October 30th was the day I arrived in Kona, Hawaii. Twenty-one days later, I left the island a completely rejuvenated person. I’ve rarely talked about the overall experiences I had while I was there (in my journal), but in my home life, people have been saying, “Wow you are so different now that you’ve returned. I love this new you.”
It’s kind of weird cause even *I* notice a change. I even talk differently. I’m more considerate of others instead of myself. A lot of this was because I discovered so much about myself (what an egotistical, miscommunicating, selfish bitch I had become) and met some people who rubbed off on me in very good ways. And ironically, I helped them too cause I ended up giving my friends just a little bit of my own traits that THEY needed to make THEMSELVES better as people. We all seemed to give a part of ourselves to others and take the traits we wanted from others and use it within ourselves. I made over a dozen friends that I’ll be staying in contact (hopefully for the rest of my life) and even today, we still talk about our transition from our experience in Hawaii to our home lives. I feel like I’ve done a complete 180. It probably doesn’t show in my journal (or maybe it does, I don’t know) or in my recordings… but in my personal life - it seems as if the whole world has changed because MY OWN PERSPECTIVE on life has changed. I’ve found how wonderful it is just to be AROUND others, instead of avoiding them.
Ironically, one of my customers said to me, “Who are you and what have you done to Isabella?” And he said he wanted the old Isabella back. You know what? People evolve. People grow. People improve. I’d like to think I’m the same Isabella, only enhanced, more empowered, and ready to take on the world. I’m still just as kinky - and the kinky recordings will come… the only difference is that I might be talking about latex instead of leather.
On an unrelated note, it’s a fabulous feeling to all of a sudden be pursued by three different women. I love being “the pursued” instead of “the pursuer.” Damn this feels good. And the thing is, I’m equally as happy being alone as I am with a partner. No matter what happens, I like where I am in my life.
Here’s some photos taken in front of a light reflecting yellow that was a neat little photoshoot.
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Love
Isabella
xoxoxo
nice words and pics
you do seem calmer, more centred and stronger. In the past some of your strength and ego seemed a little brittle to me. I sense the power to be more solid in you now and less based on rhetoric. Three women? tell us more
That last one is an amazing new angle for you! I hope to see you utilize that one more more!