I can’t put my finger on it, but for the last couple months, I’ve been feeling far more sadistic than usual. My tone of voice reflects it too, and it seems, at times, I get far more cocky than normal. My favorite porn videos are MUCH more hardcore than it used to be and whenever I see a male slave/sub/playtoy in person, my first instinct is to beat/torture/humiliate him. And when it comes to girls, all I want to do is spank/molest them. And it’s not just submissive girls either. Just this morning I went to the grocery store. In the produce section, I saw this conservatively dressed pretty lady (thirties or late twenties) who was examining some tomatoes - touching all of them and putting them back. She was examining them as though she wanted “just the perfect” tomato and it struck me as being picky - which only fueled my horniness because it reminded me of my own pickiness. All I wanted to do was attack her, pull down her skirt and her panties, lean her over my lap, and stick a corn-on-the-cob in her mouth and spank her with a wooden cutting board. I imagined hearing her muffled screams while ramming a zucchini in her swollen cunt. I don’t know where those thoughts came from, but that, along with other naughty and rather perverted thoughts seem to appear out of nowhere.

One thing is certain. My horniness level is the highest it’s been in I *think* forever. I can’t wait to get a girl slave so I can have My needs met. I swear. Masturbation used to fun, but hell, I need a partner. I haven’t had an earth-shattering, puddle-forming, voice-losing, jaw-numbing, pussy-satisfied oral sex session in over a year now. I miss having a chick between my legs who’s eating me out and I’m pulling her hair telling her to suck my clit harder. I miss pinching a girl’s nipples and finger fucking her in the middle of the day for a nooner. I miss hearing “Miss Isabella” while a girl is on her knees. *faints*

*sigh*

A few people have asked me what kind of things get me off when it comes to porn. It varies really. Every day I’m usually in the mood for a different thing. Some porn sites I’m a member of include: whippedass.com (lesbians dominating submissive girls and fucking them), extremefemdom.cz (owk.cz) - which is hardcore female domination of men where I just want to see them beaten to a pulp, ravenhillstudios.com (a hardcore spanking website), eroticspank.com (but just canceled membership), realspankingsfilms.com (hardcore spanking and strappings site), clubjenna.com (lots of girl on girl videos), and sometimes scar13.com.

Sometimes I want to see a girl fucking another girl with a strapon. Other times I want to see someone suspended while being whipped. Other times I want to see a girl getting spanked by a belt and crying real tears. And I also sometimes get aroused watching girls gag on a cock (to the point of her being nauseus) or see two men fucking each other (especially the kind of porn where one man claims to be straight and he’s “eased into it”). I also like watching Mistress Sandra on whippedass.com because her seductive, sadistic, and teasing style is much like my own (not her earlier videos, but her newest ones). I like the way she shocks a girl with voltage while she’s bound, taking her right to the edge, but does it in such a way that the girl is practically begging for more. I like seeing a girl bound and tied up (outdoor or indoor) in a position that leaves her breasts and pussy exposed. I’m not turned on by breast bondage where the girl’s breasts turn red and look like two tomatoes protruding out of her chest. However, I do like the idea of clamps and clothes pins and having weights being hung from nipples. Especially when her legs are forced apart with a spreader bar, which lets my imagination go in a million directions. Othertimes I just get aroused at the idea of a naked slavegirl crouched in a cage while I poke her with a cane through the top of the bars just because I can.

I can’t wait to be able to walk behind my slavegirl, lift her skirt, and spank and finger her over the stove in the kitchen while she’s eating lunch. For some reason, I get aroused at the idea of a slavegirl having her lunch (or tv watching, or whatever) interrupted for my sexual needs.

I’m fucking horny and it’s getting overwhelming at this point.

Love
Isabella
xooxox