Archive for March, 2008

Intimacy

Published on March 31, 2008 in Journal posts. 1 Comment

Mediation and hypnosis helps a lot when it comes to finding and fulfilling self-love and self-approval. It’s a beautiful feeling to transcend oneness and become part of the “nothingness” of energy that is absolutely defiant of words.

Words can never express how deeply and how madly I want to find and keep love… one that transcends sex and mortality. Last night I experienced an out-of-body experience that gave me new clarity. I sought, I knocked and asked, and now I am to receive. I am ready to receive (am I?).

It really would have been nice to have cuddled with someone last night. Nothing is more intimate (to me) than waking up next to a body of a cherished loved one. I want that. Today I am starting a personal dreambook of the kind of relationship I am manifesting. It’s sort of a personal convincer. My 3 simultaneous dream relationships involve: an equal Goddess lesbian relationship with a woman who is intellectually and stimulatingly on my level with the knowledge of hypnosis and NLP which can be brought into our bedroom; one who is mutually attracted to me on a physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual level. Relationship number two is with a submissive or slave girl who loves and adores me and lets me care for her and protect her - who responds to my hypnosis and NLP and craves my words, my touch, my love; who accepts punishments and longs for my rewards. And relationship number three is a strong slave boy who can balance the abilities to initiate loving acts of giving (without me asking), respond and act diligently and lovingly to any commands given, and loves my need to be bossy and when necessary, readily agrees to be personally humiliated for my personal amusement.

All three relationships are ones I want to have at the very same time. That is my dream family. My lesbian Goddess and I will equally share our two slaves (one boy, one girl). That is the blueprint of my energy… it’s laid out and waiting for me. The webs are beginning to form. It’s happening.

In the meantime, I really just want to find a cuddle partner. I miss having someone to hug.

Love
Isabella
xoxooxxo

Funny lines

Published on March 29, 2008 in Journal posts. 0 Comments

One of my customers surprised me with a book from my wishlist called the “Comedy Thesaurus” and I’ve been reading it like a madman because it’s just FILLED with awesome quotes from the world’s best comedians with every topic imaginable. Here are some funny lines:

If homosexuality is a disease, let’s all call in queer to work. “Hello, can’t work today. Still queer.” – Robin Tyler

Homophobia: The irrational fear that three fags will break into your house and redecorate it against your will. – Tom Ammiano

The heterosexuals who hate us should stop having us. – Lynda Montgomery

Some men are heterosexual and some men are bisexual and some men don’t think about sex at all… you know, they become lawyers. – Woody Allen

I’m a quadrasexual. That means I’ll do anything for a quarter. – Ed Bluestone

Lots of people think bisexual means cowardly lesbian. – Sandra Bernhard

Bisexuals are incredibly greedy motherfuckers. Get off the fence and pick a hole. – Dennis Miller

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And here’s a religious joke I thought was kinda funny by Emo Phillips:

I was walking across a bridge one day, and I saw a man standing on the edge, about to jump off. So I ran over and said, “Stop! Don’t do it! There’s so much to live for!”
He said, “Like what?”
I said, “Well, are you religious or athiest?”
“Religious.”
I said, “Me too! Are you Christian or Buddhist?”
“Christian.”
I said, “Me too! Are you Catholic or Protestant?”
“Protestant.”
I said, “Me too! Are you Episcopalian or Baptist?”
“Baptist.”
I said, “Wow! Me too! Are you Baptist Church of God or Baptist Church of the Lord?”
“Baptist Church of God.”
I said, “Me too! Are you original Baptist Church of God, or are you Reformed Baptist Church of God?”
“Reformed Baptist Church of God.”
I said, “Me too! Are you Reformed Baptist Church of God, Reformation of 1879, or Reformed Baptist Church of God, Reformation of 1915?”
He said, “Reformed Baptist Church of God, Reformation of 1915,” I said, “Die, heretic scum,” and pushed him off.
—

Love
Isabella
xoxooxox

Poison I.V. preview

Published on March 29, 2008 in Journal posts. 2 Comments

Today Aristide Franco (aka Dario) and I filmed our hypnotic version of Poison Ivy (titled “Poison I.V.” to symbolize my initials) with two different video cameras to offer different angles of the same shots. I’m so excited to be able to edit something like this on such a big scale. It should take approximately 1-2 weeks until completion, and I trust it’ll be worth the wait.

Here are a couple shots taken during the video shoot. Just a small preview ;)

Poison I.V. - Isabella Valentine 2

Poison I.V. - Isabella Valentine 1

Questions from the audience

Published on March 27, 2008 in Journal posts. 0 Comments

It’s been a long while now since I did a blog entry based on email-submitted questions. Figured I’d do it again since I recently took a photo that actually answered one of the questions hehe.

Email #1
“You seem like a cool person and it’s nice to run across someone who is so personal in their blog. I’m amazed at the amount of people that send you gifts and things. If I could afford it, maybe I would too. You often show photos of things people have sent you and on your site you have a wishlist, but I’m actually curious what YOU buy with your money (not the gifts people get FOR you). With all the money you make, what does most of your money go towards? I don’t reckon you’re into girly stuff, are you?”

My response:
“Mostly books, bookshelves, and more books. And paying off my credit card which usually is for traveling. Books and traveling. I read a lot, whether at home, on the plane, or on the road, or in a hotel. I read so much, that I often run out of bookshelves, so I like to invest in really nice matching bookshelves so I can sort books by category. I recently turned my closet into a library of bookshelves - even removed the doors to the closet so it’s completely accessible directly from the wall!”

Here are photos of my closet-turned-library (and there’s more where that came from):

Isabella Valentine - personal library

Email #2
“For a woman like you who seems rather invincible, I’m curious if you have any fears. Does anything scare you? Probably not, since you’re a hypnotist and can ‘cure’ yourself, but I’m just curious.”

My response:
“For many years, I had a fear of germs, bridges, spiders, needles, failure, imperfection, and an array of unwarranted fears. Went I went to Newport Beach in July of last year for an NLP seminar, some simple reframing from other NLP practitioners helped me view my so-called fears from different angles. And when I went to Hawaii in November for Master NLP training, my fear of failure went away with my breakthrough (a load off my shoulders). Now I’m not afraid of those things. I try not to use the word ‘fear’ anymore because that implies being afraid. I now LOVE the idea of a challenge and feel wonderful taking on new feats. I suppose one challenge that I’m still working on is the idea of dying alone and forgotten. No one wants to die and be forgotten, I suppose. So the way I reframe it in my head is that I want to spend my life doing things for others so not only will I be remembered, but I’ll always have close friends who will be there for me when I need them.”

Email #3
“Yeah Ive been lookin for the whole hypnosis experience for a while now, but while you are a seductive person you’ve only reinforced my personal idea that its just totally fakery which has been aided and abetted by those wishing to be hypnotised so bad that they would believe you if you lit two candles and said the words “thats right.” Its kinda annoying but whatever, what can you personally do? I mean you’re obviously just making to gain an easy cheque or 8 hundred. Hypnotism is obviously not real so I’ll just go ahead an continue going after more realistic women.”

My response:
“You want to go after more realistic women? It doesn’t get more human than this. Do I REALLY come off as someone anti-human and unrealistic? I’ve often been told I’m TOO personal in my journal… so your comment comes as a surprise to me. To each their own. Your question was, ‘what can you personally do’? And I’m curious what exactly you mean. That actually makes no sense to me. Personally… I watch American Idol, have fun with friends, hang out at home, shop at new age stores, pet the cat, um… what else? Er. I also do hypnosis. If you don’t like hypnosis (or specifically, my technique), then that’s ok. Different strokes for different folks, but don’t attack my realistic-ness. That’s below the belt cause this 100-lb overweight Goddess is more realistic than any plastic celebrity that’s on reality tv today.”

Email #4
“Don’t you ever worry about stalkers? You write about yourself all the time: places you go, people you see, restaurants you dine at, and even show photos of your house. I’m glad you’re so open, but sometimes I worry about you. Do you ever worry about your own safety?”

My response:
“Thanks for your concern and for your question. When I lived in San Diego, I battled two or three stalkers who made my life a living hell, so I’ve definitely been through that before. You’d think I’d learned my lesson, huh? I suppose in a perfect world, I’d be able to post everything about my life and never have to worry about my personal safety, but we all know there is a risk involved. It’s a risk I’m willing to take. I’m sort of obsessed with my blog, writing about my life, picture taking, story telling, life commenting… it’s all something that makes me feel good to continue expressing. Getting stalkers IS a risk and I’m well aware of what can happen in that event. The good news is that living in Bloomington, I live a little bit out of the limelight and because I no longer am an urban city girl, there’s less likelihood of running into fans, strange obsessive stalkers, or people who recognize me. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve been recognized out here a few times, but it’s on a smaller scale that I can definitely handle. My house has a killer security system and my boxing skills have gotten good enough to defend myself against even the buffiest of attackers. I refuse to live my life in fear. What happens, happens. But one thing is for sure… writing in my blog, even writing this very response… is therapeutic for me. If I don’t write about my life, I often feel like a time bomb waiting to explode. Once it’s written, I feel I can breathe again and go on with my day. I’ve kept daily journals since I received my first diary when I turned ten years old. I’ve been writing in journals (whether in a book or online) for seventeen years now… so writing in blogs is sorta ingrained in me at this point.”

Email #5:
I have a need to tell you that I have spent thousands of dollars on phone sex, BUT I have never felt someone CONNECT with me and my inner DEMONS (Fantasies) like you just did! I LOVED BOTH of your voices and will NEVER find something this erotic again….you could charge $5K for this recording and it would be a bargain for someone with my fantasies (denial of reality)…I have experienced things and have been afraid of them until now…it’s like you were there with me!!!! PLEASE let me know how I can make YOUR Life better and I will!!!! 

My response:
“I’m glad you liked the recording(s) you received. Which one(s) are you referring to? You wanted to know how you can make my life better? Hmmm… good question. I had to think about this one long and hard. I suppose the one way you could make MY life better is if you listened to something of mine or read something I’ve written and then gained an epiphany from it so you could spread your learned knowledge to those around you. To me, the value of spreading knowledge that far exceeds anything financial and can impact people indirectly for thousands of years if spread the right way.”

Ok, that’s enough for now. I don’t think I’ll answer the email where someone asked if I was Satan. Which, by the way, if I was, I’d state so proudly - cause at least he/she/it knows the answer to how big the universe actually is and has seen it form since the beginning - not to mention, he/she/it used to be best friends with the bearded man in the sky if you believe in dogma.

Love
Isabella
xoxooxo

Space and the Endeavor

Published on March 27, 2008 in Journal posts. 0 Comments

I’ve been blown away this week and oh so proud of humanity’s accomplishment to go up to the International Space Station (what was it, 16 days?) to install Japan’s contribution to the station. I’m continually amazed, astounded, and in complete awe (adjectives are underrated at this point) at what we continue to accomplish in space.

Perhaps I don’t talk about my space obsession very often in my blog, but those who know me in real life often comment that I’m overly-obsessed with the universe, space, solar system… galaxies, stars… in general. It’s like… an infinite topic for me. When I created the recordings Zero Gravity 1 and 2, I finally combined my knowledge of science and the universe with erotic hypnosis for something really creative. Expect many more in the future dealing with space and hypnosis ;)

Anyway the main reason I’m writing is actually involving the International Space Station. I want to see it. I know I’ll never get the opportunity to go up in the sky (at least not in my mortal lifetime) and reach out and touch it… but I absolutely want to look at it from my home. I’ve had previous telescopes in the past, but none of them were on the grand scale to see something like that, and I know the timing and coordinates have to be just right. From my house in Bloomington, Indiana, I have windows of opportunity ranging from less than one minute to almost 6 minutes of “window opportunity” to see it from a telescope. I’m curious if any of you have had the pleasure of seeing the International Space Station from your telescopes, and if so… what model and brand would you recommend? Obviously, I need a good telescope (to see all the amazing things in the sky besides the Station), and telescopes can range from $30 to millions of dollars, depending on how far you want to see. I’d like to spend NO MORE than $2,000 for a nice telescope and want to get the highest value I can for that price. If anyone has any suggestions, please let me know.

And for those of YOU who want to see the International Space Station in the sky (almost any night of the week), here is the Station Sighting chart which will give you dates and times based on your city and state. If you get a chance to see it any time soon, I’d love to hear your thoughts on it. Could you see it with the naked eye? Did you need a low-powered telescope or a high-res one? How big did it appear to you? Could you make out any details or did it look like a dot?

Please tell! Obsessive minds want to know :)

Oh yeah, before I forget…. did you know that there are literally, diamonds in the sky? They’re about 25,000 times smaller than a diamond in an engagement ring… but the carbon found in meteorites came in the form of nanodiamonds? How spectacular!!!! I’ve said it before, and I’ll say it again. When I die, I want to be cremated and have my remains sent off into deep space (it’s called “deep space cremation service“). It’ll cost me $12,500 to have that dream become reality, and I can’t afford it right now, but that money will certainly be saved up for that to come true. I want my energy in deep space when I die so that I can drift for millions of years and become part of space-time and spiral myself into various planets and become one with the creation of a new place.

Love
Isabella
xoxoxoxo

P.S. In 20 more years, we’ll get to see a giant asteriod with the naked eye; one that is so big, it could be catastrophic for the whole planet and wipe out civilization completely! Fortunately for us, it will miss earth by 33,000 miles so we all get to live. But in 800 years, we probably won’t be so lucky.

Isabella and Amy

Published on March 27, 2008 in Journal posts. 1 Comment

Well today Amy and I went out for lunch at a vegetarian restaurant called Roots (probably my favorite restaurant in Bloomington) and then went shopping at a new age store and a hippie shop, then went to our mutual friend Dario’s house. Dario wasn’t home so we just sorta snuck in his place and snooped around a bit since the door was open. hehe.

While at a new age store called Athena, I bought her a silver ring with an amethyst stone (her favorite), then bought a similar one for myself. I guess you could say she and I have matching rings now. LOL It’s funny cause I’ve heard so many lesbian jokes about first dates and moving in together, that it just makes me laugh that the two of us having matching rings on the first date. The way I see it, it’s just a ring. Sure, there may be some sentimental value since I bought it for her, but it’d be crazy to assume it actually means something else. We barely know each other, after all. She and I are just really amazing friends who just like each other a helluva lot. It’s not like we’re in a relationship. We just… went out. What happens happens and what doesn’t, doesn’t. She’s coming over to my place on Saturday and we’ll see each other soon. Tonight she called me and asked if I had a crush on her and I was like, “Uh… crush is a strong word…” and we both laughed and agreed we like each other. I really dig her. We had lovely conversation about animal cruelty & rights, vegetarianism, conservation, human rights in China, pollution, politics, activism, the news, etc…. all the stuff I pretty much love to talk about. Perhaps she may become a “friend with benefits” - who knows. Neither of us have ever been in serious relationships with other women, but we both love pussy. We’ll see where it goes from here ;)

Amy and Isabella dining at Roots

Isabella Valentine and Amy

another photo of Amy and Isabella

Isabella Valentine and Amy

Love
Isabella
xoxoxox

Dressup

Published on March 26, 2008 in Journal posts. 0 Comments

Let’s see… what’s going on in my life. Hmmm… Well, slave maurice went back home to pursue animation school… and my submissive friend, Jenni, is moving in on April 1st. She’s agreed to do hypnosis recordings and videos with me to let me hypnotize her for the site, so be prepared to see some two-girl stuff from the two of us!  It’ll be nice having a hot girl live with me :)

Also, in about… eh… 15 minutes I have to leave cause I have a date with Amy. Well, I don’t know if it’s a “date” per se, I didn’t officially say the word date… but I think I implied it. We’re going out for food, maybe movie, maybe more. It’s so weird when it comes to dating cause you never know when it’s officially dating. I mean, I’ve snuggled with her a bit and have had a few intimate moments with her before… but never really called it anything. Today we’ll see if we have chemistry in the dating arena. I don’t even know if she’s submissive. Guess we’ll find out! She’s absolutely adorable.

On Friday, my friend Dario is coming over to help me film a hypnosis video where I will portray Poison Ivy from Batman. He’ll be directing… and hopefully I’ll be able to convince some friends to come over and help me out with makeup. I’ve got some latex makeup and stuff I’ll be wearing which should enhance the hypnotic experience. After shooting, I’ve got to email the raw video to slave maurice so he can add some hypnotic effects on video (stuff too complicated for me to do) so that it will appear as though I have pink pheremones (sp?) oozing from my mouth and hands in a cloud-like mist. It should take about a week before finalization.

And I’m working on a custom mp3 this week for a special customer, so I’ve got my hands full at the moment.

Still waiting on the high school transcript…. it’s like watching water boil. *sigh*

My friend Wayne is coming to my place on Saturday night for the “Next Saturday” party and it’ll be such a treat to see him again. Haven’t seen him since I was in Hawaii. I miss him so much… he was greatly responsible for my positive transformation that you all have seen in me since November. I just wanna hug him and squeeze him hehe.

And here is a ridiculous amount of dressup items I’ll be using in the upcoming weeks for videos and photoshoots. Several customers helped contribute to this… and also several pieces of jewelry (mostly rings), board games, books, and other things… which are not pictured below. Thank you ALL for being so generous! I truly am blown away by all this stuff :)

Eyelashes — to make my eyes smashing :)

Dressup 1

Pantyhose and tights…. for all those fetishists out there

Dressup 2

Latex makeup, costume makeup, and body jewelry

Dressup 3

Love
Isabella
xoxoxox

Erotic Hypnosis MP3: Jackpot - No Hands

Published on March 22, 2008 in Journal posts. 3 Comments

Erotic Hypnosis MP3: Jackpot - No Hands

You all have asked for it and here it is! Many people have asked me to make an erotic hypnosis recording designed to make you cum without touching yourself. The wait is finally over!

This hypnosis mp3 was created for all genders, so anyone can appreciate this and get a great experience out of this. One of the reasons I hesitated on making this recording is because I suspect there will be some people who might get aggravated if they don’t achieve ejaculation the very first time. If that happens, then challenge yourself to keep trying. Before I begin describing this recording, please understand that hypnosis takes practice and this type of trance involving no-hands ejaculation will INDEED take a lot of practice on YOUR part.

Some people will listen to this mp3 and ejaculate the VERY FIRST TIME without touching themselves, which is great! And there will be other people who may have to listen every night for several weeks before their mind is programmed to follow through with such a command. It all depends on your body’s ability to accept trance for what it is, and your enthusiasm to actually obey and just do it! If you want this to work, then it is important that you come into this with an open mind and let go of all your expectations and resistance. When you do, you’ll see the results instantly!

The special thing about this recording is that it is entirely hands-free. That means at NO point will you be instructed to rub something, grind something, or hump something against yourself. You will ejaculate or cum using the power of your own mind. That’s the beauty of hypnosis. Your brain can make you cum instantly under the right circumstances so that you feel wonderful!

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Presidential nominees

Published on March 19, 2008 in Journal posts. 0 Comments

I suspect that this blog entry may turn some people away, and if so, so be it. However, I take pride in treating my blog as a personal diary, not just a commercial venue. So I’m about to discuss a political matter and if it’s not something you care to read… be forewarned the contents within contain personal political opinions.

This week Barack Obama came to my state of Indiana and spoke at a highschool. I didn’t go cause I didn’t hear any news about it until AFTER the fact. I really would have liked to hear him speak in person. I’ve been impressed with some of the video speeches on his site and want to listen as an audience member. Also later this week (tomorrow I think is the official day), Hillary Clinton will come to Indiana as well and so far I haven’t found any announcements made regarding when and where she will be speaking. I’d really like to know! It’s not even on her website, yet she has a banner saying “Indiana for Hillary.” - hmmm…

Anyway, I try to stay away from politics in my blog for obvious reasons, however the reason I’m writing is because Bill Clinton, politicians, and several newscasters have stated that if Hillary wins Indiana, SHE will be the next president. If Obama wins Indiana, HE could be the next president.

Who would have thought that this would all boil down to Indiana? And it’s where I live!

I’m still undecided though. All candidates (even McCain) have many positive qualities as well as some negative ones. Frankly, I’m disappointed that none of them have tackled the issues of animal rights or anti-torture in the food business. One reason I wanted to go to hear them live is because many times, they take questions from the audience and will answer it on the spot. I want to know how they feel about the issue of animal rights. Do they have any provisions to regulate or prevent the current animal cruelty going on right now? All I know is that Hillary (in the past) has backed up organizations that utilized animal cruelty. In fact, she’s often been nicknamed “Hen-Heck Hillary” due to her downright ignorance of what happens to animals. And Obama has flat-out supported hunting and gaming and wants to designate government-funded hunting areas, which as you know, involves the shooting and hurting of animals - many of whom don’t die with just one shot. I don’t know McCain’s stance on this - I just know that I disagree with his support of the war. All three of those candidates have a lot they could offer the country… but at this point, I THINK I’m leaning toward Obama. I keep changing my mind, because many times I’ll hear a new speech from someone that will make me lean towards or away from them, depending on the content. Why doesn’t anyone care about animal rights? Why don’t politicians find it important? I’ve written all three camps personal letters asking for their opinions on this matter in hopes that they’ll AT LEAST make a public statement regarding their position, but so far… nothing from their corners but silence.

Animal rights are important. I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again… it’s NOT that I’m against the killing of animals. I’m against the TORTURE of animals. No one, whether human or animal, should ever be tortured - whether for food, fashion, or furniture. It’s disgusting that politicians haven’t so much as batted an eyelash to this crucial issue.

As far as health care goes, both Obama and Clinton have fabulous options. Personally, I’m ok with either health care plan AS LONG AS people can be automatically covered, especially those with pre-existing conditions. I remember when I weighed my heaviest, topping over 300 lbs, many health insurance companies wouldn’t cover me. And many of my friends have health problems which often go untreated due to their lack of health insurance. It breaks my heart that pre-existing conditions aren’t covered. If EITHER candidate supports a health insurance program or can begin a mandated regulation that requires insurance companies to accept EVERYBODY, then count me in. I know Clinton is for forcing the health care issue, and in my shoes, think it’s a fabulous idea. However, there are millions of financially challenged people who aren’t nearly as fortunate to afford such a thing. So that leave’s Obama. Can he lead America to really change the current situation? Maybe. Maybe not. He keeps talking about change, change, change. I like action, not words. And often times, politicians say all the things they need to say to get likability and win popularity contests, but when push comes to shove, will they be able to do what they promised?

It all boils down to our state in Indiana. If the decision would be left up to ME, I’m about as split in the middle as the rest of the world. I mean sure, who WOULDN’T want a DOMINANT WOMAN as president? If Hillary won, I’d be ecstatic just cause she’s a woman and women rule. But this isn’t a race about gender. And who WOULDN’T want an INTELLIGENT, CHARMING MAN to be president… sure much better than the idiot we have in office right now. And McCain has a positive side too, if you discount the fact he’s older than my grandfather and he has a violent temper tantrum. McCain was one of those cool congressmen who would often vote bipartisanly and was one of the 7 split vote guys. That shows he doesn’t just vote based on party lines. However, that alone isn’t enough to make someone fit to be president. So much more is involved and many of the issues he tackles are just off base. I am WAITING to see if any of the candidates will speak out against animal cruelty. When or if they do, they’ll have my vote. Until then, I’m disappointed in all of them and don’t see the point of voting at all. I’ve voted in every election since my 18th birthday, and this year I’d like to do it again, but I need to know I’ve made the right choice.

Love
Isabella
xoxooxox

Cat person

Published on March 12, 2008 in Journal posts. 0 Comments

It’s funny when people ask, “So are you a dog person or a cat person?” And it boggles my mind. It’s almost as if they assume that there are only two animals in the entire world, excluding koalas, tigers, lions, giraffes, elephants, etc. And what exactly does “dog person” mean? That we’re half animal, half human? Don’t get me wrong, I understand the concept. People basically want to know which you prefer: cats or dogs. But even then, that’s assuming that there’s only two pets to choose from: what about rabbits, gerbils, ferrets, wolves, or horses? Why must it come down to JUST cats or dogs? I’ve owned cats… and I’ve owned dogs. Both are wonderful companions and I can see why some prefer one over the other. I must admit though, I’ve always preferred the feline species over k9. Cats have been a part of my life since early childhood. Many scars on my body are BECAUSE of cats, and I STILL love them more than dogs. It is rather confusing when people tell me they AREN’T a cat person. Two things go through my head: #1… have you met John Holmes the Porn Cat? And #2… no shit you’re not a cat person. You’re a human person.

Anyway… here’s a photo taken today of Johnny and me.

Isabella Valentine and John Holmes the Porn Cat

Long live the cat Goddess: Baste.

Love
Isabella
xoxoxoxo

Orgasmic energy

Published on March 10, 2008 in Journal posts. 0 Comments

Every Saturday night (for the last 2 months or so) I’ve been hanging out with my friends for a beautiful, energetic get-together in which we call “Next Saturday.” It’s called Next Saturday because we like the idea of Saturday continuing to infinity and beyond. It’s every Saturday, not every other… however, the title sort of explains our obsession with infinite possibilities.

Some Next Saturdays are more intense than others, and last night was beyond phenomenal. Last night was one of the most… amazing… sexy… spiritual, and orgasmic experiences of my life. I’m running out of adjectives and those don’t even do it justice. I suppose it could have been described as cerebral, considering I became very intimate with the scientific theories of Stephen Hawking… I suppose it even could have been described as somewhat hilarious, considering I couldn’t stop laughing at the silliest of things, and my body would react to every word said to me. Words cannot express what I experienced and how it has impacted me. I spent who-knows-how many hours convulsing in these shockwaves of unexplained orgasmic pleasure. It was like I could see this white ball of light above my forehead and my muscles would spasm uncontrollably as the light would become more and more intense. My stomach, this morning, is surprisingly sore. It feels like I’ve done 5000 situps, which I kind of did, due to those energy spasms. I remember visualizing an electric ball of burning light on the edge of my fingertips and it became so intense that when my fingers touched another person, I would feel these shocks (I remember feeling shocks very similar to static) within my body and it would shoot out of me from my stomach to the top of my head. I’m feeling a little dizzy today… but ohhh so good. It had NEVER felt so wonderful feeling hands on my body. Men… women… genderless love. It was a spiritually humbling experience to interact with their hands… loving… tender hands… filled with galvanizing energy. I touched the “connection to source” so strong, that the muscles in my body would immediately react to each and every feeling around me. I felt love in a completely new way. I’ve felt this before… but last night… it became quite more intense. I must say… I don’t recall ever orgasming for that many people as they watched me. I literally had no control. Oh I fucking loved it. I wanna do it again. *melts* I am in heaven. Don’t pinch me. Leave me here. I’ve never felt so at peace.

There were moments that left me thinking about knowledge. At what point does a person learn all they need to learn in life? Just how many of US are there in the universe who all think and learn the same things and what happens when we all apply the knowledge differently to experience oneness? Is oneness different for each person, or is there a universal conversation in which once you fall into it, you begin to spin, turn, and feel held by billions of energetic entities. I felt as if I was flowing with a universal presence, being pulled into a giant spiral of golden white light representing oneness. It had the force of a black hole as it sucked me into it… and yet… had the gentleness of the softest lips, whispers, touches. I was touched so deeply last night… physically, mentally, spiritually. I absolutely CANNOT for the life of me imagine ANYTHING stronger or more powerful than the experience of undeniable infinity that I experienced last night. I learned that a person cannot have “too much love” and therefore abundance of positivity can only be intensified with the right people. I know it sounds SO weird to say this, but I feel like I’ve pre-met all my friends. That somehow I met them in the future, to tell them to meet me in the past… and they’re all here in the present. It’s like I created them to know me. I feel as though on some cosmic level, I’m learning how to work with magic and manifestation to really make things happen to completion. Last night… and this is what was so amazing to me… I feel as though I finally manifested the spiritual oneness I always envisioned.

On another note… there’s something else I’ve been secretly wanting to experience. Suppose it won’t be secret anymore as I type this out. I’m drawn to the idea of being in love with and having sex a woman (no big surprise there) who feels a deep connection with me. The catch is… I want a man who loves and/or admires both of us to be in the bed with us. I haven’t pictured myself having sex with him in my dreams, but I love the idea of being held by him while watching her fuck him while she looks at me. I can’t explain it. Last night, when I experienced the genderless oneness experience, I somehow found the ball of light that separates men from women… and in a cognitive sense, it felt as if I was spinning in and out of the ball and so many genders were shooting out from all ends of it like rays of light. I sound like a crazy person, I know. But for me… this was very real and I’ll remember it for the rest of my life.

By the way, if any of you saw the free video blog to “Party with Isabella” then you may recall seeing some of my Next Saturday friends within the video (with their permission of course). We try to keep fairly private with what we do during these parties, so it really depends on people’s personal preferences whether or not a video camera is introduced during our play. I’ll ask and see if any of them would be willing to be filmed on video (or at least hold the camera) so you could see what goes on during our unpredictable time.

Love
Isabella
xoxoxoox

Erotic Hypnosis MP3: Resist or Surrender

Published on March 7, 2008 in Journal posts. 0 Comments

Erotic Hypnosis MP3: Resist or Surrender

Isabella Valentine and special guest hypnotist Nikki Fatale collaborate for this sensual tag-team hypnosis recording.

In this session, Isabella and Nikki use their known specialties to help you fall into a trance. Isabella, often known for using reverse psychology to induce trance, uses Her skills of brain trickery and mind manipulation to urge you to “resist” (which We both know you can’t). Nikki, on the other hand, uses Her vocal seduction, encouraging relaxation and surrender, to help you forget everything as you and gently fall into a deep sleep.

When you combine Isabella’s hypnotic psychology and Nikki’s come-hither skills, it’s perfectly natural to expect the unexpected. Will you listen to Nikki as she tells you to succumb to Her spell… or will you listen to Isabella as she commands you to resist her and accept a mental challenge! Either way, you belong to US now.

Recording includes:
Erotic hypnosis, submission, mild slavery, objectification, mind control, mind fuck, mind manipulation, brain trickery, reverse psychology, sweet seduction, brief kneel bowing, learning to lose control, breakdown of resistance, human-to-water breakdown, being rendered helpless, arousing triggers, and a vibration orgasm command at the end.

Note: It would be highly advised to drink LOTS of water prior to session and be in a place where you can use your floor for proper kneeling.

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Drumroll please….

Published on March 6, 2008 in Journal posts. 0 Comments

Without further ado, I’d like to make known that hypnotist Nikki Fatale of HypnoFantasy is currently at my house! She’ll be here all weekend and to make our time together even more fabulous, she brought along her slave boy for some good times. So… Nikki + her boy… and Me + slave m…. all together under one roof…. oh wow. It doesn’t happen very often that I become speechless, and this is one of those times I find myself tongue-tied more than usual. I’ve had such a crush on Nikki since the first day I was introduced to her and here we are … together.

I accidentally walked in on her naked in MY bathtub this morning and ever since then, my brain has turned to mush. I want her in every sexual way possible right now. Now, just gotta work on my charisma so it’ll lead us into the bedroom together.

One thing is for sure, we’re recording a dual tag-team hypnosis recording TONIGHT, and we’ll release the finished product first thing TOMORROW.

Words cannot explain what is going on through my head right now. I suppose most under-rated emotions I’m feeling right now are: horny, aroused, excited, nervous, anxious, happy, ecstatic, nauseus (in a good way), and aaaahhhhhhhh (if that’s an emotion) and all those feelings you get when you’re about to go on stage for the first time in front of a crowd of people.

Love
Isabella
xoxoxox

P.S. If you want to peek at the two of us teasing each other during our time together, check out this thread on Inraptured. I’m sure we’ll be adding to it while she’s still here.

High school and college

Published on March 4, 2008 in Journal posts. 1 Comment

Today I registered to attend Indiana University. Woohoo! Registration done, fee sent. Now I just have to wait 3-6 weeks for approval. I’ve already filled out a request for my college transcript, just need to mail it off. The only thing I’m waiting on is my high school transcript. I called the high school and told them I graduated ten years ago and the lady said to me, “I’m not sure if we still keep transcripts after that long. I’ll have to check on that and call you back.” What? How is this even a possibility? I would think every high school keeps transcripts from every single year. How could they NOT have it? Isn’t that sort of proof I even attended at all? So I’m awaiting that call back and have my fingers crossed that they have it and that everything will go smoothly. Indiana University normally doesn’t need high school transcripts, but in my case (because I have 21 credits, and the minimum needed on college transcripts is 26), I’ll need to send in transcripts from high school and college.

In other news, my 10-year high school reunion is coming up in June or July. I’m still contemplating whether I’ll go or not. I made some good friends there (it was a magnet high school, so it was quite unconventional), but I sure have changed a lot since graduation. One thing people may not know about me is that back in high school, I was a Christian freak. I wore Christian shirts with salvation slogans, carried a Bible to class every day, and was a member of the Fellowship of Christian Students. I was close-minded and bigoted and called gay people faggots and every other slur under the sun. I was mentioned more in my senior yearbook than any other student which I thought ironic considered I felt rather unlikeable. Students remembered me because of my background as a school journalist (Opinion Editor) and the school’s literary magazine (Editor-in-Chief), so I often cruised the campus with a pad and pen asking students and faculty specific (and often personal) questions in-relation to articles. I was the one CONSTANTLY picking people’s brains so I could write new articles for the paper. It didn’t matter if someone had never personally met me before, if they attended that school, they at least knew about me. When it came to surveys, polls, and getting anonymous student/faculty input, many people either ran to me or away from me. It was a unique time period for me. I loved my high school years, but I sure would have done things differently.

Most of my high school friends would shit a brick if they knew I came out of the closet. Me: the previously conservative finger-pointing editor who everyone knew was secretly gay…. now currently working in the adult sex and hypnosis industry as a proud and open lesbian. I can see their faces and hear their responses right now. “I knew it! I knew you were into girls.” or “Haha… we knew before you knew!” or “I can’t believe you have naked women tattooed on your back. What are you trying to prove?” or “You do WHAT for a living?” or “You’re kidding right? Who are you?”

I suppose if I go, I fear some sort of backlash and laughter for my previous behavior. I do, however, feel comfortable giving people due apologies. A few weeks ago, I sent a sincere apology via email to a teacher whom I offended with gay slurs. I even shared with her that I am currently a gay-rights activist and have spent the last 5 years of my life fighting for the rights of all couples and human beings, regardless of their orientation. It took nearly ten years to track her down. Received no response. Guess I had that much of an effect, huh?

It’s hard to believe how far I’ve come. For those who knew me then, they could never in a million years see me being a professional dominatrix doing erotic hypnosis or working in the sex industry. And they’d guess even less that I’m currently a vegan, animal-rights activist, human-rights activist, gay-rights activist, and am a member of over a dozen liberal organizations who support democracy and global acceptance. It wouldn’t even cross their minds. I suppose they all pictured me continuing journalism and maybe going off to be a part of the Christian Coalition (which I used to attend with my mother back in the day) to help “straighten out America.” Sometimes I wish I could do it all over. But I wouldn’t be HERE NOW if I didn’t go through that THEN. I had to learn my way and eventually my whole life did a 180 turn. My parents, to this day, do not support my decision to turn toward “sin.”

Sin is my life now. In a good way, of course. If I didn’t, in some aspects, love sin, I sure as hell wouldn’t be advocating that cuckolds allow their wives to commit adultery. And while I do feel balanced, secure, love, peace, and harmony… I still sometimes have an underlying fear of going to my high-school reunion and tying up all those lose ends, which were mostly my fault for untying in the first place. I lost my best friend in high school because she came out as a lesbian, and I stupidly chose to shun her. I had a crush on a bisexual girl in my class for 2 years and when she caught me staring lustfully at her, I stopped speaking to her cause I was so embarrassed. If I ran into her today, I would do everything in my power to woo her, but it sure would take many apologies and a lifetime of convincing that I’m no longer that person.

Ugh. How did I go from talking about college (which I love and am excited about) to talking about a high school reunion (which I dread about as much as cutting my own leg off)?

Love
Isabella
xooxoxox

I found free wisdom

Published on March 3, 2008 in Journal posts. 1 Comment

For the last 4 months, I’ve  been contemplating moving to Vegas and just recently decided against it. I love Bloomington and the more I stay here, the more I know I came here for a reason. I moved here to attend Indiana University and it’s been one setback after another that has prevented me from attending. That is about to change, thanks to several moments of clarity obtained sitting in a room surrounded by books.

About a week ago, I discovered… the Monroe County Public library: a world of infinite knowledge and wisdom within three beautiful stories of bliss. I almost had an orgasm when I realized how many free books I could read and check out! The subjects offered in the public library are far more vast than any other library I’ve ever experienced. Considering I spent a major percentage of my childhood and adulthood within bookstores and libraries, this completely overwhelmed me to see such a mind-blowing building filled with all the topics I enjoy. To most people, the act of walking in a library is nothing new. You borrow books, you return them. No big deal, right? Wrong. For me, simply the act of walking INTO the library immediately increases my IQ points by at least 20 points. I just feel smarter when I walk into a bookstore or library. I find myself fascinated by new subject matter and topics that will expand my thinking. For me, nothing is sexier than intelligence. That being said, everyone within the library is also incredibly sexy to me. I don’t know why books turn me on so much, they just do. And now that I’ve been introduced to this massive library, I feel as though someone has put a vibrator in my panties and said to me, “That’s right. You can have as much of this as you want and it won’t cost you a penny.”

Within those library walls, I recovered a piece of myself  that had previously been shrouded in confusion. To move or not to move. To attend IU or not attend. The decision, while simple in delivery, is quite complex in beginning action stages. My goal is to begin attending IU within 1-2 weeks. Step one is to get my transcript from my other college and make sure this one has it. Second step is finding out registration times. If I’ve missed the cutoff time for Winter or Spring, then no problem. I’ll start out with online courses that way I can begin asap. Thanks to several generous customers, I already have all the textbooks I need for 4 courses.

So why this sudden re-interest in college? Oh boy. How do I say this. Not only was I introduced to the main county library, which by its own standard is highly impressive, I also discovered the Taj Majal of information. Kinsey Institute has a library. Fucking unbelievable. The Kinsey Institute Library. By golly, I’m going to attend IU if it’s the last thing I do in this world. That was the sole reason for me moving here. To study Kinsey’s work. To be exposed to exclusive, confidential, and private sexual research that cannot be browsed by public eyes. I WANT IN! Just the thought of me being in a library filled with books on gender, sex, reproduction, gender-roles, GLBT, and all the other sexual topics I find intriguing, fills a destiny in me that absolutely cannot be put into words. Although I’m still undecided on whether or not I’ve lived a past life before, I often wonder if my previous life involved sex research or if I worked with Kinsey (or maybe I was Alfred Kinsey himself) many years ago. Nothing comes more natural to me. Gender research and studying human sexuality roles comes as naturally to me as hypnosis and NLP, so that’s saying a lot. It’s what I want to do with my life. Study sex. I’ve said it for years, and I know a lot of you have heard me rant about this (even in my audio blogs) for a long, long time. This week, my life will begin to change all over again.

Knowing that I’m about to take on the research of sexuality head-on, I’m also opening myself up to the possibility of also taking quantum physics courses (as you all know my ridiculous obsession with the subject of probability and plausibility within quantum physics), and maybe even taking law courses. My friends often say they could easily see me being a lawyer, especially with my NLP background. I never really pondered the idea that I would venture into law, and it’s still unknown to me, however if I became a lawyer in the sex field, especially one who fights for the rights of sissies, transgenders, lesbian and gay couples, D/s couples, and those who have unconventional sexual relationships - I know I could win (and win big!) because it’s something I’m passionate about and it complements the direction my life is moving.

There’s no such thing as having too much knowledge. At this point, I really don’t even care about getting degrees (before that was all that was important to me). Right now, I just want to delve head-first into all the courses that interest me and let my intuition guide me along the path to increased happiness and success.

I suppose on a global level, achieving a doctorate in psychology would be my ultimate goal. However, right now, it’s important to me that I make correct decisions based on happiness rather than expectation. In any other previous circumstance, I would have kicked myself for not knowing what I want. Usually I’m the kind of person who is very anxious, urgent, and lives life in accordance to perfectionism and have-all-or-nothing. Today, I’m proud that I’ve learned the art of patience and that it’s ok to take small steps to get to the big goal. My zen only lives happily when I take the time to thoroughly read life’s article, instead of skimming it just to say it’s been read.

Love
Isabella
xoxooxox



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