Reading your journal it strikes me that you have been accessing and surfacing your subconscious quite a bit over the last year or so. Perhaps you got to the point where a good thing became too much of a good thing.

Sleep deprivation is a real factor here. My one manic experience (which had a erotic hypnosis component) was triggered by some jet lag coming back from Hawaii (I took the red eye back, and I can’t sleep on planes. I had stayed awake for something like 36 hours, and listened to an erotic hypnotic induction - which triggered four *very* interesting days).

Oddly my feelings of euphoria and calm happened after the manic erotic period. The interesting thing was my subconscious was still very much on the surface — I was getting instant intense emotional feedback from the body language of other people. And then it slowly receded.

It is not uncommon for manics to want get back to the manic state. The euphoria and energy are palpable.

The question is - can you function in a socially appropriate fashion in that state? In my manic period I was also functional - but barely.

A deep part of my interest in hypnosis is the question of whether I could use hypnosis to reliably move in and out of that state at appropriate times.

Be safe, but also be open to what you are experiencing.