Archive for December, 2007

Niagara Falls

First stop, Niagara Falls in Ontario Canada. I’ve been there years ago, but felt nostalgic and wanted to visit again. Slave m went with me and the two of us went to the observation deck of the Skylon to overlook the majestic waterfalls - all lit up in rainbow colors. Then we went to a casino in the grand ball room next door after eating vegan chinese food. He had never been to Canada before and - well, he had never been to a casino either so it was quite the experience! We won $40 playing nickel slots. Not bad! We left with more than we showed up with… Afterwards, we stopped for the night in upstate New York at a Japanese-styled motor lodge that had been recently purchased by Econo Lodge. The outside looked amazing, but the inside had rather tacky decorating, a bathtub with unstable flooring, a hard-as-a-rock bed, and well — I had a feeling our hotel neighbors could hear my orgasm from the night before. Needless to say, we only needed 6 hours to sleep, so we weren’t there very long.

I love Niagara Falls… so fucking beautiful. Here’s some photos from the experience:

Isabella Valentine in Niagara FallsIsabella Valentine in Niagara Falls

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Erotic Hypnosis MP3: Scarlet


Erotic Hypnosis MP3: Scarlet

Isabella Valentine teams up with phone sex sensation, Kitty, for one hot, orgasmic erotic hypnosis session.

How would you like hear me hypnotizing another woman to be under My sexual control?

In this mp3, I had the pleasure of hypnotizing Kitty, but don’t tell her because she doesn’t know I hypnotized her. It all began with a beautiful guided visual imagery down stone stairs, colored doors, magical hollow trees, and a feather-like weightless drop onto scarlet silken pillows. Then when I knew I had her deep enough, I gave her sexual triggers causing her nipples to feel as though I was sucking on them, and well - it gets even sexier than that! Want more details? Then listen and find out what happened!

Fetishes include:
Erotic hypnosis, lesbianism, tease and denial, triggers, post-hypnotic suggestions, guided visual imagery, feather drop, finger snapping, controlled orgasms, begging, nipple play, pussy play, and so much more!

Note: Kitty is currently building a website and when it’s complete, I’ll link to it so you can find out more about her.

Format: MP3 Download
Sound Quality: Professional First-Rate
Vocal Sound Effects: None
Prop Sound Effects: No
Soft Background Music: No
Overdubbing Vocals: No
Length: 31 minutes, 28 seconds
Zip File Size: Approx. 29 MB
Price: $35.00


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Blonde highlights

Winter put blonde highlights in my hair to bring out my natural color, I thought my hair turned out so pretty. Thanks, Winter!

Yesterday, my hypnotic friend and fellow Goddess, Kasha Shakti, came over and were recorded an mp3 together. It still needs a few voiceovers and editing, but when it’s complete, I trust you all will like it. It’s something totally surreal and that’s all I’m going to say about it for now ;-)

Winter, maurice, and I are leaving for NYC in a day or so, and we’re looking forward to watching the ball drop on New Years Eve in Times Square. Definitely expect to see photos!

In the meantime, here are some candid pics taken around the house wearing my new black Versace frames.

Isabella Valentine at home

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Sexy photos

Tonight I did my first photoshoot with two different people shooting me at the same time. I picked 6 of Winter Grace’s best shots and 6 of slave maurice’s best shots and thought it would be neat to post them here. Enjoy!

Photographer: Winter Grace | Model: Isabella Valentine

Isabella Valentine on Christmas Eve

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Hypnotic Holidays

Merry Christmas! I’ve released a free video tonight in my video blog and hope everyone has a lovely enchanting holiday. Winter Grace was gracious enough to do the videography (her first time with a video camera) and in the film, I’ve allowed access into my personal life as I hypnotize slave maurice. This is the first time I’ve released a video to the public showing me hypnotizing another person in such a way. Many scenes were cut for personal and privacy reasons and the original experience lasted roughly an hour. The video has been condensed to slightly less than 8 minutes. Hope you enjoy!

Watch this FREE hypnotic, dominating video - “Hypnotic Holidays”

Love
Isabella
xoxoxo

Erotic Hypnosis MP3: Queen Isabella

Erotic Hypnosis MP3: Queen Isabella

It is My pleasure to turn you into My human chess piece who honors and protects his Queen Isabella. Learn the art of sacrifice, submission, and devotion as you experience true loyalty to your lovely Queen.

You will be given a task to prove your worth as My knight as you bring more pawns to My world. Experience spontaneous erections far after this recording ends with a post-hypnotic suggestion that will remind you of Me for years to come. Be hypnotized for My amusement with commands and suggestions that will prove your loyalty to Me and allow you privileged access to My heart.

Fetishes include:
Erotic hypnosis, deep relaxation, submission, post-hypnotic suggestions, post-erection, commands, suggestions, references to chess, recruitment, submissive duties, strategic mind control, and hypnotic mind conditioning.

Format: MP3 Download
Sound Quality: Professional First-Rate
Vocal Sound Effects: Many
Prop Sound Effects: No
Soft Background Music: No
Overdubbing Vocals: Yes
Length: 36 minutes 24 seconds
Zip File Size: Approx. 34 MB
Price: $35.00

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Subbie-time

I’ve got two subbies staying at my house… a guy (maurice) and a girl (winter)… life couldn’t be any better than this moment! Today maurice and I had an art contest where we both spent precisely one hour sketching a pineapple with colored pencils. I haven’t drawn like that in over a year so it was nice to get in the groove of things again. Drawing a pineapple is really REALLY hard because there is no “real” shape or any straight lines. It was quite an interesting experience. After the hour was up, we both got so into our drawings that we started sketching other things on the table and vowed to finish them later. I’ll show a pic of mine in my journal when it’s completed. I love winter being here too — today all three of us moved the living room into the dining room and vice versa. This way my dungeon is bigger and I have more room to swing the whip. She did a marvelous job re-hanging and decorating the “whip chamber” and we removed them off the long strip in the hallway. When it all ties together, I’ll share pics. The only sucky part is that we moved the tv into the other room and unfortunately, my satellite company says they can’t install cable to that tv until Dec. 26th. So it looks like we’ll have to make do with our movies on dvd in the meantime. (And trust me, I’ve got plenty). We still have to get the surround sound working again. So much to do! It’s looking good though!

Stepped on the scale this morning. I’ve now lost ALL the weight I gained earlier this month. In fact, I’m at the LOWEST weight I’ve ever been at in 10 years. Today I weigh 228.4 pounds and this has been a milestone for me because for the last 4 months, I’ve been in the 230s without really going anywhere. I’m FINALLY in the 20s. Thank fucking god. Now I can start my snowball and start rolling downhill finally! I LOVE this vegan thing. It’s sooo healthy, I feel so good I just want to hug everyone. LOL

One thing I love about all the NLP I’ve learned is that it’s so much fun to confuse people. Nothing makes me happier than empowering the people around me and exploding their boundaries. And boy have I. Feels good! By the way, I’ve been invited to go to Hawaii for a Master Empowerment Program that’s invitation-only (in February) and I’m tempted to go. Keep you posted!

Went to the eye doctor and picked up 2 new pairs of glasses - one rimless and one black. I’ll share pics tomorrow :)

By the way, I recorded a new mp3 titled Queen Isabella that I was inspired to record based on a twisted dream I had a couple nights ago. Please enjoy!

Ok, one of my slaves has drawn me a bath… I must go for now.

Love
Isabella
xoxoxo

Isabella’s candid photos

Winter took these photos of me today, I think she did a great job considering she’s not used to photographing humans. LOL. I suppose I’m quite the sexy landscape, huh?

Isabella Valentine in boots

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Blonde and boobs

Here are some newer pics of me, for those of you who like massive boobage.

Isabella Valentine's Breasts

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Poetry Reading

I had a lot of fun making this video, so I hope you find it enjoyable! I read some of my favorite poems from Jewel’s book, A Night Without Armor and did a little mini-poetry reading on film. Here is a new free video I’ve added to my video blog with a few songs by The Doors playing in the background. Watch free video here

Isabella Valentine - Poetry Reading

Also good news! Winter (I swear, that’s her name… winter) is flying over to Bloomington and arrives tomorrow night! She’ll be spending some time with me during the holidays. She’s quite the submissive and I’m excited to see what might happen! Wish us luck!

Love
Isabella
xoxoxox

Fairytale Goddess

I couldn’t help myself. I’m having one of those Goddess moments.

Isabella Valentine - Fairytale Goddess

Also, for those of you who prefer to spend time on IsabellaValentine.com instead of IsabellasRecordings.com, you may be happy to know that my tech slave has embedded an audio player to each file on the site so you can listen to it automatically straight from the page. I’ve been wanting to do that for the longest time but was having problems getting one compatible with wordpress. So YAY, that part is done. Several other small changes on the site have been made (they’re big to me though, but mostly on the back end like tags and stuff), and now tags from all previous LJ posts now show up on the blog at IsabellaValentine.com — I’ll keep you posted with other updates as time goes on.

Slave maurice wrote about a review on my NLP hypnosis mp3 titled “Escape” which was so sweet! He published it on Inraptured cause apparently it had an impact on him. I swear, I did NOT tell him to give me a 10 rating. But I do think that perhaps he loves me so much that he’s oblivious to any other numbers ;) That works for me hehe.

Some friends just left the house… they put a wrapped Christmas present under my tree. It’s currently my one little gift under the tree and I’m NOT opening it until Christmas Eve. Peaking is so much fun though :) But I won’t.

Love
Isabella
xoxoxox

Isabella loves winter

I do. Winter is so beautiful. I’m not the only one who loves winter, look whose peaking in the window!
Isabella Valentine in the winter

By the way, I released a new NLP recording today titled “Sissy Training” for men who enjoy being feminized and treated as sissies. I truly hope you enjoy it!

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NLP Hypnosis MP3: Sissy Training

NLP Hypnosis MP3: Sissy Training

Have you ever wondered why you enjoy being a sissy? Or even better yet, have you ever been curious why you’re into feminization? This session is designed for sissies and pantyboys who have fantasies of dressing as beautiful women.

This mp3 isn’t an ordinary erotic hypnosis session, rather it focuses on NLP and spends time going deep into the core of where your sissy fetish originates. I’ve designed several carefully-worded questions to ask your subconscious mind to expand your boundaries and enlighten the way you feel about your secret fetishes.

This also trains you on the following: human hair wigs and appreciating long, soft hair, makeup application and wearing it right, feminine clothes, and how to become an even better sissy.

There is a right and a wrong way to be a sissy. Most people make all the wrong mistakes (like wearing cheap wigs and ugy makeup) and this session is designed to help you be the absolute BEST lesbian-sissy you can possibly be. This also includes masturbation and orgasm command.

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Format: MP3 Download
Sound Quality: Professional First-Rate
Vocal Sound Effects: Reverb
Prop Sound Effects: No
Soft Background Music: No
Overdubbing Vocals: No
Length: 35 minutes, 38 seconds
Zip File Size: Approx. 34 MB
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Erotic Hypnosis MP3: Intimate with Isabella

Erotic Hypnosis MP3: Intimate with Isabella

I’ve often fantasized that a hypnotist would hypnotize Me to fall in love with Her, but I often secretly feared that maybe She’d put suggestions in My head to become addicted or obsessed. And since I’m dominant, I never really liked the idea of another hypnotist treating Me like a submissive.

So this mp3 is designed to make My own fantasy come true. If you have ever wanted to be hypnotized to fall in love with Me, but were secretly afraid I might say something to make you obsessed or addicted - No worries. There is no reference to anything addictive or obsessive, in fact - you have control over how much love you want to feel towards Me. This mp3 is designed to hypnotize men and women (even Dominants!) to fall in love with Me. Even other dominant female hypnotists may feel drawn to hear this recording, and I welcome you as well. No matter your gender or power preference, I trust your mind will open to the idea of experiencing a deep and intimate connection with Me.

Will you let Me become intimate with you?

This deep hypnosis session will pull you closer to Me in a way where you control how much you want Me in your life, and it feels so good to belong to someone who knows how real your love has become. Perhaps you love Me already, which is even better. Or even if you’re just a little curious, I welcome you to join Me for this sexy and hypnotic journey.

No matter who you are, even if you think you can’t be hypnotized (or think there’s no way possible you can love a dominant woman) - I dare you to fall in love with Me. This mp3 features a permissive Ericksonian induction as well as a loving and sensual dialogue to set your heart as ease as you open up to the idea of love, passion, and intimacy. Feel a connection to a hypnotist who gives love, which makes you want to give love in return.

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Sound Quality: Professional First-Rate
Vocal Sound Effects: No
Prop Sound Effects: No
Soft Background Music: No
Overdubbing Vocals: No
Length: 46 minutes
Zip File Size: Approx. 37 MB
Price: $35.00

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Eyes, veganism, life.

I went to the eye doctor today and got a new prescription. My new glasses (two pairs) will be here in about a week. It’s always a good feeling to have a new pair of glasses. I’ve had this gold pair of Christian Dior eyeglasses for almost two years now and although they are real gold, there are small parts of the glasses (around the inner nose part and the crystal gem settings on the side), it’s starting to turn green. So it’s time to get them replaced. I got a pair of black Versace frames and a rimless pair from Vogue. At PearlVision, they have a buy-one-get-one-free sale going on right now, so I figured - why not get two pairs instead of one? Total cost (including 2 prescription lenses, 2 designer frames, AND an eye exam) only $550. Not bad. My old frames (that you see in all my pics) ALONE were $600.

Did a little Christmas shopping. I don’t know why I always forget that everyone likes to shop at the same time during the holidays, so parking is always atrocious. I don’t mind parking far, cause I love as much exercise as I can get. The problem is when it’s 32 degrees and wind hits my face and I walk through sloshy snow and ice. Exercise is the last thing on my mind.

Speaking of exercise and health, today is day #19 being a vegan. So far so good. And I’ve lost 5 of the 7 pounds I gained because thankfully, Jenny Craig helped me write my own special menu for myself without eating their food. So I’m off Jenny Craig, but still going in for consultations and weigh-ins. Hopefully by the time I go in on Monday, I’ll have lost 2 more. *crossing fingers*

The look on my friends’ faces are insane when I tell them I’ve stopped buying leather. My friend Mandy looked at me like I was absolutely crazy when she saw me wearing my new $30 hemp purse and vegan wallet instead of my $2k Chloe handbag and $800 matching leather wallet. But you know what? I feel more natural and more ME wearing a cheap purse than an expensive one. I swear, the first day I bought an expensive purse, the whole time all I could think about was someone taking a hacksaw to my arm or killing me for a bag or something. Morbid, I know. For years, I wore a $10 leather slingback pouch from Mexico and was perfectly fine with that. So these days, I’ve opted for hemp - thanks to a loving slave who bought it for me after an enthralling conversation.

I’ve gotten rid of lots of leather things I own as well as deodorants and soaps that have glycerine. I thought it would be really hard, but it’s been fairly easy since there is a store here (Bloomingfoods) which carries alternate stuff for vegans and vegetarians. I’ve since joined ASPCA and PETA. Don’t worry, I won’t be one of the crazies who throws paint at people wearing fur, but I do support their overall cause, which is to make sure animals are treated humanely.

There are some things I’m not ready to part with: my leather bondage stuff. I’m hanging on to it. For one, I’ve already purchased it. Secondly, there is such a big demand for leather, that leather isn’t just a by-product of killing a cow. So if I have bondage furniture and leather whips, I kind of justify it to myself because technically, I’m “slaughtering” my slaves. Bad logic. But for now it’s ok cause I’ve decided that I’ll only accept second-hand leather for now on. In the meantime, I’ve written emails to some of my favorite BDSM manufacturers and most of them have agreed to make custom non-leather items for me in the future and happily obliged.

There are a few things I’ve found kind of humorous with this new “loving-animals instead of murdering-them” mentality. For one… there is leather on practically everything - even my dashboard of my SUV is in leather. What do I do in the future? Ask a car dealer for a vegan car? LOL. I don’t know I thought it was kind of funny. I feel silly for even asking. Anyway here is a list of items that contain animal products, many of which I wasn’t even aware.

One of my office chairs at home is leather, but I can swap it for something cloth (which frankly is more comfortable). Some makeup products have animal products in them (or test on animals) but sometimes it’s hard to tell what has what in it. So I’ve been going out of my way to buy things at vegan websites or non-cruelty sites.

I swear, I feel like a nut sometimes being in the minority. I had no idea that vegans went through this. I seriously thought they were all nuts. I never thought it was cause they were fighting such an important cause. Speaking of which, I changed the menu on the 7-day Slave Training to reflect a non-dairy and non-meat lifestyle. In fact, everything I posted on the menu is stuff I eat on a daily basis. It’s a bit different than before.

Sometimes I smell barbecue in the deli (of regular grocery stores) and it smells so good that I find myself running away from it like a girl running away from a fire - so I’m not tempted to eat it. But today I braved myself and looked down at the barbecue and literally felt myself get sick cause all I saw was meat and sauce and immediately I pictured the sauce as being blood and, well, you can guess how violent that story became to me. Shopping at regular grocery stores (even if just walking down the meat aisle with all the turkeys, chickens, beefs) feels like I’m walking down a slaughterhouse. A few days ago I held back tears just trying to get to the produce section. This is why I’m sticking with Bloomingfoods and other health food stores. More expensive, but less violent.

I’m crazy, I know. But that’s why you love me.

Love
Isabella
xooxox

Early Christmas

It never ceases to amaze me how many kind people there are out there. Seriously. I understand that in my line of work, many slaves secretly hope that their Goddesses will demand them to send gifts for the holidays. But I won’t do that simply because slaves will only give if they WANT to give. I find it so much pleasurable to receive a gift knowing it came out of the kindness of their hearts (and not because of greedy commands). LOL it is kind of funny that people STILL send me gifts cause of the Siren video I made, but honestly I made it as a joke and didn’t expect people to buy me anything.

I’m blessed beyond belief, not just because of the outpouring of presents I’ve received over the past 4-5 years, but because people have done it so generously. Some people sent gifts when they couldn’t afford it and it’s an honor to even be remembered when bills are behind. I understand that not everyone has money. I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again: I grew up extremely poor. Not a day goes by where I don’t treasure the life I live. All these material things are nice for the short-term, but the long-term are the PEOPLE who make the difference. Those of you who have sent gifts, no matter how great or small, have made a difference in my life. It doesn’t even matter to me the value of the item purchased, it’s the token of appreciation behind the offering.

This year, I ask that if you don’t have money to buy a gift for me (or for another Goddess), then please at least donate what you can to your favorite charity. It breaks my heart to watch other families not have anything for Christmas when I’ve been blessed with far more than I can handle. I mean - who needs 4 different color mascaras? I’m grateful, don’t get me wrong, it’s just mindboggling that I receive so much more than I could possibly use.

Every time I go to update my wishlist, I struggle to think of new items I want. I really, truly have everything I could ever need or want.  I’m quite tempted to remove my wishlist after Christmas because I feel I’ve reached a place in my life where material possessions aren’t as important as they used to be. I’d much rather concentrate on relationships and personal social growth so I can impact the lives of people around me.

However, I understand that there are those who sincerely love buying me gifts because they love to give me things that will make a long, lasting impression (such as a necklace I can wear 50 years from now). That’s pretty much the only reason I’ve chosen to leave the wishlist up for the time being. If you wish to give, feel free to do so. All I ask is that you only give if you WANT to, not because you feel you have to fulfill an obligation as a slave or friend to fill the Christmas quota. And if you have no money but want to give something non-monetary, then here is an alternative present I would like. Advertise what you think about me on the net, whether it be starting a blog and talking about me, linking to my website, talking about me on a forum or your myspace page, anything where you can talk about me word-of-mouth is just as wonderful (if not better) than receiving material things.

 Would you like me to be really happy this christmas? Share your hypnotic experiences with the world so that others will feel compelled to listen to my hypnosis recordings.

Christmas gifts for Isabella Valentine

Not shown in photo: Several cds and dvds, which I’ll post in a later entry.

Love
Isabella
xoxooxox

Happy Birthday Maurice

Maurice's Birthday

Corset photos

Here are some photos of me wearing a new waist cincher/corset. I really like wearing corsets and wish I had more of them.

Erotic Hypnosis with Isabella Valentine

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Cuteness

Let’s just say that John Holmes the Porn Cat has succeeded in figuring out the quickest way to get petted.

John Holmes the Porn Cat

Love
Isabella
xoxoxoxo

Niteflirt no longer a part of Keen

If you’re already a customer of mine (or want to be), please read this carefully.

As some of you already know, AT&T just bought Ingenio which used to own Keen and Niteflirt. AT&T acquired Keen, but did NOT acquire Niteflirt, so it is now a standalone company. That being said, people who were once customers under Keen are no longer customers under Niteflirt.

Unfortunately, approx. 800-1000 of my clients (including some of my favorites) have suddenly disappeared since this change (the other 9000+ are still in my list). I have no way of contacting my previous Keen customers because they’ve been removed from my customer list at Niteflirt. I realize that many of you may be wondering why you aren’t receiving my emails. Now you know why. However, there is a way we can remain in contact - simply sign up at Niteflirt instead of Keen and contact me.

A few days ago I sent a free video (the “wonderful world” video) to all my customers in my database (except for a few who wanted to stop receiving emails). If you DID NOT RECEIVE the video, that means that you need to re-sign up at Niteflirt as a customer OR if you already have, then please email me at Niteflirt so I can continue contact with you. If you’re not sure if you’re still on my list, then email me anyway even if it’s just a one word statement that says “hello.” As you know, Niteflirt does not provide a way for flirts to contact customers (for privacy reasons) UNLESS the customer contacts the flirt first. So if you want to continue receiving free stuff from me, then be sure you WRITE me on Niteflirt, even if just a brief sentence. This will ensure you get placed back on my customer list.

If you haven’t already done so, please sign up at Niteflirt. It’s free and all new clients (you’ll be considered new if you were once on Keen) will receive 3 free minutes (to speak to any of the girls, not just me) just for signing up! Sign up FREE here and receive 3 free minutes!

Here I am just being silly:

Isabella Valentine

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Isabella Valentine

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Isabella Valentine

Love
Isabella
xoxoxoo

Bravery

I wrote a song back in 2003 during the time in my life when I was a phone sex operator and people were in love with the sound of my voice and a photo of someone else. It was also during a time when nobody online knew what I looked like because I didn’t share photos of myself. People had fallen in love with someone who was not me. This hurt because I remember wanting SO bad to tell people who I was and to show the world myself. It literally felt like it was killing me because I remember wanting so badly to share my secret.

Today while I was redecorating my “new age” room, I ran across a journal I had tucked away on a bookshelf. The journal was mostly empty except for the first few pages: a song I wrote. Truth be told, I have no recollection every writing it but it’s my handwriting, so I can only assume I was either heavily intoxicated or on a lot of drugs at the time.

I thought I’d share this in my blog, not so much so people can read it, but so I can look back at this later. After I post the entry, I’ll rip out the page from the journal so it will be a brand new journal and I can start over with a clean slate.

How would you like to read one of my private writings from years ago?


Untitled lyrics:

I find bravery behind these bed curtains
baring my inner flesh to myself
too emotional in art
and all that is lost
I feed my heart with false flattery
you make me feel so beautiful
and at the same time
remind me of who I cannot be

I can stay locked in your imagination
I can make all your dreams my own
I know what your heart craves
what your mind’s been longing for
but to bare myself
oh but to bare myself
I don’t think I can be that brave
no I can’t bare myself
that would be too brave

All these pieces you think you have of me
they’re figments of who I cannot be
you’ve fallen in love
with someone not quite me
a reality too perfect, a little too flawless
how do I open up my doors
when my closet may topple you

How do I steer a course
when the other path looks better
how do I stay genuine
when all my honesty proves a lie
I wear so many shoes
I have so many soles
but when I am home
all I have is my bare feet

I can be all of your imagination
I can be more than your every dream
I can be the one who heals your heart
and brings out your tender mind
but to bare myself
oh to bare myself
I don’t think I could be that brave
no I can’t bare myself
that would be too brave.

too brave
oh so brave
what if I lost you forever
no I can’t bare myself
no no no I can’t
I can’t lose what I want so much
I can’t lose you
I can’t lose
I can’t lose myself
oh oh ooohhh ohhhh
ohhh oooohh oooooh oh
I can’t lose you
I can’t bare myself
so close your eyes
let me talk a while
oh oohh oohhh ohh
let me talk a while
oh ooohhhh
let me be your art
let me be your passion
let me be
let me be….

The rest of my handwriting is hard to read, so I’ll stop there. Looking back, it sounded kind of sad. I never realized I carried such a sadness. Sometimes the only way to see results of personal growth is to look back and remember the past.

Love
Isabella
xoxoxo

Fantasy

I am totally turned on at the idea of two boy slaves being forced to suck each other off in front of me. Even moreso, commanding them to masturbate naked in front of each other where their penises touch and they’re forced to look into each other’s eyes.

Two nights ago I masturbated thinking about that. I still can’t shake it.

I’ve always been turned on by gay sex. Female on female. Male on male. One time, a few years ago (and there’s probably a journal entry already written about it from way way back if any of you feel so inclined to search for it between 2003-2004), I was masturbating in bed watching a male gay porn video. My sister and her husband opened the door to my apartment (I didn’t lock it cause frankly, I didn’t expect people to just open my front door like that) and since at the time I only had a one-bedroom apartment… they walked right into my bedroom. My sister only saw the edge of my socks, so she didn’t see me physically masturbating - but she saw the movie that was playing and the scene just happened to be two guys stroking each other in bed. The look on her face was priceless. I was slightly embarrassed, but in retrospect I thought it was rather funny. Keep in mind that my sister has walked on me masturbating (or having sex) probably half a dozen times in my life, so this was nothing new to her. However, the male gay porn video stunned her really. To this day, she doesn’t understand why it arouses me. It just does.

Most of the gay bars that I’ve been to in the past were mainly male-friendly. I mean sure, I’ve been to my share of lesbian bars, but the problem is that most of the women who go to the lesbian bars are either taken or straight. Yup, that’s right. Fucking straight girls. They go there to try to get free drinks from girls who actually want a chance to BE with them — or they go to “experiment.” When girls tell me they just want to experiment, I hear, “Will you be my science project?” (Um, no.)

So I spent most of my time at male gay bars. Some nights there would be about 300-400 men and maybe 5-10 women. One night I remember having a 3-person frenchkiss where I kissed two guys at the same time and other than the fact they tasted like beer (yuck), it was actually pretty hot.

Gay guys are fun to be around and I’ve always loved them. My best friend, Rick, is gay and he’s always trying to get me to go to more clubs with him - but there is only one gay bar here (Uncle Elizabeth’s) and it’s dead. All the other gay bars are closed down so we resort to going to straight bars, which is fun cause I tend to entertain myself pretty well — but he gets bored as hell unless he can flirt with other guys.

The only thing hard for me that I still deal with — is how to tell which girls out there are sincerely into women. I find it so annoying when girls see a lesbian and think, “Oh how cool, I’d love to experiment.” Because that just makes me less interested. I’m not an experimental guinea pig that girls can try out to see if they like. It makes me miss San Diego when that happens, cause at least there were tons of girl-loving lesbians out there who were sincere. That’s really the main reason I’ve had a difficult time finding the right lesbian relationship for me. Girls are usually taken. Or frankly, straight. And the ones who DO like me are actually pretty cool. But I don’t feel like breaking hearts because I *am* moving to Vegas, so that’s the reason I haven’t really let myself go. Plus, sex has become a pretty sacred thing for me (other than the unexpected one-night stand with a stripper in Orange County this summer - Watch my Stripclub Confessions video) and it’s not something I take lightly.

I think one of the reasons it turns me on so much to watch guys have sex with each other is because deep down, I’m secretly jealous that they get to have their relationship but I haven’t found mine. The jealousy sparks a taboo interest that goes right to my g-spot. I’m not Freud, I can’t explain it. There’s really nothing stopping me from having mine too, I suppose I just choose not to for the time being. My spiritual awakening in Hawaii has led me to a huge transition point in life and it seems irresponsible to get attached to a girl and then move away. I suppose nothing is stopping me from having my cake and eating it too, but for now - the cake looks really nice on the counter.

Love
Isabella
xoxoxoo

Blog Integration

All my blog entries (from 2003 to present) are now posted on IsabellaValentine.com and my blog can now be read daily on my website simply by clicking “Blog.”

As you all may know, LiveJournal was bought out by another company and now they allow other users to “flag” one another if it’s considered adult-related in content or material. Even “adult concepts” are considered adult. Thankfully, no one has flagged me. However, I’m very “big-picture” and often look to the future to prevent things like that from happening.

That being said, all my entries can now be read on my website. In fact, the entire blog has been integrated into the site, thanks to my tech slave who worked his ass off on it for me for the last week or so. I’ll be testing out the kinks this week and doing some experiments to improve it even more with some cool new plugins.

To protect my tech slave’s privacy, I’ve edited out his name. However, I thought you all might find this part of his email pretty funny:

Goddess, something very embarrassing happened to this slave today that he is still trying to recover from. This slave was at work today supposed to be working on a video. But he instead decided he wanted to do your work, and he spent about 6 hours working on the blog from his job. Well, what he didn’t know, was that the IT department has set the server up sp that they can monitor the sites employees visit during work. So this slave was called in by his supervisor at about 4 and was asked what was he working on. This slave said he was looking online for inspiration for his project, since his deadline is still pretty far away. he thought he could get away with that. Then they showed the sissy page of your site: This was the sissy page

They then pulled up a few more pages from your site and asked him is this the kind of material he looks for to get inspiration. This slave was completely and utterly at a loss for words. This slave told them all he was doing research for a clients site, and apologized for doing personal work on the clock. They wrote this slave a warning and told him if it happens again he may face suspension next time for accessing inappropriate sites at work.

Today had to have been one of he most embarrassing moments slave has ever faced. That page had sissy material written all over it…it’s going to take a while to recover from this..sigh.
Wow…. my tech slave got caught working on my site AT WORK. Not just that, but he got caught looking at sissy stuff!! I feel bad for him, I do. But I must admit, I find it a little humorous that he got caught looking at sissy stuff haha.

Another good thing about the site and its new integration is that now people can register and sign up to be a member of IsabellaValentine.com (free) and post comments to blog entries and ALL other site pages without being a member of LiveJournal. Some comments are screened due to a ridiculous amount of spam (I get approx. 200 comments a day from people trying to put viagara and casino advertisements on my site, so they get automatically put in a queue for moderation).

If you have any questions, feel free to ask.
Right now, we’re working it out so that all comments can be cross-posted from LJ to my site, so bear with us while we upgrade!

A very big thank you to my tech slave for laboring on this special project and for doing it so quickly!

Love
Isabella
xoxoxox

P.S. Two links have been changed on the front page of IsabellaValentine.com so be sure to refresh your page so you get directed to the new place. When working correctly, when you click “Enter” on the front page of the site, you should be taken to this new home page.

Wonderful World

How would you like to watch my latest (free) video? It’s something that began kind of silly cause I carry my camera around with my everywhere and I noticed I’d been adding up video clips for over a month. Combined and carefully edited together, it turned out to be quite the video.

This is my 6th FREE short film in my video blog. So far I’m still doing all my own camera work, but this one almost appears as though someone else is filming it for me. Does it look ok?

I hope you all enjoy it, I’ve titled it “Wonderful World” to match the song playing in the background, performed by the late IZ.

PLAY VIDEO HERE

Love
Isabella
xoxoxo

Brush with fame

I swear I’m not stoned. ;-)
I don’t know why I find it so FUNNY whenever a celebrity writes me an email, which isn’t all that often.

Don’t worry, I’m not going to do celebrity name-droppings, which I find terribly annoying (and frankly, when I see people doing it, I find it to be a desperate attempt to prove they are with the “in crowd”). I have enough security in myself to not name-drop every freaking famous person I’ve had contact. I do just well name-dropping myself, thank you ;)
Do I secretly feel unworthy of receiving letters from famous celebrities? (Notice I said famous, not rich.) It’s certainly not the money that intimidates me, because I’ve got clients who make 10-figure incomes and feel totally natural around them. But for some reason, fame makes me laugh. It seems so superficial, but yet - it is a very real world for some people. Or perhaps it’s only in my perception that they’re famous, when they don’t think they are.

Do I laugh cause I wonder if it’s really him/her? Possibly. I’ve been fooled before by imposters. But then again, I’ve asked some people to verify their identities in shocking ways (like saying a certain word on tv), and then I feel THEY’VE had the last laugh. I suppose it’s my own private game. When they DO verify their identities, I start laughing hysterically (why do I DO that?)….

Or maybe I laugh because I “know” who they are. But that makes me laugh even more because there are so many people who think they “know” who I am and then it just sends me into this vicious cycle of just what fame is. What is fame? What is it not? And how do you know? What do you need to know to not know this? Grr.

Or do I laugh cause I know their secrets and must keep it to myself? Could be. I still laugh my ass off thinking of a certain politician wearing diapers, who stopped calling me when I started working at Niteflirt (cause we couldn’t do calls about adult babies). And oooohhh I’ve got incriminating evidence on so many people. (I often feel like the hypno version of Heidi Fleiss, to tell you the truth.) I know I might regret saying this later, but I often fantasize about the government finding my little black book (which I don’t really have, it’s just a figure of speech), and tracking down my kinky customers and saying, “Is it true you had THIS fantasy with Isabella Valentine?”

Or maybe I laugh because I’m dreadfully nervous of being around them? A nervous laugh perhaps. I have no idea. Kind of like the time I went to an LA bar and played pool with an A-list actor where I nervously laughed so much that all I could think about was how ridiculous I must have sounded.

I swear, I can’t stop laughing. And it’s killing me cause it would be SO wrong to tell you WHO wrote me and what they shared with me.

*bangs head*

I will stop. I am annoying MYSELF at this point with all the laughing.

Love
Isabella
xoxoxo

P.S. I feel really weird re-reading this entry. I know it sounds stupid. Funny thing is, I don’t care. (There goes the word funny again.)






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