Who are we?

Is there a such thing as a soulmate? Is there just one or are there more than one? Over the last few months, I’ve come to the conclusion that we do indeed have souls (or spirits, or energy things)… so do we actually have soul partners? Have we met them before in this lifetime or are they soul partners we’ll only find when we’re not living in our human bodies? A friend of mine said I have a soulmate, but that I won’t meet that person until I’m dead (not everyone, just me). I suppose it’s just his opinion and can accept it as such. However it does make me wonder about soulmates. How would you know if you had one if you did?

Do we have twin souls? There were times in the past I felt I had a split/duplicate soul somewhere in Asia and as of November, I’ve come together as a whole. But if I’m a whole person now… how would that explain possible souls in parallel universes? We absolutely MUST have infinite versions of ourselves in parallel universes. It’s a definite possibility given the theories of quantum physics. If that’s the case, am I really whole or just a fraction of myself? Surely I must be whole. I feel whole.

Sometimes I wonder about all the answers out there. Am I asking the right questions? Do I really want to know the answers once I ask? Do I really want to be plugged into the Matrix and have life revealed to me? It’s a question I continually ponder, as do many. Why are we here? How many lifetimes do we live, if any? How many times must we try, over and over, to learn, to live, to grow, before we are satisfied? What is satisfaction, if not the ending of a creation. Can we be satisfied knowing we’ll never be satisfied? Or is satisfaction merely a myth. If our goals on earth are to constantly achieve, learn, grow, and spread knowledge… at what point is it enough? And if it IS enough, do we come back the next lifetime? At what point do we just get to say, stop… and then fly to the connection to source, touch it, live in our virtual heavens we envision… and receive the fruits of our labor.

I’ve transcended. But I want to transcend time and space forever, outside of human evolution. How many books will have to be written, how many speeches will one have to hear, how many voices do we have to listen to… before we receive the knowledge that allows us true satisfaction?

Someone once asked me if I was satisfied. I said no. After all, if we are all satisfied, then what is the point of continuing and achieving more? No artist is truly satisfied, right? So if none of us are truly satisfied, at what point can we just rest back and say, ok, let me bask in the essence of what has been created. If creation and rebirth are ongoing, and time and space are infinite, then technically, none of us are really here.

Think about it. If the universe if infinite. Truly infinite, not finite… and assuming by scientific proof that the Earth, as we know it now, is the only place with living organisms (not that I think the earth is the only place with living cells, I’m just saying)…. that would mean that living organisms are finite, right? If they’re confined to the earth?

So technically… if you divide finity (living souls on earth) by infinity (the universe), we are zero. Infinity divided by finity will ALWAYS be zero. If WE are ZERO…. how do we know we aren’t just living in a dream? Are we REALLY here? Maybe someone else is dreaming, perhaps another version of me is dreaming… and I am living their dream. When will she wake up? Where is she? Is she really there? How many of me are there? Does she know I want to be woken? How can I speak to the dreaming me?

Questions, questions… they never make sense to anyone, I know. I ramble. Such is life. We wonder. But what is life without wondering, and what is wondering without some element of life.

Love
Isabella
xoxooxo