One thing great about having a connected group of friends is to ask them, “If I were a video game character in this game of life, what would you perceive me to be?”
Almost unanimously, they answered, “A summoner.”
On many levels, I absolutely love the concept of being stereotyped into a box. And of course there are other times where it’s the one thing I run away from. For instance, being stereotyped as a lesbian, when many people already know that I absolutely love relationships with “the right” type of man as well. I love the concept of self-identifying myself as a summoner. I summon things all the time actually. Summon transportation - car! Summon a game - done! Summon happiness - done! Whether it’s summoning food, tools, conversations, connections, documents, external life forces, etc. for people… it’s what I do best. The other day I went to Indianapolis to watch Speed Racer with some friends and we spent the night. In the morning we all craved food. We were too low-energy to leave the house. No place was open that would deliver. So they called upon Isabella the Summoner and low and behold, I used my skills to convince a non-open place to deliver to us anyway. Thirty minutes later, we had two pizzas. That’s just one… of an infinite amount… of examples I could give of such skills. And it happens all the time. Xaeneth wanted a guitar. Now he has one thanks to Isabella the Summoner.
Now I am trying to use my skills to summon Kay into my life so that I can convince her to design a Summoner tattoo for me on my leg to convey the exact message I want to define. My goal is to have “trust” be an object of summoning. And I want it tattooed. How can trust be drawn? How can trust be conveyed? What does trust look like? I want to have trust be a consistent shadow behind and in front of me at all times. If I fall forward, I want trust to catch me. If I fall backwards, I want trust to be my safety net.
At times I am so lost. And other times I realize the act of being lost is only a sign that I have explored such new territory that overwhelming moments are merely a reflection of what I wanted.
What I want and what I have are both exactly what is necessary, but not necessarily something I am knowledge about. I have been given a compass in this game of life. But I don’t know how to read it. I hope Isabella the Summoner can bring forth the right connections in her life so that I can read the compass and draw my life map much more easily.
Love
Isabella
xoxooxx
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