I had the most interesting conversation with a dear friend about my current situation and it led to quite an enlightening discovery. Since November, my recordings have been more “positive and uplifting” than they were in the past, mainly because of my spiritual awakening I had in Hawaii - and continue to have every day. I told my friend of my dilemma - that my customers like seeing the Dommely, sometimes evil, side of me - but I had grown less comfortable doing that over the past few months.

Then we discussed the yin and yang theory, that you can’t have one without the other. That even a Goddess must have some evilness in order to portray her positiveness. In all white, there is black. In all black, there is some white. Even “god” would show his wrath, wouldn’t he? And a self-proclaimed Goddess would still have the right to be demanding, to maintain “control of the floor” if you will. Even in positivity, there can still be consequences, which customers seem to like — consequences. I get emails almost daily from people requesting rather negative consequences, such as blackmail fantasies, castration fantasies, and forced sexual situations. In the past, I’d have no trouble doing this, as my conscience didn’t really mind. The only way I could do such recordings now, is if I emphasize that these fantasies are only for the customers, and not necessarily follow my own personal beliefs. In the past, I had no difficulty whatsoever creating recordings emphasizing bankruptcy, homelessness, and joblessness in order for the person to serve me better. The new side of me argues, “If a person is bankrupt and homeless, how can they afford to serve me?” So I’ve stopped doing those types of recordings. But the requests keep coming. Can you see my dilemma?

I thought it was funny when I flat out asked him for permission to combine the two. I remember saying, “So I have permission to be both wonderful and evil? Is it ok for me to do both?” For some reason, his opinion mattered to me, simply because he, by definition, is a positive-energy filled person. And he said, “Yes, of course! You have permission, Isabella.” And over the course of the past couple days, I’ve been getting in touch with the part of me that can balance the two sides of me, which I hope will appeal to more customers. Less and less customers have been buying my positive, uplifting recordings… yet my evil ones are selling like hotcakes. My money situation is fine, however I’ve found it personally disappointing that all these new ones simply aren’t in demand. I know I’ll continue making positive ones, not necessarily for customers - but for me, because they’ve made enormous changes in my life that have improved my personal growth, love for others, and the need to spread knowledge to those who want to learn.

Those who have listened to recordings such as Escape, Intimate with Isabella, and Ascend into Goddesshood - have said those mp3s helped transform their lives. The compliments received from them far outweigh any other recording, yet they sell the least. It’s ironic, but I get it. It’s a different niche altogether. I’ll still continue to do it because money is irrelevant to me right now. I’m comfortable where I am in my life and the most important thing right now is self-enlightenment. If I can help people become self-enlightened with their negative fantasies, perhaps that can be a good thing, right? It’s food for thought.

I’m curious what other people think about Yin and Yang. Can there be a balance of evilness and goddessness, while still being true to form?

Love
Isabella
xoxooxox