It really is a shame that I have to write this post.

Ever since slave maurice and I came out to the public about our D/s relationship, everyone has had voiced their opinions about us. I mean, it’s on every fucking hypnosis website, hypnosis group, hypno forum, etc. and the opinions range from being very positive and supportive to downright nasty and hateful. What is the big fucking deal? My lord. He and I have had an insatiable bond for the longest of time that didn’t include ANYONE else in our little world and all of a sudden, hundreds and hundreds of people all start piping in their comments about our relationship. If people were all positive, I probably wouldn’t mind as much, but as you know, people don’t always agree.

What really annoys me is that there are folks who simply don’t understand the 24/7 BDSM lifestyle at all. And because they don’t UNDERSTAND the concept of a full power exchange, they tend to point fingers and say hateful things. People made comments suggesting that we are idiots or slave maurice is making a big mistake or we are fools or whatever. First of all, may I remind everyone talking about us - that we are real people and these are OUR LIVES you are so blatantly attacking? I understand the craving to gossip about people who live in the limelight, especially when the hypno community is fairly small to begin with… but enough is enough! Regardless of what people say or how hateful people get, it’s not going to change our minds about how we feel about each other. Why? Because our relationship is not up for debate. It never has been. He and I have formed an everlasting bond and it’s not going to break simply because people are shocked by my occupation and his fetish. The only reason we came out publically, was because of the new site ownership of Inraptured.com, not for everyone’s fucking opinions about our personal relationship.

Several people now have expressed concern that he is giving up his “family” for me. God. For once and for all, he’s not fucking married with an armful of kids. Jesus christ. When I said he was giving up his family for me, I was referring to all his siblings, his parents, his family and friends who all live around him that he’s close to. Why does this matter to you all? It’s NOT YOUR LIFE. It’s mine. It’s his. Goddamn. Others have expressed concern that he’s merely “giving into a hypno fantasy” and making a terrible decision. Are you all fucking insane? If this was just a hypno “fantasy,” I WOULDN’T be doing this. It wasn’t like I just jumped into this relationship. And it wasn’t like I went looking for HIM. Trust me on that. The two of us found each other when we weren’t even looking. There was instant chemistry and it kept growing and never stopped. As he began to fall in love with me, I began to become more fond of him. This is not a fantasy, this is REAL LIFE. I’ve lived with a slave before. I’ve had a 24/7 slave before living in my home. It’s not the first time for me. This is NOT some fantasy world. Anyone who thinks it is a fantasy - well, it must be a fantasy for YOU, but it certainly isn’t a fantasy for maurice and I. It’s very REAL. Paying for plane tickets is REAL. Getting ready to move in together is REAL. Purchasing lots of bondage equipment is REAL. Checking the compatibility of our fetishes is REAL. Finding out his fetish level from this week to that week is REAL. There’s NOTHING fantasy about that. It’s only fantasy if you “think” about it and never follow through.

Thousands of submissives all over the world give up their lives, their jobs, their homes, to move in with dominants they met online. People they spent a long time getting to know and trust. Hell… if you think about it, even REGULAR people meet online and give up their jobs and move cross-country to be with the people they love. Why are we so different? Why should we be denied that right too? Why is it so wrong that he gave me his (non-profit) website as an act of love? Need I remind everyone I’ll be the one forking over my own personal money for new scripts, upgrades, and hosting. When someone loves another person, they give a part of themselves to another person. And when slave maurice gave me inraptured.com, he was VERY MUCH giving me a big part of himself and entrusting me with it. It was like handing me a key to his heart and saying, “I love you and there is no one I trust more than you and therefore I want you to have the one thing I have had of value for so long.” Why can’t people see the BEAUTY in that instead of seeing the vindictive side? Do people REALLY think I am the jealous type of girl who is going to ban all of my competitors and turn the site into an “Isabella site” simply to promote myself? Are people insane? Hell I’m not jealous of a single one of my competitors. Most of them are jealous of me. My money is more than fine thank you. (hello? I’ll be supporting me AND slave maurice on just MY income alone!) I swear, it just annoys me when people assume the worst about me - when they DON’T even know me.

The two of us have many safety measures in place, including “safe people” who have our contact info should anything happen to either one of us. I constantly ask him during our bdsm sessions how he’s handling what I’m dishing out to make sure he’s ok. Eventually I will ask him less and less because I’ll know his tolerance level. But for now, this is my way of building up a trusting relationship with him in person. For those of you who for ONE SECOND assume we’re not being “safe” don’t have anything to worry about. Even when I have him in a brainwashing cage, I have a video monitor in there to watch his every move. I have safety features and things he can resort to in the event he ever wants to put a halt to anything - none of which he’s had to do. I find it offensive that people would doubt my integrity, my professionalism, or my care over him. I take my care over slave maurice very seriously and I care over him the way I would care for my own child (if I had one).

Yes, I am a hypnotist. Yes, he is a hypnofetishist. Yes, he loves to be brainwashed. So what? What’s the big deal? You think just because I am a hypnotist, I don’t deserve love? You think that because I am a hypnotist in my professional life, I should never hypnotize people in my personal life? He and I share a fetish of hypnosis. That doesn’t mean I hypnotize him to do stuff against his will, hell that’s impossible anyway. People make it sound as though I FORCED him to move in with me. God. What is wrong with you all? I am his Mistress and he is my slave. He wants nothing more than to serve me for the rest of his life and there is nothing I want more than to have him down at my feet looking up at me.

The two of us have waited our whole lives to finally find each other. Whenever we speak to each other on the phone, there is a sense of urgency and genuine adoration that goes both ways. You can hear it in our voices. When we type to each other on IM, our conversations last hours and hours and we have to force ourselves to pull away even when our eyelids barely stay open, simply because we want to keep each other company. When we spend time together in person, we are inseparable. I can’t even describe our relationship into words and I shouldn’t even have to.

I do want to thank those of you who have shown an outpouring of support for us. The positive comments have FAR outweighed the negative comments, both in emails and in posts throughout the internet. For that, slave maurice and I are both very thankful. We’ve actually discussed this quite thoroughly and every time someone said something nice about us, we would share it with each other and say, “Look what this person said about us, isn’t it sweet?” and those really made a positive impact on us. I apologize in advance for the GOOD people having to read such a NEGATIVE journal entry, but you know how it is. For some reason, even when lots of people say something wonderful, there’s always a few bad apples that tend to stick out the most. I’m trying not to let it get to me, after all… I’m finally in the relationship I’ve always wanted. I’m not about to compromise it just because some people out there are confused why someone would actually go through with such an extreme lifestyle.

Some people are meant to live boring lives. Some people are meant to live exciting, extreme lives. Obviously slave m and I fall into the latter.

Love
Isabella
xoxoxooxox