselves (more power to them!). Even on the Tyra Banks show, a psychiatrist was comparing the lives between two sisters: an obese woman and a coke-addicted skinny girl and said out loud, “I can only assume you’re throwing up your food so you don’t grow up to look fat like your sister. You said you’re only doing this because the thinner you are, the more friends you have. So you’re saying if you’re skinny, you’ll continue to stay popular.” The skinny girl agreed. Then he looked at the big girl and said, “Wow you two are total opposites. I don’t know you’re current situation, but I assume you probably have less friends and are less popular which is why your sister fights so hard to not be big like you.” And of course, this insulted the bigger girl who replied with, “Hey I have lots of friends and a man who loves me. SHE is the one who struggles with self-confidence. That’s why she’s on coke and can’t keep her food down. I already realize I’m big, but that doesn’t mean you should assume I have less friends.”
It was nice to hear someone say that because I’ve been thinking that for years. Just because someone is big doesn’t mean they have less friends or have less self-love. Hell, I know THOUSANDS of people who claim to adore me and at least 300 people I consider “friends” and probably 10 “really close” friends. Even at my heaviest, I loved myself so much that I wanted to treat my body with anything I could. If it wanted something delicious, I would give it something delicious. If I wanted to give it a manicure, I’d give it a manicure. If I wanted to go to the spa, I’d get a massage or a pedicure. None of that has changed. I eat the SAME foods I ate before, just learned how to do it in moderation. I still have fun being me and still feel good about myself.
People often ask, “Wow you’ve lost all this weight, are you more confident about yourself now?” And I’ve always said, “I feel equally as confident. I was confident then and I’m just as confident now.” For some strange reason, that SHOCKS people. Most the time they even lean their bodies backwards or make a strange face as though they simply cannot believe it. I’ve come to believe this is because OTHER people have LOW self confidence and they somehow equate bigness with being their greatest fear. I’ve heard people say, “I’d rather be dead than fat.” And it shocks me. Being fat may cause health risks, but if being a corpse is better, then obviously they have unresolved mental issues. At least big person can exercise - a corpse can’t.
A few of my emails yesterday were pretty much along the same lines. One kind man with good intentions said something along the lines of (and I’m paraphrasing), “You must be more confident because your recordings are getting better and they’re more polished.” LOL that made me laugh too. I mean, confidence didn’t make my mp3s better. Earning 3 new certifications, including one in NLP made them better. I studied for 6 months to get that certification and in November I’m going for my Master in NLP. And yes, my recordings will KEEP getting better. Anyone who has heard Holy Goddess or The Apocalypse know how strong, powerful, and amazing those recordings were. And guess what? They were done at my heaviest weight. My confidence oozes out of them.
The only thing different between then and now is I’ve decided to work my beautiful ass into something skintight, short-n-skimpy, body flattering, and photographer-envying outfit. But whether I gain weight or lose weight is irrelevant to me. The truth of the matter is - I love myself, just like everyone should love themselves. Anyone who thinks they can only be confident if they get to a desired weight will never be happy. You have to love, appreciate, and respect yourself first. Skinny people get health issues too. It’s all about, “Does this treat my body well?” and doing it in moderation. Too much of anything can be harmful, even if it’s done for all the best intentions. I guess the difference is that I’ve learned the difference between moderation and overindulgence. But I wouldn’t necessarily call that confidence. I would call that awareness. Have I gained awareness? Hell yes. More than I ever thought possible!
*raises glass of water*
Here’s to awareness!!! May everyone be aware of themselves
*cheers*
Love
Isabella
xoxoxoox
Just got weighed at Jenny Craig and I am so proud and so happy to have finally accomplished a major goal! I’m FINALLLLLLYYYYYYY halfway to my goal weight!!! YAY!!!! I’ve lost over 100 lbs now and that’s a huge marker for me. My initial goal was to drop 206 pounds. I’ve now lost 103 pounds, which means I have 103 more to go. FUCK YEAH!!! And I did it between 10-11 months the healthy way with hard work, exercise, eating properly, and lots of hypnosis hehe.
From here on out, I’ll be that much closer to flaunting my skin in a bikini.
Love
Isabella
xoxoxox
P.S. I decided to throw a little special surprise behind this cut for those of you who actually read my journal. Since I’m in an excellent mood, I’ve chosen to let each of you pick ONE Sensually therapeutic hypnosis mp3. It’s yours free. The only catch is, you have to be a member of Niteflirt.com (it’s free). The only reason you gotta be a member is so I can tell who has a copy so people don’t abuse this by pretending to be different people (nice try). So all you have to do is write a letter to Isabella Valentine from your Niteflirt account and say the words, “I am sooooo proud of you” in your subject header. hehe, I just love being proud of myself. And just be sure to let me know which mp3 you’d like. It’s free and this is my gift to you. I love throwing hidden special surprises in my LJ.
Erotic Hypnosis MP3: Sissy Secretary
The roleplay begins in a private business meeting in which you are the project manager. I coerce/blackmail you into signing a contract in which I become your advisor - basically scribbling away your dignity. If you fail to obey Me, you become My secretary. So of course, you agree to everything I command. My tone, which initially starts respectfully, gradually turns condescending and eventually insulting. My purpose is to humiliate you and make you My bitch..
I hypnotize you with My voluptuous breasts, then inject you with fast-acting hormones which speed the process of breast development as well as cute little clitty. The injection also fries your brain, which leaves you airheaded, clueless, and completely gullible to everything I say. You get dumber while your breasts get bigger. Ultimately, you become a dumb blonde moronic bimbo.
And after you transform into womanhood, I invite the male coworkers to fuck you in any hole that they want. You become the office orifice and are forced into slutty slavery, sucking coworkers, even your boss! The last man you blow is the black janitor who has a special chocolate pudding pop surprise.
Fetishes include:
Erotic hypnosis, breast and cleavage fetish, dumb blonde, blonde wig, breast and vagina transformation, high heels, forced feminization, forced homosexuality, breakdown of masculinity, verbal humiliation, bukkake, double penetration (oral and anal), IQ reduction, male gangbang, office roleplay, blackmail, and total sissification.
Play free sample below (Use stereo headphones!)
Format: MP3 Download
Sound Quality: Professional First-Rate
Vocal Sound Effects: Only background
Prop Sound Effects: Little if any
Soft Background Music: No
Overdubbing Vocals: No
Length: 37 minutes, 14 seconds
Zip File Size: Approx. 70 MB
Price: $35.00
Erotic Hypnosis MP3: Zero Gravity (Parts 1 & 2)
Designed for all genders. Anyone can enjoy this! This is my favorite and deepest recording.
Do you want to experience the ultimate deep hypnosis session? Not just something you play one time and you’re done with it, but something you can listen to all the time and never get tired of it… then you will appreciate this TWO HOUR and 45 minute session which is truly out of this world. It is five and a half-times longer than the average hypnosis session, which means it could take you five and a half times deeper into trance.
This session is specifically designed for those who appreciate a long, smooth ride that lasts… and lasts… and lasts. If you are a fan of Einstein and Hawking, then you may identify with some of the theories suggested in this mp3.
This mp3 begins with you at home and ends with you far off in infinite space. Like many people, I’m obsessed with space, astronomy, and quantum physics. Science of the universe is a limitless subject that seems to convey not only the unknown, but allows people to explore their own imaginations. Imagine the possibility that you can float through walls. Through your ceiling. Higher than your neighborhood, your city, your country, your Planet, your Solar System, your Galaxy….
Fly with Me to a different galaxy as you and I travel through black holes and experience the Universe as a deep trance. Eventually I become a bottomless black hole swallowing your mind and energy deep into Me. Allow the gravity of Planet Trance to pull you deep into it. This mp3 combines quantum physics theories, science fiction, and common sense to bring together a most extraordinary view of space. Explore parallel universes in a way you’ve never dreamed!
This soothing hypnotic adventure is designed for all genders and treats you with genuine respect, acknowledging your intelligence and inner power. This explores light submission to Me without elements of BDSM.
This mp3 includes many double binds, presuppositions, and many NLP techniques. Please use stereo headphones to get the best effects since binaural background audio is used in left and right ears.
Fetishes include:
Erotic hypnosis, submission, space exploration, traveling, learning to trust Me, safety and protection in My voice, discovering inner self, energy transformation, imagination and dream exploration, deepening triggers and techniques, science fiction, fantasy, quantum physics, parallel universes, and much more!
Note: Early versions of Part 1 have a watermark at the end of the recording, so this new version combines Zero Gravity Part 1 with Part 2 with uninterrupted flow. This new version is VERY long recording with an extremely large download time. I recommend a free copy of iGetter to speed up the download process and prevent broken downloads.
Should you decide to use stereoheadphones, you’ll hear background whispers in Part 2 that are difficult to hear without them. Headphones recommended but not required for a great trance.
There are five free samples since this mp3 is quite long:
Leaving the Earth’s atmosphere
Entering the Galactic Center
Consumed by My black hole
Approaching Planet Trance
Infinite Sleep
Format: MP3 Download
Sound Quality: Professional First-Rate
Vocal Sound Effects: No
Prop Sound Effects: No
Soft Background Music: Sometimes
Overdubbing Vocals: Just two words (sleep, deeper)
Length: 2 hours, 45 minutes, 4 seconds
Zip File Size: Approx. 302 MB - LARGE file
Price: Regular: 175.00 Special: $100.00
You don’t mind some cleavage shots, do you?
Love
Isabella
xoxoxo
I just love my porn cat. He’s so vibrant and energetic! After playing rough with him, he’s FINALLY asleep. Today I began recording Zero Gravity 2 and every time I’d start talking into the microphone, Johnny would meow or scratch furniture, jump on something, scratch at paper, or lick his paws (loud enough where the microphone could pick it up). I’m telling you. It doesn’t matter how quiet he is all day. The minute I begin recording something, that’s his cue to say, “Mommy, I’m here!” So the only way I can get him to just be quiet for a few hours, is to play roughly with him. And I do mean rough. He’s funloving and incredibly playful and that’s what I love about him.
I’ll try my best to describe how I play with him because it’s kind of difficult to explain without it being on video (who knows maybe one day I’ll videotape it). However, one thing I like to do, is take all my energy within my body and concentrate it into the edge of my finger. Then I point it an inch or two in front of his eyes. My finger sometimes shakes (and is curved) and he can literally FEEL the energy of my finger shooting out. Sometimes when I do that, he’ll meow instantly and his tail will flop around and his ears will go back. Most of the time he’ll swat it with his hands really hard, but my finger won’t move, which only instigates him. Then I randomly pick a hand (usually the one he’s least expecting) and put all the energy into my entire hand until my fingers are shaped like a claw. I’ll put ALL my energy into it, so my fingers are literally stiff as a board and then put my fingers behind his ears and push his face down and spin him around. He always expects this and we do this tag team style of “who can get who first.” He tries to swat my hand before I can “claw” (not using fingernails, just fingers) him. And my little porn cat is like a boxing puncher when he swats my hand. He’s actually bruised my wrist just from hitting it. It’s so funny. When I raise my hand up, he jumps up to catch it, but my fingers tap the back of his head, letting him know I won. He’ll try this 50 or 60 times until he’s huffing and puffing and I give him a break.
What’s so cool about the way we play as that we both know when to stop. As soon I put my hands behind my back and turn away from him, he’ll immediately stop and won’t bite me or hit me anymore. But if my arm is out in the open, he knows it’s ok to attack. As soon as I turn my shoulder inward (as if giving up), he stops. It’s really cool that he does that. And I know it’s MY turn to stop as soon as he lays sideways and turns away. We’ve come to somewhat of an “agreement” that when one of us looks away, it’s time to stop. That way, in bed at night, there’s never any fighting and he purrs in my arms all night. And people say cats aren’t trainable. Hell, they haven’t met my boxing kitty.
And sometimes, if he’s acting up, I’ll try to hypnotize him with my finger so he’ll go right to sleep. It doesn’t happen every time (I’m working on that), but sometimes it works. Mistress Lycia saw it once while she was here - he saw the finger, fell down, meowed, and went to sleep. hehe.
Here are some pics of John Holmes the Porn Cat in my arms… who knows, maybe one day I’ll show a video of us playing around on the floor. It’s quite a boxing match. He’s so feisty. Good thing I’m into pain.
(These were shot at nighttime, so I lightened them dramatically in photoshop.)
Love
Isabella
xoxoxoox
Just chillin’ in front of some of my books…
There’s more, but that’s enough pictures. *wipes sweat*
Love
Isabella
xoxoxoxo
A fun photo manipulation I made… just being silly.
Love
Isabella
xoxoxox
Well tomorrow I’m going to a munch in Indy with folks within the BDSM community. Gotta be frank, out here in Indiana, I’ve gone through great lengths to try to find people to hang out with. So I am very excited, optimistic, and hopeful about tomorrow and the new friends I’ll make.
However, on another note. One particular yahoo group community called Andromeda, which is geared towards lesbians and transgenders in the BDSM community (hello, I’m a perfect candidate) unapproved my membership in their group. Why, you ask? Because I’m Isabella Valentine and they merely assumed I was there to advertise my services, which couldn’t have been further from the truth. It’s so frustrating. I went there, as a normal human being. A domme wanting to be part of a discussion with likeminded people in Indiana, and because my outdated profile showed me as “Isabella Valentine” (even though I didn’t introduce myself as such), I basically got a slap in the face. I was stereotyped as a “pro domme” as if somehow people pay me to beat them. And so what if someone does? Would it make me that much “less” as a domme if money is exchanged for a service? I am so sick and tired of being stereotyped and pigeonholed. If you look for something negative to happen, then negativity will happen. If you expect greatness, you’ll receive greatness. However, one thing I never looked for (or expected) was to be considered “non-human” by people who didn’t even take the time to get to know me.
This sort of reminds me of the time my friend
Sorry to get off tangent, but this has been weighing on my shoulders all freaking day. It was so rude of that moderator to dismiss my application in such a cowardly way. I even wrote back explaining my intentions were purely selfless and a submissive male replied with complete discrimination. I’ve been discriminated against for years, whether being gay (I was gay before gay was “in” and went through hell in Alabama because of it) or being fat or being young or being a girl… and now I’m being discriminated against because of my occupation. It’s absolutely ridiculous. I won’t apologize for my occupation. My work is a deep passion. I offer people what they want - hope, a release, a fantasy, a life away from the mundane. I’d much rather be doing this, than go back to working at a newspaper.
I’m tired of having to defend myself all the time. So from this day forward, it ends here. The only way good things will come my way is to attract them, so I’m going to do my best to do just that.
Love
Isabella
xoxoxo
My heart goes out to the family of Luciano Pavarotti. I didn’t know him personally, but his music personally knew me.
xx
Love
Isabella
xoxooxox
The last few days I’ve been researching more and more about parallel universes (I have sooo many books on it) and I came across a link online that blew me away. This is the most amazing thing in the world… buried in space… once I pay off my credit cards, I wanna start saving up for this. Nothing would be more perfect than having my cremated remains sent off in deep space. Wow… and less expensive than I thought! I thought it would be hundreds of thousands of dollars, but it ranges from $1k to about $70k. I want to get the $12.5k plan which sends my remains in deep space inside a capsule.
Love
Isabella
xoxoxox
I recently began my new quest in finding a potential slave for a 24/7 relationship. Gotta have me a slavegirl. I’ve gotten many inquiries, but so far there’s one particular girl who has captivated my interest. Her name is slave claire from Florida and we seem to have many fetishes in common - plus she’s willing to relocate. This morning we chatted on IM and personally, I think we’re a match made in heaven. We’re practically the same age, we have the same types of goals (and she loves the idea of being brainwashed and hypnotized), and she’s fucking hot too! So anyway, we’ll see how it goes. Right now I’m putting her through speech restriction and whenever she messes up, I tell her to bite her tongue so she feels immediate pain and at the same time is gagged. Poor girl messed up quite a bit and spent a lot of time biting her tongue. I love training her! Anyway, as you all know, it takes TIME to find compatibility and certainly doesn’t happen overnight. In the past, I’ve trained lots of girls but not all of them were on the same page as me - but this girl just might be. However, I thought it would be nice to share my current interest. She gave me permission to share her photos in my journal (that’s something I always ask and never just assume).
I think she is breathtaking.
Love
Isabella
xoxoxox
Love
Isabella
xoxoxox
Special thank you to Angela St. Lawrence for nominating my blog as one of the best online. I’m one of her top 5 favorites as “Rockin Girl Blogger.” She wrote some wonderful things about me that were so sweet! (Visit her entry here).
“Isabella Valentine: A partner in crime and good friend, Isabella is a top-shelf PSO and high-profile web seductress specializing in Erotic Hypnotism. Her recorded audios are legendary; even my callers talk to me about Isabella! Because she is one self-actualized chickadee (she is a student, audio recorder, a web designer, a photographer and an artist…and who knows what else), Isabella has a lot to talk about and her blog reflects this. Being both candid and generous, Isabella gives readers personal glimpses into her daily life, features plenty of her photography and artwork, and tops it all off with bunches of FREE audio and video clips. Simply scrumptious.”
And now I am supposed to pick 5 blogs that I read all the time, whom I consider MUST READS. The thing is, I read TONS of blogs and so many of them are heartfelt, honest, and REAL on so many levels. It’s hard to pick just five. I could probably list 20 favorites more than just five, but if I had to think REAL long and hard, here they are (in order):
1. http://adevotedslave.livejournal.com - What’s not to love about deidre? Her journal takes you deep into the heart of who she is on every level. Readers are introduced to every facet of who she is and she doesn’t hold back. That’s one thing I love about her so much, she’s so honest and real. If she’s having a sucky day, she talks about it. If she’s feeling rather proud of herself, she talks about that too. The complex life of being a slave is shown so transparently here, and she aggressively defies all stereotypes of slavegirls. The girl behind the journal is more than an owned pet, she is a dear and caring person who I’ve had the pleasure of knowing in real life. She is as real as it gets.
2. http://kaya_s.livejournal.com - This slavegirl blows me away. I’m more drawn into her journal than a soap opera and for good reason. She shows pictures that, at first seemed shocking (bloody ass, nails through breasts, needle play, tack bra), however when getting to read who she IS and why she does it, I couldn’t help but be drawn to her. She is a happily owned slave who goes through tremendous pain and pleasure and uses her journal as an outlet. She’s so bare and raw, revealing things that sometimes makes me drop my jaw. But it’s not the shock factor that appeals to me, it’s how honest she is about her life. Sometimes she talks about her disapproval with wanting to do something and then a day later talks about how discipline reminds herself why she goes through the things she does. A must read for BDSM fanatics.
3. http://zenfetish.com - Angela St. Lawrence is a great personal friend who is one of the most beautiful souls I know. She’d give the shirt off her back to a person in need (and has) and doesn’t brag about it. You can tell just by her writing how humble, sweet, and thoughtful she is on every level… and yet, can easily dominate even the hardest of men. Her complexities are so interesting: she loves lesbian porn but has no interest in being with a woman. She writes with literary grace and intellect and truly captivates every type of audience. I am honored to know such a person and even more honored that we’re friends.
4. http://missrubykisses.livejournal.com - Gotta love Miss Ruby Kisses on every level. She started this very informative journal about phone sex which is both intriguing as well as insightful. Unlike many phone sex operators who simply start a journal for their own commercial or financial purposes, she actually uses this journal to inform people about phone sex and what it entails. She discusses common questions, funny antidotes, her personal experiences with callers - which makes it not only a fun read, but a great place to go if you’re either a caller or a phone sex operator. The woman behind the journal is smart, intelligent, and a beautiful and talented woman who writes amazingly well.
5. http://bitchyjones.com - *sigh* bitchy jones. bitchy jones. What can I possibly say about this journal? Truth be told, I don’t always agree with her. She thinks it’s stupid when dominatrixes want to be called Goddess or even dress in Domme garb cause she thinks it’s over the top. She also thinks it ridiculous that guys want to dress like women and says it’s because they have a gender crisis. Personally, most of the time I’m disagreeing with her more than agreeing with her, BUT she speaks her mind and that’s what I love about her. She’s sadistic and admits it, talking about what she’d like to see her slaves go through for her. She’s blunt and charismatic. She’s dominant without being stereotypical. Her journal is an entertaining read that is sure to make you read, whether you love her or hate her. It’s kind of like the Howard Stern of blogs, if I had to compare her blog to something.
It was hard picking just five, so please forgive me if yours wasn’t mentioned. There are dozens of them out there that I read and love. But these 5 are my obsession.
Love
Isabella
xoxooxox
Erotic Hypnosis MP3: Zero Gravity (Part 1 only)
* This idea inspired by the Brainstorm Vault*
This spectacular mp3 begins with you at home and ends with you far off in infinite space. I don’t know about you, but I’m obsessed with space and astronomy. Science of the universe is a limitless subject that seems to convey not only the unknown, but allows people to explore their own imaginations. Imagine the possibility that you can float through walls. Through your ceiling. Higher than your neighborhood, your city, your country, your Planet, your Solar System, your Galaxy….
Fly with Me to a different galaxy as you and I travel through black holes and experience the Universe as a deep trance. Eventually I become a bottomless black hole swallowing your mind and energy deep into Me.
This soothing hypnotic adventure is designed for all genders and treats you with genuine respect, acknowledging your intelligence and inner power. This explores light submission to Me without bringing in “worship” or “slavery.”
This recording is nearly THREE TIMES as long as most of my recordings (almost 90 minutes). This mp3 includes many double binds, presuppositions, and many NLP techniques. Please use stereo headphones to get the best effects since binaural background audio is used in left and right ears.
Fetishes include:
Erotic hypnosis, submission, space exploration, traveling, learning to trust Me, safety and protection in My voice, discovering inner self, energy transformation, imagination and dream exploration, deepening triggers and techniques, science fiction, fantasy, and much more!
Note: This is long mp3 is ‘Part 1′ of a new series, so keep an eye out for a continuation of this beautiful recording!
There are three free samples since this mp3 is quite long:
Leaving the Earth’s atmosphere
Entering the Galactic Center
Format: MP3 Download
Sound Quality: Professional First-Rate
Vocal Sound Effects: No
Prop Sound Effects: No
Soft Background Music: Sometimes
Overdubbing Vocals: Just two words (sleep, deeper)
Length: 86 minutes, 30 seconds
Zip File Size: Approx. 162 MB - LARGE file
Price: Regular: 75.00 Special: $50.00
Today I spent some time in front of the tube to just unwind and relax.
So I watched a couple South Park episodes… I used to think they were stupid (without really watching them, I just stereotyped the show because people would imitate Cartman and the voice annoyed me). However, in my “open mind” mood, I taped two shows on my DVR and watched them and I gotta say, I was pretty impressed. It’s so tongue in cheek and even though they’re funny about it, it’s all based on pretty real stuff. No wonder people call it social commentary. One of episodes I saw was the one where everyone thought “gay was in” and all the boys would call themselves “metrosexual” and dress “gay” but when they’d go to gay clubs, they wouldn’t actually go home with the homosexuals. I really, REALLY liked that episode. (I also liked the scientology episode revolving around Tom Cruise and his crazy alien beliefs and burst out laughing at the line, “Come out of the closet, Tom,” when he hid in a closet.)
Also watched Saturday Night Live and was pretty impressed with Scarlett Johansson. Not only is she fine as hell, but she’s funny and lit it up. I swear, I don’t think my eyes moved away from her the whole time. Wow. Her skin is so flawless. Beautiful. Beautiful. She’s one woman who really does it for me. She’s smart, funny, great at ad-libbing, talented, and just plain hot.
Gotta love the Twilight Zone. Every episode really makes you think. It’s also a great show to watch when you swear you’re living in your own twilight zone, so it really takes the edge off.
Love
Isabella
xoxoxoox
It took seven days, from inspiration to completion to create this next recording. And I’m very proud of it I must say. 86 minutes of pure erotic hypnosis that took me to a place truly out of this world. I honestly felt a thousand times better after listening to this. I feel like I released my skin and let out my inner energy (which was conveyed in the recording). I truly hope other people find this to be both therapeutic as well as downright beautiful. I don’t know how else to describe it, but it’s three times longer than the rest of my recordings, because it just seemed that I wanted to put more into it. More emotion. More description. I put my entire self into this and I think it shows.
Nothing like an out of body experience to truly feel better
There are three free samples of it (not just one) which can be found here:
Click here to listen to free samples and read more info
Love
Isabella
xoxoxoox
I experimented with my camera this morning with some of my doll statues.
In the second picture, you can probably guess how I’m feeling. At first I wasn’t too keen on showing it to everyone, but you know what? I use this journal to tell the story of my life and if that isn’t real, nothing is. Thankfully, a majority of everyone has “lain off” (laid off?) me during this whole breakup thing. So thank you.
On another note, a friend I know in real life who I’ve always gotten along with called me an asshole (because I was honest in saying that all my relationships must be “All about me.”) and said my journal is “sickening.” You know what? I don’t need that right now, especially from someone who doesn’t know anything about what I WENT through or how many sacrifices I gave to try make it work. It goes without saying that if people don’t have anything nice to say, don’t say it at all. I’ve gone through a lot in the last month that very few people know about because frankly, it’s no one’s business.
One thing people like about me is that I’m honest in my journal. I let people see all sides of me. The good, the bad, the ugly, the sad, the angry, the egotistical, the sassy, the sarcastic, the charitable, the kind, the campassionate, the sadistic, the REAL RAW bare part of me. That one email really offended me when she said, “What happened to the charitable person I knew?” as though somehow I don’t help people anymore. I give the shirt off my back to tons of people, I just don’t go around waving a flag about it. I still sponsor children and donate money to charity, that hasn’t changed. I just don’t see the point of looking for acknowledgement for it. Right now I am in the process of making the Human Rights Watch my full beneficiary in my will. Have you seen me writing about that in other entries? No. Just because I don’t go around bragging about my philanthropy activities doesn’t mean I’m not still charitable. I am sad and angry right now because I gave my heart and soul to someone who chose someone else over me. I am allowed to be angry and I am allowed to express myself the way I wish. If my honesty lets you see a side of me you don’t want to see, then stop reading my journal.
*sigh*
Regardless of what’s going on, I’m still trying to be productive. Yesterday I recorded “Zero Gravity” and today I’ll be editing it in post-production. The recording is MUCH longer than I expected (over an hour) and it currently has my entire focus.
Thank you all for understanding and for your support. Have a great day.
Love
Isabella
xooxox
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